Hamster and his craps

New Year Post

2012-01-13T21:25:00.000-08:00

Hello again,

Okay.. Sorry but I need to write a complain here.. HAHA.. Don't wanna complain it in front of anyone.. Alrite.. SO there's a gathering.. And so happen I am the organizer.. HAHA.. and to please everyone, I asked where they would like to hold this gathering and there wasn't much response etc.. I even set up a voting poll. SO happen that bar got the highest vote.. ANd there's where I decided to have it in a bar nearby.. haha.. But deciding on a venue on the day of the event itself isnt proper.. I know I know.. ahh owh well.. Maybe someone else should be the organizer instead? HAHAHA.. ARghhh.. ENuff of complains! Happy New YEar!! Weeeeeeee

Year End Post

2011-12-21T06:43:00.000-08:00

Dear Smellies Bloggies,

Wondering why I call you that? That's because you have been abandoned for quite some time.. But like all the miracle projects in Malaysia.. THey get revived! haha.. and here you go.. ALl nice and shiny with people walking pass you every second! haha.. THank me! =D

Been wondering on the topic of "Journey of Self Discovery" recently. And one of the guidance given was to keep a journal and that is exactly why I am posting here.. Yes.. It's time to start my journal.. Of course the more private journal will be written in a nice little journal that I like to write in it everyday.. Not on this boring ugly squarish laptop that I type on and on and on.. So this is actually a hello and goodbye.. HAHA.. Thank god this is free of charge! =) Until I get bored with my physical nice little journal written in a fantastic little book/diary I shall pay you a visit again. But I'm truly glad that you still exist after all these times! Cheers mate!

Yours Sincerely,
Your Forgetful Owner

Preparing for the Change!

2010-11-10T06:20:00.000-08:00

Wooo.. It's been 10 months since my last Post? AHHHA.. Time flies.. Seriously.. College life is done.. Started working since July. Almost 4 months of being a sales engineer at Turcomp Engineering. Isit fun? Yes and No?

For some reasons, I have a feeling that I am going to get fucked real bad tomorrow and the day after.. Yes.. I made some mistakes at work.. But it's really the first "project" that Im handling and there's really not much guidance.. I guess the effing tmr and there on shall be the guidance for handling projects.. HAHAHA.. Dang! I shall follow my boss's teaching and also uncle's teaching that it is okay to get scolding.. Just look down at my shoes and say "sorry, I forgot to polish my shoes!"

HAHAHAHA.. awesome isn't it? hehee.. Alrite.. Leaving to JB first thing in the morning.. 5am? HAHAA.. GREAT! Till I get back.. and see what changes I need to make.........

Chairbreaker Out!

IDK!!

2010-01-18T00:50:00.000-08:00

Wasssssssssup!!???????? errrrrr.. Been too long since I last written something to express my thoughts.. haha.. Brain Freeze! hmm.. School's gonna start in about a week or so.. Not really looking forward to it.. Cause I will have to either walk 20 mins from my new place or take the bus which will take about the same time with the waiting and all.. Trouble trouble trouble!!

Next, still not sure whether I will be graduating by the end of the semester. Haven't heard anything from the school yet.. Haihs.. How? hahaha... So, lets talk bout some positive matter.. My new room is kinda smaller than my old room.. It has a smaller closet.. Booo! So I have to keep some of my clothes in my luggage.. How sad.. And basically my room is still in a mess.. Like really super duper messy.. but at least I managed to make a walkway in my tiny room... hahaha... and I have a TV! Been watching tv all day.. Since I have nothing better to do!

Okay.. Back to the point why all of a sudden I have the urge to share my thoughts.. Hmm.. After LSZ's visit to Cali, I realized that how "烦" can a person be... AHHAHAHA (just kidding) ahh.. LSZ's company helped me pass my time faster without noticing.. At least it gave me something to do.. Now, I am on my own again.. No urge to do anything at all.. And one really sad thing that I realize is that I don really have someone that I can talk to.. Especially times when I feel empty ("空虚") hahaa.. This always happens when someone visits me and leaves.. There is just this empty feeling that needs to be filled.. But when school starts, that kinda fades away as I will get busy with school and stuffs.. But when things start to settle down, it comes back again! ahhhhhh.. How How How? Just like during holidays when I don't have any plans.. It will definitely be haunting me again.. I don't know if anyone else goes thru the same thing as I did.. But it is defintely not a good feeling.. hahaha..

Anyway, HAHAHA... Just to make this official, I won't be visiting Disneyland anymore till I have kids.. In other words, the next time I'm going with Disneyland I will only be bringing my kids.. YES! Mark my words.. LOL... No Disney!!

Here's a picture of Bubon Cha Cha.. HAHAHA.. at least that's what they call it in a Malaysian restaurant here.. Taste ok lar...

It's Been A while...

2009-10-05T22:14:00.001-07:00

Wow.. It's been a while huh? hahaha.. So.. What has been happening for the past 1.5 month or so? hmmm... Definitely one of the craziest semester.. 4 different groups in 4 different classes.. Homeworks, quizzes, lab reports and presentations pretty much describes how busy I am.. LOL.. and there are midterms occasionally too! Also, I have just picked up my responsibility in the Honor Society as the Activity Coordinator.. That will just add more to my workload.. All of that adds on to the regular activity like laundry and room cleaning is just massive stress.. roar! But I guess Im dealing with it alrite... hahaha.. Anyway.. Hvt been taking much pictures.. But I went to this speaker event the other day.. It a speech delivered by the former CEO of Adobe.. It's definitely one of the better speaker events that I have attended.. And here's a picture of him! haha..

Hmm.. one of his biggest mistake according to him.. was that he did not fire some people that he sees not fit in his company early enough.. Because he said that it is hard to fire ppl who actually worked hard, dedicated and friendly but just doesn't fit with the company which can retard the company's growth.. hahah.. and yeah.. he delivered his speech sitting down.. And it was in such a relaxed manner.. How I wish I can deliver a speech the way he did.. Totally Awesome! hahaha..

