Due to high demand..

HAHAHA.. yeap! due to "high" demand.. Here's an update on www.ji4n.blogspot.com.
yea rite.. high demand.. hahaha.. only one audience actually.. which is our famous or infamous SEXAY dentist! the one which we will one day seek for help.. Not the fairy tooth fairy? BUt a xing gan dentist! who worked so hard for it. =)

ALrite alrite.. enuff of stories bout sexay dentist that i missed so much .. =P back to the real deal!

Once upon a time, there was a boy named wai kit. He was a pathetic guy living in a cold and snowy house.....

oooops.. where were i going with that!!? hahaha.. breakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk~~

ehem ehem, okay.. back to business. It's Winter break!! weeeeeeee.. which means i have one whole long month or rather a short break. Here's how my winter break starts:

1) Arrival of wai kit. My INTI college mate. He's a fine guy as i introduced to u all in my short fairy tale story.. haha.. tadaaa~


2) Reason for wai kit's visit: He has no where to stay in his cold cold Chicago. All his frens were going home. Last but not least, he wanted to visit me in San jose! so he can travel around California. =P

3) Trip to LA
It was the Best trip ever! "best" as you can see in my facebook. I've uploaded some of the photographs there. Why am I saying it was the best trip ever? guess what? it was a tight budget trip. I was cool with that at first because my fren did not want to spend too much on the trip. First and foremost, we stayed in Hollywood Hostel right in the middle where all the Hollywood attractions are. The best thing is, it only cost us 17 dollars a night~! Sounds cool huh? haha.. attached is a photograph that we took in the room. We had so many different roommates. there were 6 ppl in a room.




The hostel was not too bad as it was clean and tidy. There wasn't any SCARY ppl too. luckily. Hahha.. It all went bad when I start to get sick! and then wai kit got sick too. We are still unsure of the cause of these sickness! hmmm.. Probably due to the polluted air in LA or the HOSTEL! haha.. unknown. Anyways. the wind in LA was super strong. I think it goes up to 50 MPH! we find it so cold that i regret not to bring my ski jacket. Its even hard to walk around. This is what made the trip the "best" ever. Sickness, cold, lost, bla bla bla.

4) The Wax museum in Hollywood. The stuffs there was so cool. ALthou they wasn't as real as we saw in the photographs. It was still kinda.. sort of REALISTIC. haha..




hmmm.. That's about it for this time. As im still sick. hahaha.. rarh! I miss all the ppl in Msia! U all must be having so much fun back in Msia. WHere as Im sick here.. In the cold cold US. owh.. there was a thing that cheered me up thou.. hehee.. I PASSED my ENglish! hehehehe.. and my results was better than expected too. =) i got all A's hahaha! 1 A- and 1 A+ .. hehehe..

Owh yah.. lastly, LSZ.. have u been working hard towards the lucky number 47? hahaha.. if not, u better do. owh! It's sze's birthday rite? HAPPY BIRTHDAY SZEEE~
guess u will get another surprise in MSIA! hahaa.. so many sistas! haha.. cool! have a superb birthday! may u be happy always! =) and happy belated birthday to yin too! =)

THats it peep. Take care of yourself and hmmm.. HAVE FUN for the sake of ppl who are stuck in a place where he has no close ones to refer to when he's lost.. hahaha.. lalalal.. rite...

and they live happily ever after.......... (just to finish up the fairy tale intro ;P)

It's my 60th post!!

hahaha yes yes! it's my 60th post.. so what? LOL nth.. =P errrrrrr... Donno how i end up here writing stuffs. Will be having my first finals this semester in like an hour time! and it would be a credit or no credit class: ENGLISH!! to be more accurate, it is Remedial English.. so People.. please pray hard for me! hahaha.. As i really need to pass the class.. It's really slowing me down on my degree progress.. Which means i will need a longer time before i get back to MSia.. hahaha RARH!

Hmmm.. Been kinda tired these days. I don't know why.. Probably is because of my tiny lil bed.. I'm just to huge to fit in the tiny little bed! when i put my legs straight while lying on the bed.. it only covers up to my knees! hahaha.. haih.. I probably should get a better bed. Besides, i think it might be due to my work! rarh! i started working 2 days ago. The first day was okay.. as it was pretty lay back style work.. hahahaha.. the second day was tough! i dont even get a break which i should.. I worked 5 hours straight! hahah it's been a while since i have to stand for that long! my feet sores like crap!

Sexay wanna come to US? Go and apply for your VISA la! hahaha.. bring ur frens along too.. kekekeke..

TIme to prepare!

" This is where we HOLD'em; THis is where we FIGHT! "
300! LOL Spartans!

owh! if u are wondering where's that messy place is.. MAke a WILD guess.. U should be right! hahaha..

Back from Reno!

yes! I'm back from Reno! it's a place with casinos! ahhaha just like a mini vegas. They are in the same state thou.. Besides, i also went to Northstar Resort for skiing! ahhaa.. it was fun to watch ppl falling down all the time when i don't fall anymore.. whahahahahaha! A fine weekend like this is what i need to forget about all the problems and stresses.. ahha U all should try it out too! =)

Anyway, I've seen ppl who are getting holidays soon! rarh! so do I! just a little longer time to go for me. That means my finals is coming real soon! the first paper will be on this Saturday. The weird thing is that I still hav classes after my first final paper. WHAT THE HECK!!? hahaha.. let's hope I can survive to the finals with all the colors of the world. I mean all! more than all those on the rainbow. haha and i hereby wish that everyone who is having finals or any exams or watever in life to pass with flying, floating, superb colors! hahaa.. omgosh im late for tutor.. I need help for physics... Till then.. jian signing off! weeee...

