Am I a HateR?

Notice that this post is in a different color.. Why is that? I guess that describes my mood today.. It's Superbowl weekend! Most people here are sticking their asses on their couches at home watching the Superbowl XLIII which means 43.. Don quite understand how they came up wit the L for roman numbering.. But well.. IT's America.. they can pretty much do whatever they like..

So, back to my point. Why is this post in this weird color.. Reddish.. but gloomy.. which resembles my anger and also disappointment.. in what? in a couple of people over here.. I guess I have never described any of my frens over here huh? After reading some interesting article about life.. I find myself wearing so many distinctive masks at different occasions, being around different group of friends, in front of your boss, professors and family.. Honestly, I think everyone is doing the same thing.. Behaving differently, acting differently, talking differently, even the topic of conversation varies.. So, I am assuming that this is perfectly normal.. But do people realize that they are actually doing this each and every day? Sometimes, I find it hard to keep up to what I've created.. an image of myself that is.. Feels like Im going insane.. Why are we required to be like this.. why cant we just be ourselves.. Take out we... Can I just be myself? Im seriously sick of all these... Totally doesnt make sense...

Sorry for drifting away so much... but.. that all just came accross my mind.. ALrite.. back to my story.. sorry if this is lame.. but I seriously need to release all these shit from my heart.. It's been there long enough... I'm not gonna mention names.. but.. well.. I will describe them as M and T... I've known M since my second semester here.. At the beginning I find that he's a really cool guy that I can really hang out with... But, as time passes... I just find that he's really ermm... self centered! Im not saying that im selfless.. But he is just way too selfcentered.. He pretty much thinks that he is the best.. And every single thing that he said is right.. I just cant take this kind of attittude.. It's really difficult for me.. I've been keeping this in my heart so effing long.. and just feel like erupting it right now! Being in the same committee in our association.. I find it almost impossible to work with someone like him.. It's seriously a torture.. Been trying to ermm.. avoid seeing him most of the time.. but that's even harder as he's the soul mate of one of my housemates.. get what I mean? He's always around my apartment and it is unavoidable that he will knock on my door and come talk to me about his bla bla bla.. notice that everything is.. HIS... In my mind.. quietly of course.. I will be.. "whatever dude" seriously its getting effing annoying.. so yeah.. I guess Im hating M.. I don't exactly know what I should do... Should I continue to keep this with myself.. Or should I tell everyone directly.. Im seriously.. tired of keeping all these shit.. maybe i should just avoid any occasions that he'll be around.. maybe that helps.. about my apartment.. maybe i should just move out to some other place.. It's really really difficult to deal with this kind of shits... ROAR... Someone please help me out.. its driving me crazy...

About T, it isnt that serious.. Just that.. he's kinda weird sometimes.. and well.. we have different preferences i guess... but well.. ahhhhhhhh.. watever...

Spring 2009!! Here it comes!

Looks like my picture only posts didn't worked out that well huh? =/ I guess facebook does a better job than picture posts.. haha.. Well.. Just one last post before classes start on Thursday.. Am taking quite some units this semester.. having 13 units right now.. and looking to add another 4 more units.. yeah! 17 units! woohoo.. LOL.. am looking forward to my Ice Skating class that I might be taking.. hehehe.. California Universities just have this weird thing that students are required to take two kinesiology courses..

This winter break has been quite a blast and also quite boring.. LOL.. As I said.. The first part was awesome.. that was only one third of the break though.. the other two thirds of the break was just DOTA, eat , sleep, cleaning up room that takes forever... and shopping? going to SF sometimes.. LOL.. Pretty lame.. haihs.. But guess this is the luxury that is offered during break only.. LOL.. here comes reality! lolx.. weeeeeee... Up for the challenge.. That's life all about.. Appreciate, Appreciate and appreciate! Just need to keep reminding myself that whenever I am complaining bout something.. Someone out there must be suffering 10 times or even more of what im facing right now.. Yea! that helps comforting me sometimes.. LOL.. THING! tm.. LOL Trademark! just like in the love guru! hahaha..