Ahhh.. Back to SJ... The US one.. haha

2009-08-28T09:50:00.000-07:00

Owh yeah.. First week of classes.. currently enrolled in 14 units.. am trying to add 3 more units.. but it is very unlikely that I get the additional 3 units.. Which means I will have to take 19 units during my last semester... OR else.. It's gonna be at least another semester at SJSU.. further delaying my expected graduation.. =O Stress Stress Stress.. What can I do? The state of California is in so much trouble with the budget deficit.. Such a bad time to study in California.. They are cutting classes.. and everyone are fighting for spots in classes.. Makes it so much harder to add classes.. can't really do much.. they cut the budget that was original allocated for education.. Therefore, the university has no choice but to cut classes and also some days off.. called Furlough days.. No idea what that means.. but it sucks.. hahaha.. if that's the case.. I will just have to deal with 19 units next semester or Delay my graduation yet again.. =( It's not going to be pleasant.. but life isn't just all pleasure i guess.. ahhaha.. Sorry for the disappointment that I am going to cause to my parents.. LOL.. but it's not really my fault.. I tried to Add the classes.. But who knows I might get the spot for the class that Im trying to add.. Till next wednesday nite.. It will be finalized... 4 out of 23?.. LOL..that's about 20% or less.. crap.. owh well.. guess I will just have to deal with it.. =/

Anyway... I had a blast back in Malaysia!! Thanks to all the friends and family back home! Spending time with you guys have been awesome! hahaha.. Here are some pictures from the Penang trip! =)

One Malaysia!

2009-08-13T03:09:00.000-07:00

Saving the words for later.. Lol.. Updated blog! not like some ppl!! =O

Back Home!

2009-07-21T19:34:00.000-07:00

LALALALA.. Hmmm.. Schedule back in Malaysia has been pretty tight so far.. But it's been going great! hahah.. weeee.. errrr.. No pictures yet i guess.. owh wait.. Inti Ball.. Hmm.. I should start bringing out my camera.. hahaha.. ANyway.. I just wanted to change the songs! weeee

Someone actually said I looked like Adam Lambert!! WTF!!!!!!! And I don't look like him at all!!! He's the runner up of American idol.. But.... He's GAYYYYYY! lolx.. owh well.. At least he is talented.. haha.. I've added one of his songs in my playlist too! =) And here's a picture of him.. LOL.. Taken from Americanidol.com.

Taking Off!

2009-07-12T23:45:00.000-07:00

Owh yeah! The day has come... In about 14 hours time, I'll be on SQ 15 flying off from SFO to SIN.. And then.. I will have to rot in Changi Airport for like 5 hours and 50 minutes.. And finally back in KUL at 7.50am! Owh yeah baby.. Home sweet home! hahaa.. My plan is to quarantine myself for 2 days.. at least from frens.. But.. feel free to call me up if u wanna hear from me... I still have the 014 number! weeeeeee... Till then.. Ji4n signing out!

The Way I Am =)

2009-06-09T22:37:00.000-07:00

Ingrid Michaelson - The Way I Am

If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.

Cause I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.

If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.

Cause I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.

I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tear.

Cause I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.

Retrieved for A-Z Lyrics.com i think.. LOL...

Awesome song isn't it? Totally love it.. hahaha.. If a girl would sing this to me.. Gosh.. There goes my heart.. LOL.. Seriously.. It will make me feel so errr.. appreciated.. =D

Hmmm.. A lil updates just to keep my blog going.. hahaha.. Unlike some of the blogs that I used to go to all the time.. They are like.. stucked in a moment.. LOL.. ANd it's been forever! Hmmm.. Summer classes has begun! It's pretty damn crazy.. However, I am only taking this one class.. But last sunday wasn't a good one.. I was working on this film write up until like 4 am!! and I have 9 am class the same day.. =/ haha.. Coz I had to work in the morning.. so i started to work on that assignment at like 12am.. GG.. TOok me so much longer than expected.. hahaha..

One class for 6 weeks sounds easy enough huh? But the lecturer told us that last summer, almost 100% of the students failed.. We are like.. WTFFFFFFFFFFFF.. almost 100%? what do u mean by that? like 1 out of 25 passed? hahaha.. Dude.. thats ridiculous!! No Effing way!! You must be kidding me!! Yeah.. All those BS here and there.. got me and my frens worried.. LOL.. So... We''lll see if we can go through this class without much problem.. ROAR!!!

This summer do offers me more free time thou.. Now i can go to the gym like every afternoon.. Play some basketball and try to get some weight off.. hahaha.. hmmm.. Let's see.. Some pictures would be good huh? For those who dont look at my facebook.. here's some highlights of my 10 days road trip from Los Angeles to Las Vegas to Colorado to Arizona and then back to Las Vegas and Los ANgeles.. hahaha.. It's been a really awesome trip! Met up with two of my college mates.. hehehe.. 3 of us never fail to have fun together.. LOL.. And we did go to VEGAS! haha.. SIn City!

Wuuu Laaa Laaa.. It's Finals season again!

2009-05-07T22:09:00.000-07:00

Owh yeah.. finals next week! hahaha.. Let's see.. Mechanics of Materials Lab on Tuesday, State Politics on Wednesday, Microsystem design on Friday, Vibrations and business organization on Monday! wuuuuuuulaaa laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!

Flight booked!

2009-04-25T00:51:00.000-07:00

Yeah! Finally got my flight booking done! hahaha.. So... I will be leaving on the 13th of July and will be back in Kuala Lumpur International Airport on the 15th of July.. Crap! Lost a day! hahaha.. owh well.. and will be staying till August 23rd! hahaha.. About a month ++ Till then.. time for bed! hahaha.. Can't wait to see everyone.. =)

2009-04-12T02:01:00.000-07:00

It was Saturday and now it's Sunday.. Am having my second mid term for State Politics on Monday.. The worst subject this semester.. At least scoring wise.. haha.. Yah.. Screwed up badly on the first mid term.. But well.. Kept comforting myself that is not my major bla bla bla.. But it all still comes down to.. Screw up = Screw up.. No matter if its your area of concentration or wat.. I have to do better this time.. If not.. Who knows what's going to happen at the end of the semester.. This semester actually went by rather quickly.. It's April already.. which means.. There will only be like 5 - 6 weeks of classes left for Spring 2009.. haha.. But errr. Yeah.. Been studying Politics for like 2 hours today.. And only did like 2 chapters.. Im just so not used to staring at the same book and read and read and read.. Im more problem solving kind of people.. Reading just don't feel right for me.. That's why I don't really enjoy reading stuffs.. And reading something that Im not even really interested in.. States politics? Gosh.. Sounds Interesting? =/ Can't believe that people can actually major in Political Science..

Anyway.. Just an update for updating.. haha.. lame.. Errr.. Summer Schedule is out.. I will do my best to get in my class.. Which will last 6 weeks.. Will be done by July 10th.. Therefore, I still have about a month and a couple of days left of my summer.. Am planning to go back to Malaysia.. Still looking at air fares thou.. Hoping it will still drop.. hahaha.. Any tips? But yeah.. Most probably I will be going home.. At least I will be experiencing half of the summer over here.. My very first.. hahaha.. But yeah.. it's always good to be home.. =) Hmm.. I guess time for bed for me.. 2.12am huh? hahaha.. Guess what.. I actually finished E.U in less than a week.. Hardcore! lolx.. 30 episodes in less than 7 days.. haha... Can't believe I actually did that when Im taking 17 units.. LOL..