My Love Will Get You Home (song)

Spell?

Lost...

How many times have i been lost? losing my identity. not knowing who i am. Who i am to others. I don't know.. probably many times.. Just had a Sam Adams light beer. Been drinking quite frequently now.. mostly at nite. Guess i want to not remember that im lost. but even after a drink. nth changes. its like.. im still having the same feelings.. but a lil bit more numb on the outside thou.. but the inside nvr change..

Why do i have these worries inside me? worry that i might brokedown one day knowing that there's no meaning for my existence. Knowing that i might not be needed in the world. As they all get their own meaningful ones.. i will just be ditched aside..

I don't know what should i do now.. Going back to Malaysia doesn't seem so special now and a part of me wanted to go back but another part of me doesn't. I wanted to experience winter here. but how about the coming summer? should i go back? probably not because i want to take some summer courses so that i can grad in a shorter period of time. Not only that. there's some issues with my apartment rental. As im renting wit two other msian girls. we are sharing the rent of the apartment. So, if i were to go back to msia in summer. the rent goes on because there is no reason for me to not have to pay for my part of the rent when im not around. the only solution is to not go home OR to find someone who wants to stay in my room for summer. That's kinda hard as i have most of my stuffs in my room. How is that person going to live in my room with all my stuffs there.. I would be too lazy to shift out all my stuffs to empty my room for that person. Crap! see.. its not like i dont want to go back.. i just have all these stuffs to worry about. So, please stop asking me to go back as part of me wanted to but i cant for some understandable reasons..

Guess im kinda drunk now.. or maybe i wanted to be drunk and i get drunk easily. Look how many time si used drunk in this paragraph.. probably im drunk. probably im not drunk.. Okay.. i sound like im drunk now..

These days are weird.. I always look in my MSN and scroll down the list to see who's online. There are ppl who i have in mind to talk to. but for some reasons.. i stopped myself. I don't know what to talk to them. I always had this worry that they might be busy or they just dont wanna talk to me. Maybe its not the right time to talk to them.. all these craps! someone please help me.. is this normal? does anyone has the same experience?

Its probably due to past experience when i talk to them. they simply tell me that they are doing something or they have something to do.. that really makes me feel unneeded. unwanted or watever... its just.. disappointing! but i know i cant blame them. i just at least would like them to u know.. say hi to me first when they are free to do so.. haha.. probably i felt lonely now.. yeah.. i think i am.. pitiful me.

I'm going to have my last midterm in this semester on wednesday. What i did was a sheet of notes.. not completed yet.. sometimes i think my weakness is that i oversimplify stuffs.. everything.. i made them look simple to me.. but actually its not.. it's not easy to make things simple thou.. i guess its m weakness to OVERdo it! as my advise! never overdo something..

alrite.. i donno wat else to write.. i should probably just get some sleep and go shopping tmr! gilroy! the factory outlet town! ahahhaa... owh yeah.. i bought my clothing for skiing in thanksgiving.. ehehe... it costs me quite a lot.. i think more than 200 dollars.. but i just have to spend it once.. hopefully.. =)

My Love Will Get You Home

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home. Boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home. Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashame, my love will get you home.
If its only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home. Boy, my love will get you home.

Hah! A song from "Heart of Greed". hmm.. let say its soft.. hahaha yeah! definitely a goodnite song... LOL.. anyone has any idea how to add songs to bloggie? hahaha.. i know i know.. its lame.. but just to add in something so i can share songs here as well.. hahaha..

Anyway, those are the pics of a game of broomball! ahhaa.. it was fun! but i can hardly breathe in the ice center. I don't know why. Probably of the cold air? haha its really cold.. never expect it to be that cold. anyways.. broomball is like ice hockey. Without skates. and brooms instead of the hockey stick.. LOL i donno wat they call it. wweeee! i scored 1 ! =P

This weekend was really a good one. Just had 2 midterms and the following should be so much less stress.. cause there's not as much homework or anything else to worry about. I finished Heart of Greed too! haha 40 episodes.. Basically my weekend is spent on Series, Basketball, Broomball. and other normal stuffs which im lazy to list them.

To those who are stress.. or maybe not doing that well. You should just look ahead! haha get back on your feet and seek jian wei for help. i will give u a push on your back. not too hard yet not too soft. Just enuff to keep you going. =) Guess i will need someone else to do that to me real soon. As i predict that i am going to be stressed up real soon.hahaha it's always like that.. maybe sometimes its good to tell ppl that everything is going to be ok. If that gives them hope to walk on the tough and rough and full of obstacles road! hehe.. but im sure it will be a superb outcome at the end.