Owh... I just watched Harold and Kumar.. Both episodes! hahaha... It's so effing hilarious! seriously.. watch it.. It's making fun of Racism, the usual stereotyping.. Gosh.. It really brightens up my day.. hahaha..



hHahahahaha... Don't know what else I can say.. Guess life moves on.. Another CNY without friends and family back in Malaysia.. =/ absolutely missing the CNY celebration.. The food, the chit chat, the ang paus.. the gambling.. the fun of shopping for new clothes.. hahaa.. ALthou I can do the shopping here.. But I guess shopping in Msia is a different experience.. especially wit frens.. ahhahaa..

Ermmm... Any suggestions on how to clean up my room? hahaha.. Have been trying to clean it up for so many effing days and its just not working.. LOL.. It gets untidy so quickly that I can't keep up! guess im not just the tidy kind of guy.. LOL.. with some empty beer bottles in my room.. I actually felt like one of the pranks on TV.. THose drug dealers, emo-ers, drug addict.. LOL.. Just missing some cigarettes.. No pictures will be provided! super messy! rarh! gosh...

Owh.. been thinking recently.. What should I do with my life? Besides the studies that Im struggling with of course.. Any suggestion of what to be picked up? any particular skills? Been just playing games whenever Im free.. Find that very unbeneficial... wow.. I just created my own word.. hahaha.. PLEASSE!!! TELL ME WHAT TO DO!! TOTALLY LOST HERE.. hahaha..

Yosemite.. Again.. Pictures only! haha

Vegas!! A Picture Speaks a Million Words.. =)

Another Semester done!! haha.. in like 19 hours time..

It's been a while huh? yea yea.. Surprisingly, I have been playing DOTA a lot.. haha I mean a lot.. ALmost everyday.. Even during finals week.. hahaha.. Just realized that.. Americans can play Dota quite well too.. Except they always go for AP mode.. WHich is kinda gay.. Cause they keep picking the same heroes.. hahaha.. Playing Dota on my lap top is a new experience! without the numpad and all.. But still okay.. Although have been losing a lot of games.. Been underestimating Americans' dota skills.. ahhaa..

Okay.. In like 19 hours time.. I should be done with all my finals. And done with the Fall 2008 semester... Long way to go though.. hahaha.. Been hearing ppl who study in Aus are graduating.. ish.. hahaha.. but its cool.. long live my Student Life!! LOL touch wood.. Anyway, my 21st birthday was pretty cool.. Wasn't expecting my friends to make me 21 cup cakes/muffins.. haahah.. But well.. Their effort and heart was great! haha.. Except the cream part... was totally messed up.. haha.. To really become 21.. Me and my homie are going to Vegas! This coming Sunday.. It's going to be CRAZYYYYYYYYYYY... We'll be partying all nite longgggggg... wahahha.. Can't wait.. Anticipating it so much.. every nite.. LOL.. Here are some pics of my b'day..

While waiting for the the images to get uploaded... It really takes a while.. getting sleepy... ZZZZzzzz...haha.. Let me describe the images.. hmm... Firstly, the 21 cup cakes/muffin.. Second, me trying to kill Murphy after cutting the tiny cakes..Third, The gift ceremony. Fourth, after some violent cream fight... Fifth, me and my classmate.. Sixth, me downing the second legal alcoholic drink in US... Seventh, me and the bar tender who made me this super disgusting drink specially for the b'day boys.. (Tabasco, cherry juice, rums, mustard, water from the bar mat!!! and many many more other liquors and disgusting stuffs..) Eighth, me and my small little dessert with candle.. =.=... Ninth, frens and i at Pf Chang for dinner..











Oooops.. The images seem to have messed up order... hahaha... I guess u guys are smart enuff to errr... sort them to the according descriptions.. hahaha.. RITEEEEE?

Something you might know but unaware of..

HAhahaa.. DUe to my laziness, business, lameness, and many many more.. I decided to post my take home essay.. Written by me... hehehe.. I thought the topic was quite interesting for students to know.. However, my essay kinda sucks.. So please don mind my usage of lame words, incorrect grammar, etc.

Take Home Essay: Is Knowledge The Most Important?