Ow ow.. I had my Ice Skating Midterm last Friday... hahaha.. It was good overall.. Just that I kinda screwed up my snow plow stop.. hahaha.. kinda got stucked in some blade prints left by other people.. Grrrrr... But overall it was good I guess... At least I didn't fall! wahahaha! Hmmm.. I really need to spice up my life.. Any constructive ideas? ahahha.. CONSTRUCTIVE please!

Gone... Lost.. Missing..

2009-03-28T13:17:00.000-07:00

Yes.. The title pretty much describes the state that I am currently in. Where's the motivation that got me to the point that im on now? It just diminished.. Like Gone.. Poof! there it goes.. No idea.. Whats the point of doing all these again? No idea.. This sucks dude.. Like in the middle of the semester.. All Spring Break.. What have I been doing? Nothing! at least nth productive.. For some reasons, I was supposed to get a lot of rest.. However, I don think I had enuff sleep every nite.. Why is that? No freaking idea.. Something always come up.. And i get stucked.. And for long.. ANd sleep late nite.. NOt good.. Screw it.. It's Saturday.. 2 more days and school continues.. Currently a lil intoxicated wit a corona extra.. But why it came down to this? Coz I really don't know what else to do.. Im just having the feeling that.. WHy should I give a shit about all the school work? WHy can't I just do nothing.. Like do everything that is fun, exciting, easy, fulfilling, etc etc etc!! Gosh.. It's driving me nuts.. I don't think this is the first time it has occured to me.. Don remember what got me out of these in the past.. Songs? Trying to find some rite now.. =( and trying to talk to some friends too.. Other than that.. I really donno what can be done.. If u have the answer.. Please Please.. Help me out.. =)

Spring Break!!

2009-03-20T21:38:00.000-07:00

Omgosh.. It's actually my third Spring break already!! So that means it's my third year in the United States too! hahaha.. The first spring break was kinda cool.. Went to an amusement park.. THe second Spring break I went to Seattle, Washington. and now.. Probably going to seaside!! ahhaa.. Santa Cruz? Maybe San diego.. hahaha.. But well.. I have 3 Mid terms right after mid term!!! =/ I will at least enjoy a few days of spring break wit errr... restttttttttt! Loads of rest! hahaha.. Gosh.. I like my new playlist! hahaha.. I don't know what genre is this.. but I like it! haha.. Most songs are songs that I heard on Pandora - the so called new kind of Radio on the INternet.. It's really cool.. I would recommend everyone to try it out.. Basically u just enter any artist or songs that you like.. And they will make you a playlist.. THen u can kinda comment on it whether u like it or not.. and they will modify the playlist again.. haha Cool rite? Owh.. There's also this site called Musicovery.com if im not mistaken.. It plays music according to ur mood.. ahhaha.. of course u have set ur mood there la... One downside of it is that the quality of music aren't that good.. at least for some of the songs.. But Pandora plays high quality music! =)

Hmmm.. Something not that pleasant happened right before spring break thou.. I was playing basketball wit a fren in the gym.. Everything was cool as we are playing among outselves.. Until we started playing wit 3 other ppl in the gym.. An African American and two American Asians? haha.. Yea.. The first game was cool.. We won it quite easily.. However, the second game got really ugly.. Out of frustration and tiredness.. They started to throwing in Hard fouls.. Like really hard.. if u know basketball.. It's basically a flagrant foul on some plays.. My fren has this bad problem that he's suffering from.. And they were throwing in clumsy hard fouls on him.. And they don't apologize after doing it.. I knew its gonna be a rough game from that point.. My fren got frustrated and he pushed one of the guys.. But luckily they din start a fight.. The game moves on.. WIt more and more foul plays.. And they started denying their fouls.. Althou obviously they are like fouling us on every play.. And then on one possession.. I just got so frustrated and tired of one of the guys.. He denied fouling me after wrapping around me and like whacking my arm a couple of times.. I don't know where it come from.. exam stress? homework stress? whatever it is.. The adrenaline just rushed up to my brain.. And I shouted out some really offensive words.. U know what I mean.. hahaha @U*#@**($*$*(@* bla bla bla.. Like really really loud.. I think people around the court are all looking at me and shits.. but watever.. We continued to play.. And we won by 2.. XD wahahhahahahaha.. SCREW THEM! Playing dirty will never get you any win! ROAR!!!

Hmmm.. until I get on a trip or something.. Spring break will just be a rest for me.. hehe.. Recharging for the remaining of the semester.. =)

The 100th Post =O

2009-03-15T10:00:00.000-07:00

WHATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!???? It's the 100th Post! wow.. How much crap has hamster released in this place.. Gosh. It's the freaking 100th time.. I think I created this blog sometime like 2 years ago.. When I first came to the US.. Cause I have nth better to do back then.. And still is now.. hahaha.. But.. It's been a really good container of my crappy thoughts.. hahaha.. Loads of BS by a BSer like me.. hahaha.. But well.. Ppl BS all the time.. =) It's okay.. hahaha.. So Wat is up!?

Let's see... 2 more mid terms.. One on Monday and one on Thursday.. And wooot.. after Friday's Ice Skating class... IT's SPRING BREAKKKKKKKK !! hahaha.. I know some people are already having their spring break.. Gosh.. CSU are always a week behind... =( but well.. We started school a lil later than others too.. But.. We end our semester later too! Ish... So unfair! Sometimes I wish I shoulda chose another university over this... Screwed me up so badly.. hahaha.. All the delay in graduation and stuffss.. gosh.. driving me nuts at times...

Owh.. I am gonna take this Opportunity to thank all the people who visited this place filled with Hamster's crappy thoughts.. =) Ur comments are really CONSTRUCTIVE and SUPPORTIVE.. hahaha.. Thank you, thank you. Please continue to do so in the future.. =) I don't know if there's any people who are quietly visiting and not leaving any comments .. Come on.. Just let me know that you know about this.. I already had this once.. Like someone suddenly told me, " haha.. I have seen ur blog.. " The moment was kinda embarrassing.. hahaha.. Ish.. How did people find out when I don send them the link.. All these spies and hackers! roar!! hahaha.. But if it's your way of knowing people's mind while not wanting them to know.. That's perfectly fine with me.. Coz I do that too! hahaha.. But... A simple Hi in the chatbox will be great.. =) REVEAL yourself! lolx.. Gosh.. Hope I have not been talking to imaginary person.. hahaha..