Hmmm.. LSZ asked me to consider going back next summer. HAHA.. so i am! considering the pros and cons.. The last time i went back was not that beneficial. hahaha.. as i spent most my time playing dota, basketball? haha but its cool. I'll see how things goes ok? hehehe.. The thing is i've never experience a summer here yet. I've so far experience all other seasons.. at least im going too... haha.. Can't wait for the ski trip during thanksgiving.. Probably the only motivation now.. hahaha ski ski ski ski ski ski ski.. snowboard maybe? hahaha.. maybe maybe not maybe maybe not. LOL. omgosh.. is that what happens when ppl get hyper? hmmm.. probably.. i ate a lot of stuffs this weekend as i stayed in front of the lap top most of the time..

owh yah.. in the "Heart Of Greed" that guy writes a diary! haha.. he started after breaking up with the girl. can't believe he is writing every single day down for like 900 days? hahaha.. omg.. how can he take that? that's nuts.. hahaha.. hmmm any new songs to recommend? anyone? hehe.. thanks!

It's never too late?

What is meant by it's never too late? when u are late u are late.. of course.. some might say that its never too late to start all over.. but that is so much easier to be said than done.. a million to the power of a million harder!

I have two midterms.. one might be tomorrow which im not even sure.. and one is on thursday.. but it might be both on thursday too which i prefer.. if it is on tuesday it will definitely caught me unprepared.. and i will probably screw it up so badly that i would cry looking at it.. hahaha... dam! have been so stressed up! stress is beneficial huh? Not so.. when u have ulcers.. headache and feel like killing yourself.. There are just so many many things to be worried about.. homeworks.. assignments.. mid terms.. now adding in a malaysian club thing.. and work.. grrrr.. its really driving me nuts... although hamsters like nuts.. i do too.. but i don wanna go nuts! rarh! i dont wanna eat up myself..

i had a weird dream yesterday.. i once heard ppl said that if u remember ur dream.. u must've not slept well.. i guess so.. have been yawning in class non-stop.. and there's even tears in my eyes.. hahaha.. grrrrrr... stress stress and stress.. n e ways.. the dream was.. about a girl.. it's really weird.. she knows that im leaving soon.. to somewhere.. LOL.. and she made me this kinda.. errr album.. full of food and a lot alot of stuffs.. and it's like a really really long story written in a book.. i didnt read it in the dream as it was too long.. and i decided to keep the album till im free to read it.. haha maybe someday i shall read it in my dreams.. if it still exists..

rararara.. gtg class now.. let's see if i can get through this without having to give up anything.. i hate it when i have to choose between stuffs.. grrr.. but life is just full of choices.. this and that this and that this and that.. lalalala.. wateva la..

A little video i found.. hahaha.. it was taken accidentally when i was back in Malaysia.. a mamak session with LSZ, Yin Yang and Jo.
=)

Enjoy or suffer.. YOUR choice!

wuu... this has to be one of the best weekend that i spent in San Jose. For the very first time, i played football! as in American football.. not soccer.. hahaha.. It's cool! althou my team lost most of the game... haha.. if u can spot me in the pic.. im at hmmm mid right? wearing green and white strips.. =) the sand there was really cold! and i mean it! so cold!

BTW, it's Santa cruz beach. about an hour drive from san jose downtown. i've heard alot about ppl wasting their weekends.. haha and im always doing it.. but its really up to how u 'waste' your weekend.. if u do something that got u relaxed.. i guess that wasn't a waste afterall.. since u get all the enjoyment from it.. haha.. anyways... those are peeps from my housemate's christian fellowship.. called A2.. hmmm.. they organizes all types of activities.. santa cruz beach bonfire was one of them.. haha.. althou im not (yet) a christian, * thats what they say... * i guess they don't really care... we just hang out and have fun. =) they are all good ppl.. i know.. haha..

I think it's pretty much our choice whether to enjoy something or not.. now.. i actually have a General redo of a physics exam. Because the class did really bad. The lecturer is giving us a chance to improve our score.. by 30 points max for 3 questions.. I don't know how to do them.. and im kinda struggling.. so.. i end up did like 2 of it and got stuck. Planning to see a tutor tmr.. hopefully they can help. See.. if i chose to struggle wit it.. i would be so stressed up.. but instead.. i chose not to.. i mean how much can that affect my life? learn to look further i guess... u might be stressed out.. but why not take a break? haha.. go do whatever u wanted to do for a while.. since u cant accomplish the stuffs that are supposed to be done.. haha.. i don't know.. u might get less things done this way.. but i guess there's less suffering.

bla bla bla.. One tree hill is over! all four seasons.. i finished it in errr... 1 month? hahaha.. am watching the drive of life now.. cool! lala.. since i don't know how to do my work.. im just gonna do things that i enjoy doing! which is watching drama for now.. haha.. till then.. dont stress out with problems that u are having.. look at the good side of things.. dont be negative.. there will be a way if u have the will.. =) go on and see what happens.. sometimes u have to let ur ego down.. but thats ok.. just do it.. i was thought to open up the door to others.. * in the leadership conference * haha.. ermm.. yeah.. you just wont know if u dont try.. just don carry expectations.. and u'll be fine ;)

Every song ends, and so do every life. Enjoy while it still plays.

Hello ji4n's blog,

It's your owner here. Well, kinda. Sorry that this will be another emo post?

One of my friend's father just left the world. You have my deepest sympathy.

An introduction of a song,
might be interesting,
might be boring,
or maybe simply astonishing.

