Questions in My head

Questions currently in my head:
1) What am I doing here?
2) Why am I doing this?
3) Where am I doing this?
4) How am I doing this?
5) Last but not least, Who am I?

Well.. This is to remind myself why I am doing all these all the way in the United States.. So.. What actually am I doing here? hmmm.. To err.. gain the power of survival by myself in the future. When there is no one I can depend on.. That's the reason why my parents sent me here? I guess so.. But, the question is.. Can't I just do all these back in Malaysia? What's up with coming all the way here.. Spending a lot more money.. Being alone.. And lost in a bunch of unknown strangers..

Is all these really worth my time? Being away from my parents and friends. From a place where I am most comfortable in.. At least without worries that I have to do my laundry and get my own food and so many other things. I understand this can help me to be more independent and all those craps.. to live in a tough situation and many more.. I understand that.. But isit really necessary to go through all these to gain that strength? Doubtful.. I really don't know..

All these might make no sense.. As I've met ppl who tried to get away from home to avoid seeing their parents.. or just away from home.. It's all weird.. This is such a small matter compared to the bigger picture - the world. I don't know what I can do for the world or even my community. And I wonder anyone is trying to do for the world or just themselves? I can't say that I'm selfless and I wouldn't say that I am not selfish.. It's just the way life is.. We live for ourselves and all we seek for in our lives.. Is for the ultimate benefits of ourselves..

For example, You are studying hard. This is all for urself in the future. showing care and love to someone else.. is just a way for u to get back the same treatment.. As u would expect. The reality might be reflecting that everyone out there is somewhat selfish.. If for a moment you think u are not, think of this: would you rather die for someone that you love, or kill another for someone that you love.. I'm not challenging anyone to do it.. but think bout it. I would say Most but not all will rather kill another than themselves..

Sorry for all these crap.. I dont really know why I have all these crazy thoughts.. But Im just sharing what I think the world is.. and how all the people are acting for themselves.. That is just the way things are.. at least for me..

Hmmm.. Come to think of it.. We are so ermmm. Tiny.. compared to the world.. The chances or probability of one meeting another is pretty small... And I do believe in what is called fate.. which is the chance u get to meet another.. However, People always leave in ur life.. U can take my word for this.. And of course.. New people come in to ur life too.. Just like the cycle of life.. u were born.. grow older.. grow really old.. and dies.. Does it ends there? No one knows.. My point is.. Appreciate the people that is around you that U were offered the fate to meet them.. Someone else out there which probably like the rest of the world don get to meet this guy/girl. Try to be good to everyone.. Because it is better to make another friend than another enemy..

Lastly, Just appreciate that you are alive.. and the people who cares for you.. cause you won't know when They will LEAVE.. i know i know. it's all a cliche..

P.S.: This is not an emo post!

Yours appreciated friend ( i hope )
Jian Wei

One Unproductive Saturday

It's Saturday! ahah.. Yeah.. I actually did nothing today.. As in anything for academic.. LOL.. I need some stuffs to get my Physics project done.. But Im all too lazy.. It's been a crazy week for me.. The coming isnt any easier too.. Gosh.. Its boring! Im bored of all the work.. I worked 3 days this week.. and im working tmr at 10am!! Covering one of my fren's shift.. well.. That makes it 4 working days a week.. crazy!!

Luckily this dont happen every week.. I wonder how those ppl who work like everyday and yet have to cope with school live.. SO... We should be grateful that we are not really required to work to pay for our school and stuffs.. hahaha.. Hmmm.. So u must be wondering what in the world did I do all day.. Let's see.. slept at like 2.30am last nite.. woke up at 9am to play ball till 2pm.. That includes lunch okay.. haha.. Then.. Came home and started playing guitar for like.. 3 hours? hmmm.. Then I called home for like 10 mins.. LOL probably the first time in like a month.. Then then.. Cooked dinner and started watching errr... 模仿秀 on youtube.. hahaha. it's so funny.. Everyone is like trying to be 四大天王.. And when I look at the clock again.. It's already almost 11pm! which means.. My saturday is already coming to an end.. But.. Its a stress free saturday thou.. It's like the only day that I can actually do everything that I wanted to.. =)

oWH..Here are some pictures to err.. reduce the boredom of reading my craps.. haha.. Its our trip to San Franc for LOVE FEST!! wooohooo! haha.. It was totally OUT OF CONTROL!!! hahaha... Too bad we din get to see armin van Buren.. Tickets sold out.. BOOOOO!

Here Goes Again!

haha.. Owh.. first thing first.. I reply fast to requests.. haha.. Our Gotbird captain, Joachim Yap has requested for the salted vegetable pork's recipe.. Here you go:

Salted Vegetable Pork cutlet:

Step 1 - Cut skinless pork perferable with some fat.. If you like it la.. into small cutlets. Well, about thumb size I guess.. That would be fine.. Just that it will be cooked faster..

Step 2 - Heat up a frying pan of oil and add in slices ginger and fry it together with minced garlic.

Step 3 - Add in the Salted Vegetable. ( soak it in water for a while before cooking, so that it wouldn't get too salty.. )

Step 4 - Add in sugar and soy sause to taste.

Step 5 - Tadaaaa.. All set.. Served on steamed rice is recommended..

Works Cited

My, Mom. "This is How You Cook HAM CHOY ZHU YUK la.. " . Sometime in August.. LOL
For further inquiry, Please contact Mommy at.. yea rite.. not gonna give it to u all.. WAHAHA..

Alrite.. Done with the Recipe.. Weeheee.. Okay.. 2 more midterms coming up .. gonna work my ass off for these two.. 2 hardest subs this sem i guess.. Stupid Einstein's reletivity theory.. Confusing as err.. Undescribale.. If u are wondering bout this.. Go serch on youtube about einstein's reletivity.. Enlighten me if u can understand.. LOL.. Anyway, I don really agree with his theory.. BUt.. ishh.. watever.. He's got a noble prize for that.. what can i Say..

Another mid term is Engineering Analysis.. crappy class.. Had a lecturer changed.. And it just got worsen... THis lecturer is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO boring... He talks so slow, acts slow.. but the stuffs are just .. omgosh.. It's probably coz I took it quite some time ago.. really struggling to catch up.. His slowness is killing me.. He's adding quizes once in a while which was not originally in the course structure.. owh crap.. Why do we have to change lecturer!!? beh tahan..

Okay.. Mid terms.. bla bla.. I don really care.. ahah.. The highlights of the weekend was...
Tadaa... Chee how and Damien's visit to my place! We went to lovefest in San francisco on Saturday.. To parteeeeeeeeey.. haha.. It was really cool until we did not managed to get tickets for the after party which features Armin van Buuren!! owh gosh.. what a miss.. But well.. The party was quite cool i guess.. hahaha.. There are like people not wearing clothes all around.. Both guys and girls..!! It's kinda disgusting though.. but overall it was okay.. everyone was in party mood and everyone seemed to be happy.. woohhoo.. They have like more than 10 stages around the civic center in San franc.. All with different DJs and dancers.. it was really cool! ahha.. pictures will be up soon i hope.. haha.. everyone had fun i guess.. till then.. back to work!!

ONE MORE LAST THING... PLEASE do not do not never ever freaking hell watch "blindness", It is just one of the worst movies I have EVER watched! EVER!