ANyway... It's time to start working on my homework.. And hopefully get some studying done.. Can't wait for Spring Break to come.. =D Till then.. Hamster.. SIgning off!

It Turned out to Be a Pretty good day! =D

2009-02-28T21:44:00.000-08:00

Yes.. I got up at 9.00am this morning as I was anticipating to play some basketball. Was kinda disappointed thou.. As I don't have a ride to play ball.. My fren's ankle is still hurting and he's not going, which means I don't get to go too.. After that, I went out to get some food for the pot luck party at noon. I was thinking not to attend as I have to work at 3pm, but finally decided to go and it was absolutely the right decision.

At the party, there's this Malaysian Professor who teaches in San Jose State. He's also the host of the party. He offered a Resume workshop for everyone. Gave lots of advice on how to further improve my resume and how to catch the attention of employers especially at economy crisis like now. Anyway, I thought his advice was really useful and constructive. After eating and eating.. We played a new scrabble thing.. Not quite sure what it's called.. But it was kinda fun.. haha.. After that, it was time to take off for me.. WOrk! I worked from 3pm to about 8.45pm. Got home about 9pm, took a shower.. and had nothing better to do.. Althou.. So much stuffs are like due this coming week.. Guess I'll try to get something done the rest of the nite or maybe tomorrow.. U know what they say.. No risk No gain.. =) Let's see how things go..

ROAR!!

2009-02-28T11:31:00.000-08:00

Business plan due on Monday.. Haven't done shit! Politics mid term on Wednesday.. hvt even started to study.. GG.. Will be working from 3pm - 8.30pm.. Gosh.. Homework due on Tuesday! ROAR!! I just wanna hide in my blanket and sleep! Not gonna do a single thing! Complaining is Gay! But I have to release the pressure somewhere! gosh.. No where else but here.. =/ Today is not really my day I guess.. Need something to kick start it.. Please lighten up my day! SOmeone, someplace, something!

Fortune Cookie...

2009-02-25T09:23:00.001-08:00

HAhaha.. I was eating Chinese food in student union yesterday and there was a fortune cookie.. Guess what it said.. haha.. Tomorrow will be a productive day.. But, don't oversleep... And guess what happened today!!? hahaha.. I actually got up like 6.45am for my 7.30am class.. But somehow got lazy and that freaking fortune cookie massage actually flashed accross my mind.. But it worked in the opposite way... AHHAHA.. I put my fortune in my own hands and decided to go back to sleep.. This is the second time that Im skipping this 7.30am classs.. It's way too early.. And.. He don't really lecture much.. Big part of the class is just questions from students and discussions that dont really relate to the class.. If you are wondering.. It's a local Politics class.. Super Boring!

Give me some directions please!

2009-02-08T17:31:00.000-08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... Im lost im lost.. Can someone please bring me back on track? hahaha.. Gosh.. It's Sunday.. And I just watched 2 NBA games.. and 2 episodes of Man Vs Wild.. Did like 2 homework problems during commercial breaks.. LOL.. I know I know.. It din't worked out so well... Spurs Won thou! wooohooo.. And Lebron lost to Kobe.. hahaha.. Both of them din do much thou.. 23 winning streak home game for cavaliers BROKEN!! hahaha..

Hmmm... Again.. the semester has come to this point where there seems to be so much to do in so little time.. Yet.. Im feeling that Im not doing enuff.. LOL.. It sucks.. It's torturing me! Cmon! Help me out here! lolx.. All the distraction around is just too much for me to handle.. LOL.. This shows how bad is my resistance towards temptations.. Gosh.. =(

Tomorrow is Monday.. And Im glad that im still alive, healthy , etc.. But.. It's going to be the same Monday again.. Just like every other week.. Althou I learn some diff things.. But still.. It's gonna be a super long day.. 7.30am - 8.45pm.. THats like longer hours than a full time worker.. haha...

Sorry for all the complains.. I know I shouldn't be doing so much complaining.. ALrite.. Let's look at the good side.. hahaha. Well... I got entertained by the TV that I watched so much today.. ANd err... I din't get sick today.. It was a pretty relaxing day.. With minimal homework doing.. LOL.. I neeed to find something that brings my life alive again! I need some excitement.. Im gonna go all out! roar!

Am I a HateR?

2009-02-01T22:31:00.000-08:00

Notice that this post is in a different color.. Why is that? I guess that describes my mood today.. It's Superbowl weekend! Most people here are sticking their asses on their couches at home watching the Superbowl XLIII which means 43.. Don quite understand how they came up wit the L for roman numbering.. But well.. IT's America.. they can pretty much do whatever they like..

So, back to my point. Why is this post in this weird color.. Reddish.. but gloomy.. which resembles my anger and also disappointment.. in what? in a couple of people over here.. I guess I have never described any of my frens over here huh? After reading some interesting article about life.. I find myself wearing so many distinctive masks at different occasions, being around different group of friends, in front of your boss, professors and family.. Honestly, I think everyone is doing the same thing.. Behaving differently, acting differently, talking differently, even the topic of conversation varies.. So, I am assuming that this is perfectly normal.. But do people realize that they are actually doing this each and every day? Sometimes, I find it hard to keep up to what I've created.. an image of myself that is.. Feels like Im going insane.. Why are we required to be like this.. why cant we just be ourselves.. Take out we... Can I just be myself? Im seriously sick of all these... Totally doesnt make sense...

Sorry for drifting away so much... but.. that all just came accross my mind.. ALrite.. back to my story.. sorry if this is lame.. but I seriously need to release all these shit from my heart.. It's been there long enough... I'm not gonna mention names.. but.. well.. I will describe them as M and T... I've known M since my second semester here.. At the beginning I find that he's a really cool guy that I can really hang out with... But, as time passes... I just find that he's really ermm... self centered! Im not saying that im selfless.. But he is just way too selfcentered.. He pretty much thinks that he is the best.. And every single thing that he said is right.. I just cant take this kind of attittude.. It's really difficult for me.. I've been keeping this in my heart so effing long.. and just feel like erupting it right now! Being in the same committee in our association.. I find it almost impossible to work with someone like him.. It's seriously a torture.. Been trying to ermm.. avoid seeing him most of the time.. but that's even harder as he's the soul mate of one of my housemates.. get what I mean? He's always around my apartment and it is unavoidable that he will knock on my door and come talk to me about his bla bla bla.. notice that everything is.. HIS... In my mind.. quietly of course.. I will be.. "whatever dude" seriously its getting effing annoying.. so yeah.. I guess Im hating M.. I don't exactly know what I should do... Should I continue to keep this with myself.. Or should I tell everyone directly.. Im seriously.. tired of keeping all these shit.. maybe i should just avoid any occasions that he'll be around.. maybe that helps.. about my apartment.. maybe i should just move out to some other place.. It's really really difficult to deal with this kind of shits... ROAR... Someone please help me out.. its driving me crazy...