The pre-chorus of a song,
might be bringing you up,
might be bringing you down,
or maybe neither nor.

The chorus of a song,
might be the best part,
might be the worst,
or maybe just the same.

The bridge of a song,
might be the greatest part,
might be the saddest part,
or maybe a pre-ending.

The outro of a song,
might be the coolest,
might be the loudest,
but it is definitely ending the song.

What if the best of the song is at the end?
miss it if you stopped at any parts of the song.
you just have to play on.
No matter how bad is the intro, or any part of the song.
because you just wouldn't know what will be coming next.

Every song ends,
so do every life.
Enjoy while it still plays.

Is it important?

As stated in the title, "Is it important?" to be written by Jian Wei Loh, he argues that the most important things in his life are family, friendship and love. The author is going to begin by asking the question of what do people think is the most important stuffs in their lives? is it achievements? Perfect scores? or Money? Jian states that none of those in the list should be. Why is he saying that? He looked in the mirror today and found out that, he didn't know who he is? or who he was? who he intended to be and who he had become. It certainly sounds like one of those lost teenagers who are looking for themselves. I guess the answer lies in place. A place no other than themselves. But he couldn't find it. So he's in some identity crisis?

"Is the person that i am becoming really the person i wanted to be?" Seriously I'm not sure. Who do i wanted to be? A successful guy with loads of money and girls? Thats what they said isn't it? Guys will only be bothered by 2 things. Money and girls.

First up, money. What is up with money? Can money buy me happiness? maybe. Maybe not. It depends on how did one get the money. Through some dirty paths isn't gonna give him/her happiness. No way. Unless he/she is insane. But well, People like that do exist. As in for me, i think money can't buy you all the happiness that you wanted. But without it, you will be suffering. A quick example would be you got some kind of weird sickness. Maybe not you, someone else that you care about. Without money, how are you supposed to help them? with your strength? No. It doesn't work that way in the world today. Money comes first. With money, you can provide them with professional health care, and certainly comfort. What can be worse than seeing the ones you care leaving you and you can't help it?

Aite.. enuff of those crap.. i had enuff.. hahaa.. was just trying to write a proper.. errr opinion piece i supposed.. but ended up.. i got lazy again! hahaha.. me and my random mind.. maybe I'm going crazy.. well.. i can't help myself. so.. psychologists might.. hahaha.. actually i don't really get that stuffs about teenagers having trouble finding themselves? what the hell? We know who we are.. and why are we in wherever we are doing watever we are doing.. but is that really what we wanted to do? To a certain point maybe..

What's the point of studying engineering.. it's tough.. I didn't mean other majors are easy.. but why engineering? Cause it's a professional degree.. Without it, you can't find a job. WIthout a job, u will be BROKE! and live a life like what they said.. WAI LAO.. haha.. yeah.. so that is why we are studying.. it doesn't interest me at all.. maybe sometimes.. but.. i find some of them really irrelevant. it just makes me feel sick.. and questions why am i doing this? can't we just do whatever we want to do?

The answer is... WE can! But at a great price to pay.. You just don't dare to do it! to be rebellious? yeah.. for all these years.. following rules and stuffs.. and what did you get? i guess the result isnt there yet.. it might be a good one.. such as getting a degree and getting a good job.. But that wouldn't even mean a thing if you have no one to share with. ISn't it? who cares? That's the part where your family, friends and love ones comes in.. They are the ones that can share it with you.. they will be happy for you.. and proud of you.

People fall in the long journey. You just can't help it. Stand right back up when you fall. That makes you tougher.. each and every time. although it might be just a little. don't ever be afraid to walk again. Unless you can fly. ahhaha..

Aite.. So.. you guys watched a litre of tears? it's good in a way.. not that its sad.. but it's motivating! disabled being more hardworking than you? owh gosh.. you got to do better than that.. Yes.. the point of this paragraph is that appreciate what you got. and get the best out of your life. Although it might not be as good as others.. Make it better!

Been struggling with assignments and projects and readings? yeah.. it is definitely a pain in the ass. It's the first time this semester that i handed in a incomplete assignment. I did whatever i could. If its not good enough.. let it be.. At least i did the best.. Sometimes we shouldn't expect too much from ourselves.. do our best and hope for the best would be good enough.. there's always a " what if its not enuff? " LET IT BE! you did your best didn't you? If you were to blame.. admit it.. face it.. How hard can it be? * really hard XD *

THats it for now folks. Hope you will join me again with all my craps! =) Jian out!

Once again...

As you can see from the title, yeah.. once again.. haha this crappy feeling.. not really crappy.. i kinda enjoys it.. feeling of not wanting to do anything that i dislike.. (booo.. such as homeworks, reports and readings.)

aite *it means alrite if you are wondering* so.. how come i always don't know what to write when i blog.. because i have all those words that i wanted to say it here.. but once i get to this new post thing.. everything seems to vanish. but i have the freedom to write whatever i want to.. hehe.. soo.. been in the middle of some ... should i say problem? of two people.. and yea.. its a guy and a girl.. one is my brother.. *not blood related* and his ex gf... hahaha... aite..

It goes like this... they were together before he left to somewhere.. hahaha.. and its really far far away.. but still reachable by some means.. hahaha.. aite watever.. and they broke up after a month or two after he's gone.. the guy asked for it.. he said the feeling is just not the same and its fading.. and the girl.. who was dominated by the guy in their relationship, was kinda sad of it.. not kinda.. i shoulda say very sad.. but there's nth she can do about it. Time passes... The guy went back to Msia.