“I have covered the entire chapter on Newton’s laws. Go home and try to solve the problems that I have assigned to you,” said a Physics lecturer to his students. The solutions to the homework problems assigned by professors in college are usually not obvious and distinct from the example problems discussed in class. However, the governing laws and theories in homework assignments are the same as what is taught in class. The purpose of assigning problems that require students to use a slightly different approach is to let students tackle problems with some creativity of their own, and not just following the exact procedures taught in class. However, colleges are offering less experimenting freedom to students with their well-structured courses that the faculties believe would help students learn the most out of these courses and therefore I agree with both Thoreau and Cory that learning something is more than just gaining knowledge on the subject because of the significance of people in gaining the right attitudes and skills in problem solving and hands-on personal experience.

In the passage written by H.D. Thoreau, the author argues that hands-on experience is more important than studying a subject from afar. Thoreau asserts that people are only studying facts and knowledge that are proved by scientists, but not learning from any experiments on the subject by themselves. Similarly, in the passage written by William Cory, the author argues that skills and behaviors that people learned in school are more important than the knowledge gained from studying. Cory believes that the purpose of going to school is to learn certain skills and behaviors. The author lists a number of skills and attitudes, described as “art” and “habits” respectively in the passage, acquired in school. Finally, Cory asserts that the most important thing that people learn from school is the understanding of themselves, their goals and their abilities.

Both the passages have the same argument that learning something is more than just gaining knowledge on the subject. While Thoreau emphasizes on personal experience and experiments to learn any subject, Cory emphasizes on the skills and behaviors that people obtained from going to school.

What is the purpose of attending school or colleges? Most people would think that a person goes to school in order to gain knowledge that would offer him or her a better life in the future. However, that is not exactly true. The attitudes and skills that people gain from education are far more important than the knowledge on a certain subject as stated by Thoreau: “You go to a great school, not for knowledge so much as for arts and habits.” It is the way or process that we obtain knowledge that is more important than merely memorizing a certain fact. To further illustrate, memorizing a particular solution for a mathematical problem will not help a person to solve another similar problem that requires a slightly different approach. Therefore, a person needs to understand the procedures involved in solving a problem.

As a student of an English composition class, I am always required to read arguments written by different authors. If I were to simply memorize and write down the whole argument of an author as my own work, my argument would not be persuasive at all. Instead, I will be accused of plagiarism. The real purpose of reading other arguments by different authors is to learn the way to express our own ideas. However, knowledge can sometimes be important too. For example, without knowing Newton’s law of gravitation, the design of an aircraft will completely fail. Although knowledge can be important, it is far less significant than the skills and attitudes gained from the process of obtaining knowledge.

Next, personal experience. Personal experience is the knowledge that a person can gain by attempting certain actions or experiments. It gives people a different perspective and a better idea on a particular subject. Whether the attempt of proving something succeeds or fails, one will still gain experience from it. In fact, people remember their failed attempts better than their successful attempts. It is from these attempts that people learn that what works and what does not. Colleges today are offering very few opportunities for students in creating their own experiments. Being a senior in Mechanical Engineering in San Jose State University, I find that most if not all laboratory classes that I took have a step by step procedure in every experiment. Also, from my perspective as a student who minors in business, I understand that profit is the priority of any business. To generate greater amount of profits, reducing cost would be a sound plan. During financially troubled times like the economy crisis that is happening now, it is not unusual to see companies lay off their employees as a mean of reducing cost. As a business student, I would think that this act of reducing cost would be the most effective in reducing cost and therefore generates more profits. However, an experienced manager of a company would know that this act of retrenchment might reduce the confidence and loyalty of the employees toward the company. This scenario proves that personal experience can provide a person with a different perspective towards a certain subject and also the importance of gaining personal experience.

Although knowledge can be important in some circumstances, personal experience and the skills and attitudes gained from the process of obtaining knowledge are far more significant. Schools and colleges today should provide more freedom of experimenting in the syllabus of courses for their students as I believe it would help students to be more successful in their lives.

November 3rd, 2008 - 11:46pm

Okay okay... It seems that most of my friends have been MIA from their blogs.. I guess everyone is busy.. hahaa.. But u are all not forgiven! haha.. so.. On November 1st, 2008, due to the incredible crave for MAMAK by Malaysians in San Jose State, MASA SJSU decided to throw a MAMAK NITE to satisfy everyone's crave. It was a hell of a nite.. =)
Take a look at the visual and you might have some idea of err.. the cooking process.. As we as the chefs were running a lil late.. (quite late actually as the event starts at 6pm we started cooking at 6pm.. ahah) I was in charge of cooking Nasi Lemak with beef rendang. It's really easier than I thought..