About T, it isnt that serious.. Just that.. he's kinda weird sometimes.. and well.. we have different preferences i guess... but well.. ahhhhhhhh.. watever...

Spring 2009!! Here it comes!

2009-01-20T20:26:00.001-08:00

Looks like my picture only posts didn't worked out that well huh? =/ I guess facebook does a better job than picture posts.. haha.. Well.. Just one last post before classes start on Thursday.. Am taking quite some units this semester.. having 13 units right now.. and looking to add another 4 more units.. yeah! 17 units! woohoo.. LOL.. am looking forward to my Ice Skating class that I might be taking.. hehehe.. California Universities just have this weird thing that students are required to take two kinesiology courses..

This winter break has been quite a blast and also quite boring.. LOL.. As I said.. The first part was awesome.. that was only one third of the break though.. the other two thirds of the break was just DOTA, eat , sleep, cleaning up room that takes forever... and shopping? going to SF sometimes.. LOL.. Pretty lame.. haihs.. But guess this is the luxury that is offered during break only.. LOL.. here comes reality! lolx.. weeeeeee... Up for the challenge.. That's life all about.. Appreciate, Appreciate and appreciate! Just need to keep reminding myself that whenever I am complaining bout something.. Someone out there must be suffering 10 times or even more of what im facing right now.. Yea! that helps comforting me sometimes.. LOL.. THING! tm.. LOL Trademark! just like in the love guru! hahaha..

Owh... I just watched Harold and Kumar.. Both episodes! hahaha... It's so effing hilarious! seriously.. watch it.. It's making fun of Racism, the usual stereotyping.. Gosh.. It really brightens up my day.. hahaha..

hHahahahaha... Don't know what else I can say.. Guess life moves on.. Another CNY without friends and family back in Malaysia.. =/ absolutely missing the CNY celebration.. The food, the chit chat, the ang paus.. the gambling.. the fun of shopping for new clothes.. hahaa.. ALthou I can do the shopping here.. But I guess shopping in Msia is a different experience.. especially wit frens.. ahhahaa..

Ermmm... Any suggestions on how to clean up my room? hahaha.. Have been trying to clean it up for so many effing days and its just not working.. LOL.. It gets untidy so quickly that I can't keep up! guess im not just the tidy kind of guy.. LOL.. with some empty beer bottles in my room.. I actually felt like one of the pranks on TV.. THose drug dealers, emo-ers, drug addict.. LOL.. Just missing some cigarettes.. No pictures will be provided! super messy! rarh! gosh...

Owh.. been thinking recently.. What should I do with my life? Besides the studies that Im struggling with of course.. Any suggestion of what to be picked up? any particular skills? Been just playing games whenever Im free.. Find that very unbeneficial... wow.. I just created my own word.. hahaha.. PLEASSE!!! TELL ME WHAT TO DO!! TOTALLY LOST HERE.. hahaha..

Yosemite.. Again.. Pictures only! haha

2009-01-08T14:08:00.001-08:00

Vegas!! A Picture Speaks a Million Words.. =)

2009-01-08T13:58:00.000-08:00

Another Semester done!! haha.. in like 19 hours time..

2008-12-17T01:57:00.000-08:00

It's been a while huh? yea yea.. Surprisingly, I have been playing DOTA a lot.. haha I mean a lot.. ALmost everyday.. Even during finals week.. hahaha.. Just realized that.. Americans can play Dota quite well too.. Except they always go for AP mode.. WHich is kinda gay.. Cause they keep picking the same heroes.. hahaha.. Playing Dota on my lap top is a new experience! without the numpad and all.. But still okay.. Although have been losing a lot of games.. Been underestimating Americans' dota skills.. ahhaa..

Okay.. In like 19 hours time.. I should be done with all my finals. And done with the Fall 2008 semester... Long way to go though.. hahaha.. Been hearing ppl who study in Aus are graduating.. ish.. hahaha.. but its cool.. long live my Student Life!! LOL touch wood.. Anyway, my 21st birthday was pretty cool.. Wasn't expecting my friends to make me 21 cup cakes/muffins.. haahah.. But well.. Their effort and heart was great! haha.. Except the cream part... was totally messed up.. haha.. To really become 21.. Me and my homie are going to Vegas! This coming Sunday.. It's going to be CRAZYYYYYYYYYYY... We'll be partying all nite longgggggg... wahahha.. Can't wait.. Anticipating it so much.. every nite.. LOL.. Here are some pics of my b'day..

While waiting for the the images to get uploaded... It really takes a while.. getting sleepy... ZZZZzzzz...haha.. Let me describe the images.. hmm... Firstly, the 21 cup cakes/muffin.. Second, me trying to kill Murphy after cutting the tiny cakes..Third, The gift ceremony. Fourth, after some violent cream fight... Fifth, me and my classmate.. Sixth, me downing the second legal alcoholic drink in US... Seventh, me and the bar tender who made me this super disgusting drink specially for the b'day boys.. (Tabasco, cherry juice, rums, mustard, water from the bar mat!!! and many many more other liquors and disgusting stuffs..) Eighth, me and my small little dessert with candle.. =.=... Ninth, frens and i at Pf Chang for dinner..

Oooops.. The images seem to have messed up order... hahaha... I guess u guys are smart enuff to errr... sort them to the according descriptions.. hahaha.. RITEEEEE?

Something you might know but unaware of..

2008-12-01T11:19:00.000-08:00

HAhahaa.. DUe to my laziness, business, lameness, and many many more.. I decided to post my take home essay.. Written by me... hehehe.. I thought the topic was quite interesting for students to know.. However, my essay kinda sucks.. So please don mind my usage of lame words, incorrect grammar, etc.

Take Home Essay: Is Knowledge The Most Important?

“I have covered the entire chapter on Newton’s laws. Go home and try to solve the problems that I have assigned to you,” said a Physics lecturer to his students. The solutions to the homework problems assigned by professors in college are usually not obvious and distinct from the example problems discussed in class. However, the governing laws and theories in homework assignments are the same as what is taught in class. The purpose of assigning problems that require students to use a slightly different approach is to let students tackle problems with some creativity of their own, and not just following the exact procedures taught in class. However, colleges are offering less experimenting freedom to students with their well-structured courses that the faculties believe would help students learn the most out of these courses and therefore I agree with both Thoreau and Cory that learning something is more than just gaining knowledge on the subject because of the significance of people in gaining the right attitudes and skills in problem solving and hands-on personal experience.