I was back in Msia at that time too.. and.. that guy, girl and me went out to yum char.. it was okay the first time.. but they didn't talk much though.. but the 2nd time.. which is the day before he is leaving again, both of them... told me that they feel awkward seeing each other and not wanting him to come ( for her ) and the other way round.. haha.. but it i ended up yum charing wit both of them.. hahaha.. im kinda bad ass.. hahaha.. it went okay i guess..

One more thing... okay.. this is kinda weird.. but watever.. i went out with his ex like a few times when i was back in Msia.. hahaha.. and .. i didn't inform him? And just i dont know what brings me to this but.. watever.. i felt like telling him and i did... hahah which is like a month later.. he was kinda pissed.. and i don't think there's anything wrong? since they broke up and he asked for it? and we just went out together.. its not even dating i guess.. aite.. watever.. this is getting boring..

Aite.. since i've said all these craps.. hahaha.. i dont know where did this came up.. but... i have a confession to make.. i don't think many people know about this.. but.. watever.. i had a gf here.. haha.. and please be aware of the 'had' that i used there.. it's kinda screwed up cause i didn't really contacted her while i was back in Msia.. Can't really help it with the time difference and time spent wit frens and family.. and i think didn't really spend much time wit my family.. but that always happens.. and yah.. she asked for a break up rite before i came back to US.. haha.. and i've never hear a word from her anymore.. she dont pick up my call.. her frens are pissed wit me.. but im lucky that my ex-roommate which is also a korean.. is cool wit me.. and we still hang out.. haha.. whatever.. i think its my bad in this but.. i did say sorry in email.. i know it wouldn't mean much.. but.. thats all i can do i guess.. haha...

Owh! i came across this song in the simpson's movie..
The Carpenters - Close to you
Its so nice! haha kinda.. it was actually a song compiled in a CD as gift for me some time ago.. haha.. Get it if u don hav it! haha strongly recommended..
hmmm.. Series that sucked - Prison break.. ( due to its lousy ending.. not even interested in season 2 )
Series that rocked my world for now.. - One Tree Hill.. ( it totally rocks! romance, sports.. its just so cool.. haha.. u might learn something from it.. such as.. how to deal wit relationship problem and stuffs. its really cool! strongly highly recommended! )

aite peeps.. i did took some pictures but im lazy to upload it from my phone.. it's like 2.15 am now.. haha.. i hav like loads of homework and reading to do.. but dont feel like doin it.. procrastinate! weeee... Getting familiar with procrastinating.. even read something bout how to deal wit it.. guess it didn't work.. cant really trust online stuffs.. and guess what? my housemate got a car! weeeee... now she can drive us around to get stuffs and eat! wahhahaha.. taiwanese and chinese food are so reachable now.. weee! so cool! love it! Rarh! im gonna cook some good food for everyone soon.. will take some pics.. hopefully it will look nice.. haha and.. for the mean time.. let's quote some quoting.. by whoever.. isn't that what everyone does? yeah.. im confirming to the group.. hahaha..

There's absolutely nothing you can do about your past,
No matter how tough it was.. how bad you did.. it's over,
You can always start over if you think you can..
What matters most is the future.. the past are just the past..
They give u good or bad memories or even appears in one of your dreams,
So, start getting on track and make a better future.. if u think u deserved one..

Wow.. i think i just broke the record of www.ji4n.blogspot.com of longest blog did i? hahaha .. Don't get tired of my blog.. haha read my mind! =) and.. one more question.. should i let more ppl to know about my blog.. haha ..

New bed!!

Heheheh.. i went to get a new bed today! hahaha.. it's an air bed.. Its quite comfortable too! hahaa. My housemates are saying i am gonna have a good nite sleep tonite.. since i slept on a considerable small mattress before this.. hahahaa.. Let me show you !

same old SAN JOSE...

yeap.. back to San Jose, California, United States of America. rarh! Sore throat is giving me such a pain in the throat and pain in the ass.. besides that im spitting yellow phlegm too.. YUCKS! hmm talking about phlegm.. hahaha nth nth.. there is a pain in my upper jaw near my right ear.. I do not know what is causing it, but it is definitely killing me. I've searched the internet for information about sore throat and found out that it is a symptom of TUMOR! omgosh.. my heart dropped when i read that part. i don't know whether the pain at my upper jaw near my right ear is the pain radiating to the ear that they are talking about. Hopefully its not.. haha! rarh! what is this la?

My sleeping time is all weird now too. i woke up at 1 pm today! omgosh.. slept at 2am last nite.. but still.. Thats a hella long sleep man.. haha.. i miss Malaysia.. haihs.. miss my bed.. my house.. haha.. how comfortable it is.. Love it so much.. haha cant wait to get my new mattress.. this mattress is too freaking small.. cant even fit me..