WIth the instructions clearly stated on the box of the rendang paste.. I basically just need to slice the beef which I found out that I find it difficult.. haha.. So someone helped me out.. Phew.. And walaa.. It tastes pretty good.. You can probably see from the faces of the satisfied customers. ahhaha.. We were supposed to have rojak but it was a total failure cause we couldn't make the right sauce for it.. haha.. But we had Mee Goreng.. Which tastes pretty good too! =)

I know I know.. PPl in Malaysia must be thinking what in the world is wrong with this ppl.. Missing mamak and all.. Try going to a place without mamak for months.. And u will know! haha.. Alrite.. A picture tells a million words.. At least according to my Physics professor. So here it is..

Questions in My head

Questions currently in my head:
1) What am I doing here?
2) Why am I doing this?
3) Where am I doing this?
4) How am I doing this?
5) Last but not least, Who am I?

Well.. This is to remind myself why I am doing all these all the way in the United States.. So.. What actually am I doing here? hmmm.. To err.. gain the power of survival by myself in the future. When there is no one I can depend on.. That's the reason why my parents sent me here? I guess so.. But, the question is.. Can't I just do all these back in Malaysia? What's up with coming all the way here.. Spending a lot more money.. Being alone.. And lost in a bunch of unknown strangers..

Is all these really worth my time? Being away from my parents and friends. From a place where I am most comfortable in.. At least without worries that I have to do my laundry and get my own food and so many other things. I understand this can help me to be more independent and all those craps.. to live in a tough situation and many more.. I understand that.. But isit really necessary to go through all these to gain that strength? Doubtful.. I really don't know..

All these might make no sense.. As I've met ppl who tried to get away from home to avoid seeing their parents.. or just away from home.. It's all weird.. This is such a small matter compared to the bigger picture - the world. I don't know what I can do for the world or even my community. And I wonder anyone is trying to do for the world or just themselves? I can't say that I'm selfless and I wouldn't say that I am not selfish.. It's just the way life is.. We live for ourselves and all we seek for in our lives.. Is for the ultimate benefits of ourselves..

For example, You are studying hard. This is all for urself in the future. showing care and love to someone else.. is just a way for u to get back the same treatment.. As u would expect. The reality might be reflecting that everyone out there is somewhat selfish.. If for a moment you think u are not, think of this: would you rather die for someone that you love, or kill another for someone that you love.. I'm not challenging anyone to do it.. but think bout it. I would say Most but not all will rather kill another than themselves..

Sorry for all these crap.. I dont really know why I have all these crazy thoughts.. But Im just sharing what I think the world is.. and how all the people are acting for themselves.. That is just the way things are.. at least for me..

Hmmm.. Come to think of it.. We are so ermmm. Tiny.. compared to the world.. The chances or probability of one meeting another is pretty small... And I do believe in what is called fate.. which is the chance u get to meet another.. However, People always leave in ur life.. U can take my word for this.. And of course.. New people come in to ur life too.. Just like the cycle of life.. u were born.. grow older.. grow really old.. and dies.. Does it ends there? No one knows.. My point is.. Appreciate the people that is around you that U were offered the fate to meet them.. Someone else out there which probably like the rest of the world don get to meet this guy/girl. Try to be good to everyone.. Because it is better to make another friend than another enemy..

Lastly, Just appreciate that you are alive.. and the people who cares for you.. cause you won't know when They will LEAVE.. i know i know. it's all a cliche..

P.S.: This is not an emo post!

Yours appreciated friend ( i hope )
Jian Wei

One Unproductive Saturday

It's Saturday! ahah.. Yeah.. I actually did nothing today.. As in anything for academic.. LOL.. I need some stuffs to get my Physics project done.. But Im all too lazy.. It's been a crazy week for me.. The coming isnt any easier too.. Gosh.. Its boring! Im bored of all the work.. I worked 3 days this week.. and im working tmr at 10am!! Covering one of my fren's shift.. well.. That makes it 4 working days a week.. crazy!!