In the passage written by H.D. Thoreau, the author argues that hands-on experience is more important than studying a subject from afar. Thoreau asserts that people are only studying facts and knowledge that are proved by scientists, but not learning from any experiments on the subject by themselves. Similarly, in the passage written by William Cory, the author argues that skills and behaviors that people learned in school are more important than the knowledge gained from studying. Cory believes that the purpose of going to school is to learn certain skills and behaviors. The author lists a number of skills and attitudes, described as “art” and “habits” respectively in the passage, acquired in school. Finally, Cory asserts that the most important thing that people learn from school is the understanding of themselves, their goals and their abilities.

Both the passages have the same argument that learning something is more than just gaining knowledge on the subject. While Thoreau emphasizes on personal experience and experiments to learn any subject, Cory emphasizes on the skills and behaviors that people obtained from going to school.

What is the purpose of attending school or colleges? Most people would think that a person goes to school in order to gain knowledge that would offer him or her a better life in the future. However, that is not exactly true. The attitudes and skills that people gain from education are far more important than the knowledge on a certain subject as stated by Thoreau: “You go to a great school, not for knowledge so much as for arts and habits.” It is the way or process that we obtain knowledge that is more important than merely memorizing a certain fact. To further illustrate, memorizing a particular solution for a mathematical problem will not help a person to solve another similar problem that requires a slightly different approach. Therefore, a person needs to understand the procedures involved in solving a problem.

As a student of an English composition class, I am always required to read arguments written by different authors. If I were to simply memorize and write down the whole argument of an author as my own work, my argument would not be persuasive at all. Instead, I will be accused of plagiarism. The real purpose of reading other arguments by different authors is to learn the way to express our own ideas. However, knowledge can sometimes be important too. For example, without knowing Newton’s law of gravitation, the design of an aircraft will completely fail. Although knowledge can be important, it is far less significant than the skills and attitudes gained from the process of obtaining knowledge.

Next, personal experience. Personal experience is the knowledge that a person can gain by attempting certain actions or experiments. It gives people a different perspective and a better idea on a particular subject. Whether the attempt of proving something succeeds or fails, one will still gain experience from it. In fact, people remember their failed attempts better than their successful attempts. It is from these attempts that people learn that what works and what does not. Colleges today are offering very few opportunities for students in creating their own experiments. Being a senior in Mechanical Engineering in San Jose State University, I find that most if not all laboratory classes that I took have a step by step procedure in every experiment. Also, from my perspective as a student who minors in business, I understand that profit is the priority of any business. To generate greater amount of profits, reducing cost would be a sound plan. During financially troubled times like the economy crisis that is happening now, it is not unusual to see companies lay off their employees as a mean of reducing cost. As a business student, I would think that this act of reducing cost would be the most effective in reducing cost and therefore generates more profits. However, an experienced manager of a company would know that this act of retrenchment might reduce the confidence and loyalty of the employees toward the company. This scenario proves that personal experience can provide a person with a different perspective towards a certain subject and also the importance of gaining personal experience.

Although knowledge can be important in some circumstances, personal experience and the skills and attitudes gained from the process of obtaining knowledge are far more significant. Schools and colleges today should provide more freedom of experimenting in the syllabus of courses for their students as I believe it would help students to be more successful in their lives.

November 3rd, 2008 - 11:46pm

2008-11-03T23:46:00.001-08:00

Okay okay... It seems that most of my friends have been MIA from their blogs.. I guess everyone is busy.. hahaa.. But u are all not forgiven! haha.. so.. On November 1st, 2008, due to the incredible crave for MAMAK by Malaysians in San Jose State, MASA SJSU decided to throw a MAMAK NITE to satisfy everyone's crave. It was a hell of a nite.. =)
Take a look at the visual and you might have some idea of err.. the cooking process.. As we as the chefs were running a lil late.. (quite late actually as the event starts at 6pm we started cooking at 6pm.. ahah) I was in charge of cooking Nasi Lemak with beef rendang. It's really easier than I thought..

WIth the instructions clearly stated on the box of the rendang paste.. I basically just need to slice the beef which I found out that I find it difficult.. haha.. So someone helped me out.. Phew.. And walaa.. It tastes pretty good.. You can probably see from the faces of the satisfied customers. ahhaha.. We were supposed to have rojak but it was a total failure cause we couldn't make the right sauce for it.. haha.. But we had Mee Goreng.. Which tastes pretty good too! =)

I know I know.. PPl in Malaysia must be thinking what in the world is wrong with this ppl.. Missing mamak and all.. Try going to a place without mamak for months.. And u will know! haha.. Alrite.. A picture tells a million words.. At least according to my Physics professor. So here it is..

Questions in My head

2008-10-24T22:57:00.000-07:00

Questions currently in my head:
1) What am I doing here?
2) Why am I doing this?
3) Where am I doing this?
4) How am I doing this?
5) Last but not least, Who am I?

Well.. This is to remind myself why I am doing all these all the way in the United States.. So.. What actually am I doing here? hmmm.. To err.. gain the power of survival by myself in the future. When there is no one I can depend on.. That's the reason why my parents sent me here? I guess so.. But, the question is.. Can't I just do all these back in Malaysia? What's up with coming all the way here.. Spending a lot more money.. Being alone.. And lost in a bunch of unknown strangers..

Is all these really worth my time? Being away from my parents and friends. From a place where I am most comfortable in.. At least without worries that I have to do my laundry and get my own food and so many other things. I understand this can help me to be more independent and all those craps.. to live in a tough situation and many more.. I understand that.. But isit really necessary to go through all these to gain that strength? Doubtful.. I really don't know..

All these might make no sense.. As I've met ppl who tried to get away from home to avoid seeing their parents.. or just away from home.. It's all weird.. This is such a small matter compared to the bigger picture - the world. I don't know what I can do for the world or even my community. And I wonder anyone is trying to do for the world or just themselves? I can't say that I'm selfless and I wouldn't say that I am not selfish.. It's just the way life is.. We live for ourselves and all we seek for in our lives.. Is for the ultimate benefits of ourselves..

For example, You are studying hard. This is all for urself in the future. showing care and love to someone else.. is just a way for u to get back the same treatment.. As u would expect. The reality might be reflecting that everyone out there is somewhat selfish.. If for a moment you think u are not, think of this: would you rather die for someone that you love, or kill another for someone that you love.. I'm not challenging anyone to do it.. but think bout it. I would say Most but not all will rather kill another than themselves..

Sorry for all these crap.. I dont really know why I have all these crazy thoughts.. But Im just sharing what I think the world is.. and how all the people are acting for themselves.. That is just the way things are.. at least for me..