Moved in to this new apartment which is quite near to campus.. hahaa actually just across the street. but there are no furnitures. no desk. no chair. watsoever.. hahaha.. haihs.. charm.. So.. i've been here for about 3 days. Lets see what i've done so far.. haha.. sleep.. eat... unpacking.. watching anime, watching TVB drama, playing the guitar, paying fees, going to the bank, shopping, going to the apartment office.. haha thats about it wei.. most of the time i spent alone in my apartment.. yes yes.. im a loner again.. hahahaha.. kelian.. =( 2 more years here? im not sure if i can make it.. i'll try though.. haha.. unless someone managed to keep her promise.. LOL 47 is the lucky number huh? hahaha..

Alrite.. im lazy to write any further .. the sore throat is really killin me.. im gonna drink loads of water.. alrite.. till then.. laterz peeps! please drop your comments about my disease.. haha suggestions of treatment is greatly appreciated. =)

Back to US?

yeap.. 12 more days and i'll be off the land of Malaysia and be on my way back to San Jose.. SWT.. So, am i sad? I'm not too sure. I am sad i guess.. This feeling had been around me for some time.. i dont know what is that.. but it doesn't make me feel comfortable. crap.. rubbish.. Feeling lost at times.. What is the purpose of all these? Again.. failing to achieve what's expected.

Give and take.
Come and go.
Is that what's life all about? walao crappy man.. shit... Let's see.. back in US :

1) No Mamak! one of the major upset.. crappy food.. haha.. althou there are some nice ones.. but i still prefer Malaysia's food!
2) No Close Frens! this is the crappiest thing. Its just .. rarh! crappy.. no one to hang out with.. Not to say no one.. but.. its just different. With the different language.. i just dont feel connected at times.. rarh!
3) No Family! no Mommy's cooking.. rarh! all the crappy food.. and so expensive.. rarh! and im lazy to cook.. hav to do everything by myself.. crap! crappy life..
4) No Car! yeap.. it's all bout walking and taking public transport.. but this is acceptable. haha.. driving is stressful at times..

I am so gonna miss everything all over again.. and feeling lost again.. haha.. My Us frens once told me that sometimes when they wake up, they were shocked being in US.. " eh, why am i here? aren't i supposed to be home? " haha.. But guess this 3 years in US would be a different experience for me.. haihs.. i donno what might happen to me.. but watever it is.. i don care.. hahaha.. im just gonna finish what i am expected to do and see whats coming next.. hahaha.. omgosh.. i just don hav the vision that ycc always claims he has.. hahaha.. Maybe i am shortsighted and he has longsight.. akkaka.. watever..

haihs.. till then.. i'll enjoy the last few moments in Malaysia.. RARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
hamsters dont roar! they squeekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk?

Looks like i will be late again..

Operator: Why are you booking a flight this late? All the flights are full. The only flight available
back to San franc will be on the 19th of August.
Me: Omgosh.. how can this be? and the flight sux.. i will hav to stay in SG for a night... SG airport it
is.. haihs.. >.<

Yeap yeap.. hahaha looks like im always late to US.. will be rushing everything just like the first time.. i hope it would be a little better though.. as least im more used to the places now.. rarh.. and i will have to buy furnitures for my new apartment.. if not i will just be sleeping on the carpet.. T.T

Hmmm.. looks like my frens are getting all busy again as their holidays end.. but there are some whose holidays just started.. but dont think they are free.. haha.. some are leaving soon.. =( keke .. but i wanna thank you for spending time wit me. =) Guess i won't be back till i grad.. hahaha.. its really taking too much time.. would like to try to stay away from friends and family for a longer time.. it will makes me appreciate it more.. im sure.. hahaha.. lets see.. =P

Rarh... Clubbing was fun! hahaha.. seeing frens going wild.. LOLx.. esspecially my college fren.. first timer.. hahaha.. sexay was kinda wild too.. haha but not to guys.. =P and she has this fren who has such huge..XD im not attracted though.. =P because she is not available.. haha her bf was around all the time.. kakaka..

Hey peeps! if u are seeing this.. haha anyone wanna go genting? i have some free room(s) haha.. Lets go to genting before i leave k? haha.. till then.. ciao!
Btw.. here are some pics of my trip to Sydney and Newcastle.. hahaha

Malaysia....

Malays
Appetite
Ladies
Asians
Yum YUM
Syiok!
Important?
Aiseh!!

LOL... yes yes.. im back peeps! Malaysia! food food and food, fun fun and fun, messed up sleeping time thou.. hahah now im sleeping at neither the time of United States nor the time of Malaysia.. UK time i guess? LOL.. have been coming back home at 4 - 5 am daily.. LOL.. weirdnya... but.. fun! haha playing mahjong is fun, playing dota is fun.. playing basketball is syiok.. meeting frens is cool! hahaha rarh.. but when the thoughts of i have to go back to US soon kinda bothers me.. hahaha that is why people say that when u stay too long in Malaysia.. u wont wanna go back to US anymore.. hmmmm.. hahha thats true for me now i guess.. enjoying malaysia to the max..

so... there should be 3 trips in this holiday.. Australia.. the big one.. haha.. Perhentian.. and Genting.. LOL.. thats it i guess? should be enough trips for 2 months in Msia.. rarh!

I know my blog has been boring lately with no pictures... that is because i did not take any.. hahaha.. or lazy to upload.. =P yeap.. lazy lazy and lazy.. hehehehe.. laziness has no cure.. haihs.. please tell me if anyone could find one.. hahaha.. dy and ju coming back soon? and this saturday will be sze's house warming.. hahaha she said 7 sis will be there? kakakaka.. we shall see how many will show up.. kekeke...