Luckily this dont happen every week.. I wonder how those ppl who work like everyday and yet have to cope with school live.. SO... We should be grateful that we are not really required to work to pay for our school and stuffs.. hahaha.. Hmmm.. So u must be wondering what in the world did I do all day.. Let's see.. slept at like 2.30am last nite.. woke up at 9am to play ball till 2pm.. That includes lunch okay.. haha.. Then.. Came home and started playing guitar for like.. 3 hours? hmmm.. Then I called home for like 10 mins.. LOL probably the first time in like a month.. Then then.. Cooked dinner and started watching errr... 模仿秀 on youtube.. hahaha. it's so funny.. Everyone is like trying to be 四大天王.. And when I look at the clock again.. It's already almost 11pm! which means.. My saturday is already coming to an end.. But.. Its a stress free saturday thou.. It's like the only day that I can actually do everything that I wanted to.. =)

oWH..Here are some pictures to err.. reduce the boredom of reading my craps.. haha.. Its our trip to San Franc for LOVE FEST!! wooohooo! haha.. It was totally OUT OF CONTROL!!! hahaha... Too bad we din get to see armin van Buren.. Tickets sold out.. BOOOOO!

Here Goes Again!

haha.. Owh.. first thing first.. I reply fast to requests.. haha.. Our Gotbird captain, Joachim Yap has requested for the salted vegetable pork's recipe.. Here you go:

Salted Vegetable Pork cutlet:

Step 1 - Cut skinless pork perferable with some fat.. If you like it la.. into small cutlets. Well, about thumb size I guess.. That would be fine.. Just that it will be cooked faster..

Step 2 - Heat up a frying pan of oil and add in slices ginger and fry it together with minced garlic.

Step 3 - Add in the Salted Vegetable. ( soak it in water for a while before cooking, so that it wouldn't get too salty.. )

Step 4 - Add in sugar and soy sause to taste.

Step 5 - Tadaaaa.. All set.. Served on steamed rice is recommended..

Works Cited

My, Mom. "This is How You Cook HAM CHOY ZHU YUK la.. " . Sometime in August.. LOL
For further inquiry, Please contact Mommy at.. yea rite.. not gonna give it to u all.. WAHAHA..

Alrite.. Done with the Recipe.. Weeheee.. Okay.. 2 more midterms coming up .. gonna work my ass off for these two.. 2 hardest subs this sem i guess.. Stupid Einstein's reletivity theory.. Confusing as err.. Undescribale.. If u are wondering bout this.. Go serch on youtube about einstein's reletivity.. Enlighten me if u can understand.. LOL.. Anyway, I don really agree with his theory.. BUt.. ishh.. watever.. He's got a noble prize for that.. what can i Say..

Another mid term is Engineering Analysis.. crappy class.. Had a lecturer changed.. And it just got worsen... THis lecturer is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO boring... He talks so slow, acts slow.. but the stuffs are just .. omgosh.. It's probably coz I took it quite some time ago.. really struggling to catch up.. His slowness is killing me.. He's adding quizes once in a while which was not originally in the course structure.. owh crap.. Why do we have to change lecturer!!? beh tahan..

Okay.. Mid terms.. bla bla.. I don really care.. ahah.. The highlights of the weekend was...
Tadaa... Chee how and Damien's visit to my place! We went to lovefest in San francisco on Saturday.. To parteeeeeeeeey.. haha.. It was really cool until we did not managed to get tickets for the after party which features Armin van Buuren!! owh gosh.. what a miss.. But well.. The party was quite cool i guess.. hahaha.. There are like people not wearing clothes all around.. Both guys and girls..!! It's kinda disgusting though.. but overall it was okay.. everyone was in party mood and everyone seemed to be happy.. woohhoo.. They have like more than 10 stages around the civic center in San franc.. All with different DJs and dancers.. it was really cool! ahha.. pictures will be up soon i hope.. haha.. everyone had fun i guess.. till then.. back to work!!

ONE MORE LAST THING... PLEASE do not do not never ever freaking hell watch "blindness", It is just one of the worst movies I have EVER watched! EVER!