Hmmm.. Come to think of it.. We are so ermmm. Tiny.. compared to the world.. The chances or probability of one meeting another is pretty small... And I do believe in what is called fate.. which is the chance u get to meet another.. However, People always leave in ur life.. U can take my word for this.. And of course.. New people come in to ur life too.. Just like the cycle of life.. u were born.. grow older.. grow really old.. and dies.. Does it ends there? No one knows.. My point is.. Appreciate the people that is around you that U were offered the fate to meet them.. Someone else out there which probably like the rest of the world don get to meet this guy/girl. Try to be good to everyone.. Because it is better to make another friend than another enemy..

Lastly, Just appreciate that you are alive.. and the people who cares for you.. cause you won't know when They will LEAVE.. i know i know. it's all a cliche..

P.S.: This is not an emo post!

Yours appreciated friend ( i hope )
Jian Wei

One Unproductive Saturday

2008-10-11T23:16:00.000-07:00

It's Saturday! ahah.. Yeah.. I actually did nothing today.. As in anything for academic.. LOL.. I need some stuffs to get my Physics project done.. But Im all too lazy.. It's been a crazy week for me.. The coming isnt any easier too.. Gosh.. Its boring! Im bored of all the work.. I worked 3 days this week.. and im working tmr at 10am!! Covering one of my fren's shift.. well.. That makes it 4 working days a week.. crazy!!

Luckily this dont happen every week.. I wonder how those ppl who work like everyday and yet have to cope with school live.. SO... We should be grateful that we are not really required to work to pay for our school and stuffs.. hahaha.. Hmmm.. So u must be wondering what in the world did I do all day.. Let's see.. slept at like 2.30am last nite.. woke up at 9am to play ball till 2pm.. That includes lunch okay.. haha.. Then.. Came home and started playing guitar for like.. 3 hours? hmmm.. Then I called home for like 10 mins.. LOL probably the first time in like a month.. Then then.. Cooked dinner and started watching errr... 模仿秀 on youtube.. hahaha. it's so funny.. Everyone is like trying to be 四大天王.. And when I look at the clock again.. It's already almost 11pm! which means.. My saturday is already coming to an end.. But.. Its a stress free saturday thou.. It's like the only day that I can actually do everything that I wanted to.. =)

oWH..Here are some pictures to err.. reduce the boredom of reading my craps.. haha.. Its our trip to San Franc for LOVE FEST!! wooohooo! haha.. It was totally OUT OF CONTROL!!! hahaha... Too bad we din get to see armin van Buren.. Tickets sold out.. BOOOOO!

Here Goes Again!

2008-10-05T15:44:00.001-07:00

haha.. Owh.. first thing first.. I reply fast to requests.. haha.. Our Gotbird captain, Joachim Yap has requested for the salted vegetable pork's recipe.. Here you go:

Salted Vegetable Pork cutlet:

Step 1 - Cut skinless pork perferable with some fat.. If you like it la.. into small cutlets. Well, about thumb size I guess.. That would be fine.. Just that it will be cooked faster..

Step 2 - Heat up a frying pan of oil and add in slices ginger and fry it together with minced garlic.

Step 3 - Add in the Salted Vegetable. ( soak it in water for a while before cooking, so that it wouldn't get too salty.. )

Step 4 - Add in sugar and soy sause to taste.

Step 5 - Tadaaaa.. All set.. Served on steamed rice is recommended..

Works Cited

My, Mom. "This is How You Cook HAM CHOY ZHU YUK la.. " . Sometime in August.. LOL
For further inquiry, Please contact Mommy at.. yea rite.. not gonna give it to u all.. WAHAHA..

Alrite.. Done with the Recipe.. Weeheee.. Okay.. 2 more midterms coming up .. gonna work my ass off for these two.. 2 hardest subs this sem i guess.. Stupid Einstein's reletivity theory.. Confusing as err.. Undescribale.. If u are wondering bout this.. Go serch on youtube about einstein's reletivity.. Enlighten me if u can understand.. LOL.. Anyway, I don really agree with his theory.. BUt.. ishh.. watever.. He's got a noble prize for that.. what can i Say..

Another mid term is Engineering Analysis.. crappy class.. Had a lecturer changed.. And it just got worsen... THis lecturer is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO boring... He talks so slow, acts slow.. but the stuffs are just .. omgosh.. It's probably coz I took it quite some time ago.. really struggling to catch up.. His slowness is killing me.. He's adding quizes once in a while which was not originally in the course structure.. owh crap.. Why do we have to change lecturer!!? beh tahan..

Okay.. Mid terms.. bla bla.. I don really care.. ahah.. The highlights of the weekend was...
Tadaa... Chee how and Damien's visit to my place! We went to lovefest in San francisco on Saturday.. To parteeeeeeeeey.. haha.. It was really cool until we did not managed to get tickets for the after party which features Armin van Buuren!! owh gosh.. what a miss.. But well.. The party was quite cool i guess.. hahaha.. There are like people not wearing clothes all around.. Both guys and girls..!! It's kinda disgusting though.. but overall it was okay.. everyone was in party mood and everyone seemed to be happy.. woohhoo.. They have like more than 10 stages around the civic center in San franc.. All with different DJs and dancers.. it was really cool! ahha.. pictures will be up soon i hope.. haha.. everyone had fun i guess.. till then.. back to work!!

ONE MORE LAST THING... PLEASE do not do not never ever freaking hell watch "blindness", It is just one of the worst movies I have EVER watched! EVER!

Warning! Boredom alert!

2008-09-29T23:11:00.000-07:00

Well.... It's F(!@)*#@ boring! haha.. HAIH... 2 mid terms done.. probably 2 more to go.. alallalala.. Just to spice things up a bit..

Here comes the story.. Sick of describing each and every picture.. THerefore.. I decided to write a whole story of them.. First of all.. I had 2 mid terms in the past week... So.. I did not have time to err clean up my room.. ( althou I would not take the time to clean it up even i have the time.. I know.. its totally lame.. ) So... It was messy.. As u can seee.. So It's dinner time, For some reasons, I had the time to actually cook.. So I decided to fry a fish fillet and errrrr the "salted vegetable pork" * for complete recipe, visit Jian'sRecipe.com * Just kidding.. Okay.. the fish fillet was a totally failure.. as you can see.. it does not resembles any fish at all... the salted vege pork was AWESOME.. well.. maybe its overated but I thought so.. haha.. just forgot to remove the pork skin.. which makes it kinda chewyyyyyyy...