Jian

HK airport

hahaha im in HK airport now.. PCCW WiFi connection is cool... even called my parents using internet phone.. alallalala~ yea yea im on the way back home now.. the flight will be in 2 hours time.. and takes about 3 and a half hours to reach KL.. hehehe rarh! hmmmmmm
so altogether 5 and a half hours.. hehehe.. not long not long.. lolx...

Jian

lost count

its less than 10 days now.. haha lost count.. or rather i don't even bother to keep counting.. hahaha.. hmmmmm.. will be having Materials finals in an hour time.. don't know what else to study.. i guess i have studied enough? but yet... the anxiety is still around.. hahaha.. haihs.. in less than 24 hours time, my finals will be over.. hahaha time flies.. as i have said before.. rarh! im glad that i actually have frens back in Malaysia that still remembers me.. hahaha.. and wootz.. even NS people is holding a gathering on the June 1st.. i think i would just be able to make it..

Sometimes i wonder.. Why do people have to lie? Why can't they tell the truth? Maybe they think it is embarrassing? or wat? hahaha i don't know.. but lies are all around.. haha we cant avoid them.. rarh.. why am i saying this? lolx.. omgosh.. totally off topic.. rarh.. maybe that is why i failed my english.. hahaha.. sigh.. =P

Jian

10 days.. and 2 papers..

10 days left...and 2 more papers to go.. i just got some bad news... i failed my english test.. which means i will have to retake next semester.. i don't think i did that well in the test today too.. circuits.. wasn't that sure.. haihs.. but.. what done is done...

OKOK.. enough of this! hahaha.. watever.. i know im not smart.. haha.. + my laziness = superb! hahaha negative negative= positive! lolx.. i hope that works.. haha..

good news: i will be going to Sydney on the 26th June i guess.. hahaha.. visiting my sister in Australia.. its her 21st birthday on the 29th of June.. will be there for one week i guess.. hehe...

Thats about it for now.. a lil bit sick.. haha.. sore throat.. maybe i didn't get enough sleep.. hahaha..

Jian

woohhoo.. less than 2 weeks..

hahahaa.. 13 days more to go and im off! come on come on.. I wanna go back home!!! =P 2 finals down.. hmmm.. i think i did not do that well in English.. but i think i got a hundred for my Pro Engineering finals! hahaa =P 1 presentation and 3 more finals to go! hehehe... time flies... and it will be flying every single second.. LOL.. or perhaps every second is the footprint of time.. hehehe...

Jian

Finals on the way!

18 more days to go... 5 finals... 1 project presentation.. =) AFter that.. everything is sweet.. LOL... life is kinda sour now.. sometimes it is even bitter... but someday.. it will be sweet.. hmmmm.....

To all the people who still cares for me: ( especially yun and sexay ju! =P thanks for your posts! really appreciate it.. =) )

thank you! and i will be back soon... hahahha.. im now thinking wat should i do back in malaysia... hehehe any suggestion? my sister is asking me whether i wanna go to Sydney wit her to celebrate my 3rd sister's 21st birthday.. hahaha.. but i missed Malaysia.. hmmmmm.. so i am still considering.. hehehe.. till then.. to all the people who are worried bout me.. im sorry.. and no worries... im OK =) 100% ok.. maybe.. LOL...

Jian

I'm sorry..

Sorry! for myself... nothing had changed but worsened. its all bad... all bad!! nth is going right! Stand right back up after u fall is not easy at all.. that makes those ppl successful.. im wondering whether i could be one of them.. i hope i could.. i really did so badly in the test today.. i think it is the worst so far... but there is still hope as there is part 2 of the test... Did i not study enuff? maybe so.. im such a bad person.. bad bad bad.. stupid stupid! aaaaaaaaaaaaa.... i spilled water on my lap top twice for the past 2 weeks............... Maybe i should be thankful that it is still working.. but my mic arent working thou.. i donno y!!!! I donno what to do now.. or perhaps wat i can do... its all bad! I just cant wait till i get home lar... all these stuffs is straining me to the max.. im necking... and breaking soon.. I just wanna finish this bad ass semester and go home! home! but with my bad results... my parents will be so disappointed in me... bad son i am.. haihs................................. scholarship? it's like a star that is sooooooooooooooooooo far away now.. and its just going further and further.. or perhaps im the one who is sinking... hamsters cant swim u know.. so the will just sink.. and there he goes.. i think hamster might go into depression if he continues this.. he is just pathetic.. no one to blame but himself.. such a loser... stand up and fight again... easy to say thats for sure.. ahhhhhhhhhh.... who said the past is not important? aint the past determines the future? Im SORRY Loh Jian Wei...

* slaps himself *

drag through the last 39 days..

Hamster is being dragged all the way to the 29th May.. hahaha.. thats the only way he could go through this.. without the strength to even walk with his four tiny feet and paws. He is being dragged.. his back is burning in pain but he has no choice but to go with the flow....with lil hope, and with his lil or no determination.. he is trying to stand on his feet again.... as the people said.. people who are successful are those who are able to stand up right after they fall... how about hamsters? hahaha.. are they the same?

Hamster is confused with what he have been doing lately... He is really being very undecisive.. he couldn't help it.. meanwhile, time is not waiting for him and is dragging him along... He is hurt.. Whenever he wants to stand up.. time is just ahead of him and pull him down again.. there is just not enough strength.. and so be it..

enjoying the emoticons?

so... u peeps seem to be enjoying spamming emoticons huh? hahaha.. i dont even know how to make one in the chatbox... =( haha.. anyways.. i hav a whole report to hand in tmr.. and i've just started it.. its already 10.35PM now.. haaha.. it's due tmr.. haihs.. procrastinating.. lazying... hahaha...

Im really so good in lazying.. hahaha so its that an advantage i have over people.. =P its bad.. but i cant help it.. hahaha.. lazying is just so good.. no worries.. no nth.. i can just sit there.. and do nth.. haha.. or lay on my bed.. cover myself wit my blue comforter.. hahaha.. hmmmm.. and still waiting for the day to go home.. owh.. how i wish tmr its the day for me to go home.. hahaha...

Materials materials materials.. worst subject of all.. althou the test result wasnt as bad as i expected.. but still.. hahaha.. i dont think im doing well in this sub.. probably the worst out of all... hahaha.. i hate the reports.. the introduction hav to be like 2 pages long.. single spacing!! i think thats more than a thousand words? hahaha.. i just hate these reports.. rarh! bite them into pieces! and then throw them in the dustbin.. and then recycle it.. and then write reports on them again.. and it goes on and on.. never ever ending.. ahhaha..

hahaa.. my roommate is asking me questions about Malaysia for his homework.. he wans to know the tradition or culture.. bla bla bla.. hahaha.. so wat should i tell him? yum char? haha CNY? hahaha i told him a bunch of chinese traditions like red color brings luck.. just simply.. hahaha.. i dont think its that important.. its just a homework.. hahaha where testing his language comes first? hahaha.. rarh! yobuseyo.. means hello on the phone.. hahaha.. but yobu alone means wife.. omgosh.. the korean language is just fascinating huh?

alrite.. better continue with my work before my eye lids gets heavier.. haha! fight like a hamster!!!!!!!!!!!!

43 days and counting....

weeee 43 days to go.. one more mid term to go till finals.. my last finals is on the 22nd MAy.. cant wait for it to be over so i can go back to MALAYSIA!! hahaha... i'm drunk last nite.. i guess.. its been a while since i last drank beer + 2 types of wines.. hahaha.. thanks to my korean frens.. hahaha.. and i went to sleep at 12 am as they continue having fun.. and i woke up at 3am and join them again.. hahaha.. it was my housemate's burfday.. I think it was really a great one for him as the one he likes is there wit him. hahaha thats really cool.. hmmm.. just had my circuits second midterm on wednesday.. i don't think i did that well in it... haihs... there's just not enuff hard work.. i'm so bad at working hard at myself when im not in the mood.. =( hahaha.. hmmm.. thats it for now!

Another Sunday..

Its Sunday.. haha this happens week after week.. haihs.. which means.. monday is real near.. mid terms coming up! 2 of them in the coming week.. rarh.. circuits is driving me crazy >.< its so hard to understand.. ahhaha.. or maybe cause im stupid. haihs.. =( kakaka.. as another sunday comes.. it means another week has gone by.. which means im a week nearer to go back home! home sweet home.. hahaha.. 29th May is the day.. lets see.. today its the 8th of april.. there are 30 days in April.. that makes.. 22 days left in April.. 28days in May.. so that makes it.. 50 days! wow.. thats more than a month.. rararara.. no worries.. time flies.. hahaha.. wooosh.. and i will be back in malaysia without even knowing.. haha.. kekeke...

50 days and counting!

Hesitate, hesitate, and hesitate.. whats is wrong with me? i just kept hesitating what should i do.. should i do it.. or should i not do it? Sometimes i feel like it.. sometimes i dont feel like it.. hahha.. is this some kind of psychological disorder? Hahaa.. watever it is.. BRING IT ON! i'll fight till my very last breath..

Happy birthday LONG SHI YUN!

hahaha its our dear fren's Long Shi Yun's burfday! ahhaha.. to be honest, i didn't remember it.. but on april fool day something came across my mind about someone's burfday.. and its Ms.Yun! haha hope she'll enjoy it.. i know she will.. wit all the frens around.. hahaha .. nitez

half way half way

Im half way through! hahaha the semester of coz.. mid term 2s on the way.. just a week away.. and then the finals.. and woooosh.. back in msia.. hahahah.. cools.. anyways here are some pics from my san franc trip. ahaha.. statics is driving me crazy again.. its so tough.. struggling to even catch up.. haihs.. how!?!? hahaha fight like a spartan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! rarhhhhhhhhhhhh wooops.. just realized there is some positioning prob wit the pics.. haha.. its style ok? hahaha

Motivate me !!

" When you fight, fight like a lion. If you get hurt, fight like a wounded lion. The only losers in this world are the quitters."
Written in 2007 by Ronaldo A. Gonzales --- Philippines
This my favorite quote and it encourages me to keep standing whenever I end on the ground bleeding.

RARHHHHHHH.. so fight like a lion it is! hahahaha.. ok!

at the time being, while i still have not get started on my work, lets upload some pictures from great america.. hahaha..