OKOK.. after dinner.. Not really satisfied.. with all the stress due to studying for the mid terms.. I had to eat a SNICKERS ICE CREAM.. So I went over to 7-11 which is just 2 houses away from my place.. Still not satisfied after doing all the frustrating revision.. Went to "FANTASIA CAFE". They claim to be the best milk tea around.. I wonder if that is true.. Their milk tea was... HMMMM a BIT.. better than MAMAK's teh ais.. The pearls were chewy though.. which is not offered in a mamak teh ais.. * Warning! :It would be totally disgusting if u find something chewy in your mamak teh ais * After all that.. I went back to study.. ANd tadaaa... Accounting results was pretty... and heat transfer isnt out yet... Hopefully they all went well.. =/

Thats it for now.. OWH.. wait..

Caution: The moral values that were listed in my previous post are only applicable with applicable situations * if u get what i mean cause i dont. *

Talkin about the Speedo of time..

2008-09-07T23:07:00.000-07:00

Woohoo.. I can still recall the time like a few weeks ago.. When I was still studying for my finals back in Malaysia.. I was in my room.. sitting on my white desk and blue chair.. looking at the blue sky.. and the far far stuffs.. Now.. I am back to San Jose and its been like 2 weeks already! Now Im no more studying on my white desk or had to hop into my Blue SLK to drive to college or work.. haha.. How weird this is.. I remember like a few days ago.. when I woke up.. It felt strange.. I think I actually dreamt of home.. haha.. Yea yea.. I guess I miss home.. but well.. ahah.. THe picture was taken back in HK airport.. Look at all the Cathay flights.. haha..

Isn't it amazing how time moves.. It is constantly growing on us.. And we don't even notice it.. SOmetimes.. It gets scary.. There's no stopping to it.. haha.. ANd you know.. Maybe you all don have this fear.. but i do.. As I see my parents, uncles, aunties, all growing older and older.. I just can't avoid from all those thoughts.. But well.. I guess that's life.. Starts with birth.. and ends with death.. Unavoidable.. Now now.. Im just bored here.. That's why decided to write something here.. I read my HandBook for writers and it thought me to freewrite my thoughts.. haha.. It says that it is not required to be organized.. just random thoughts.. =P

Finally, I quoted the following.. Coz I find it quite.. MEANINGFUL and funny too! Enjoy and good nite!

Lesson 1:
A priest offered a Nun a lift. She got in and crossed her legs, forcing her gown to reveal a leg. The priest nearly had an accident. After controlling the car, he stealthily slid his hand up her leg. The nun said, 'Father, remember Psalm 129?' The priest removed his hand. But, changing gears, he let his hand slide up her leg again. The nun once again said, 'Father, remember Psalm 129?' The priest apologized 'Sorry sister but the flesh is weak.' Arriving at the convent, the nun sighed heavily and went on her way. On his arrival at the church, the priest rushed to look up Psalm 129. It said, 'Go forth and seek, further up, you will find glory.'
Moral of the story: If you are not well informed in your job, you might miss a great opportunity.

Lesson 2:
An eagle was sitting on a tree resting, doing nothing. A small rabbit saw the eagle and asked him, 'Can I also sit like you and do nothing?' The eagle answered: 'Sure, why not.' So, the rabbit sat on the ground below the eagle and rested. All of a sudden, a fox appeared, jumped on the rabbit and ate it.
Moral of the story: To be sitting and doing nothing, you must be sitting very, very high up.

Lesson 3:
A turkey was chatting with a bull. 'I would love to be able to get to the top of that tree' sighed the turkey, 'but I haven't got the energy.' 'Well, why don't you nibble on some of my droppings?' replied the bull. They're packed with nutrients.' The turkey pecked at a lump of dung, and found it actually gave him enough strength to reach the lowest branch of the tree. The next day, after eating some more dung, he reached the second branch. Finally after a fourth night, the turkey was proudly perched at the top of the tree. He was promptly spotted by a farmer, who shot him out of the tree.
Moral of the story: Bull Shit might get you to the top, but it won't keep you there..

Lesson 4:
A little bird was flying south for the winter. It was so cold the bird froze and fell to the ground into a large field. While he was lying there, a cow came by and dropped some dung on him. As the frozen bird lay there in the pile of cow dung, he began to realize how warm he was. The dung was actually thawing him out! He lay there all warm and happy, and soon began to sing for joy. A passing cat heard the bird singing and came to investigate. Following the sound, the cat discovered the bird under the pile of cow dung, and promptly dug him out and ate him.
Morals of the story:
(1) Not everyone who shits on you is your enemy.
(2) Not everyone who gets you out of shit is your friend.
(3) And when you're in deep shit, it's best to keep your mouth shut!

Makan-makan di San Jose

2008-09-04T00:37:00.000-07:00

Desert at donno where..
But I remembered it was one of my first meals back in San Jose.. =P
And it taste better than it looks.. lolx..

Special Rolls at Smile Shushi!

Look at all the rolls! We ordered like 5 of the special rolls.
Cause we wanted them all! Wahahaha..

Me shooting a picture of the rolls..
Someone is poking my face.. =/

Brunch at Restaurant & Cafe of Ikea, Palo Alto.
The Loaded Chocolate cake was NICE.

Finally, myself and food!

Anyways.. Life has been good! haha.. yaya. classes are starting to get busy with all the homeworks and reports.. but well.. life goes on.. haha.. I bought so many stuffs recently.. Let's see.. got a Chair for the living room which cost $59.99! it was on sales.. and its so comfy.. so me and my hommies decided to get it! haha.. We take turns to sit on it now.. hahaha.. Reservation in advance is required.. =P

Also, I bought myself some errmm spaces to keep my stuffs.. haha. it's like a rack to be hung into ur closet.. It made my room that lil more tidier.. hehe.. Owh. I bought a document rack too.. Just try to be more organized.. haha.. And a small square table for my room.. so that i can work from my bed. haha.. WOrk = watch movie on my lap top.. Homeworks.. Surfing, etc... keke.. getting broke.. But well.. will be working again really soon.. haha.. hard earned money ok? 1 am, time for bed.. way past my bedtime.. haha.. Nitey nite!

San Jose, California

2008-08-28T23:59:00.000-07:00

hmm.. I need an update I guess.. Here I am again. Back in San Jose. Same old place. Same old apartment.. ahah.. everything seemed to be much more familiar than the first time I came here.. I guess I am more comfortable with the place now..Gosh.. Talking about that.. It's so freaking Hot over here! And I mean RED HOT!!! yes.. its like more than 100F outside.. Its crazy hot.. I think that is about 30 + C? let's see.. the formula is (112 - 32) * 5 / 9 = 44C!? hmm.. Not too sure if this is correct.. but trust me.. It's really HOT!!

Talking bout the last weekend before I came back to San Jose.. It was quite.. enjoyable yet.. Suffering.. haha.. I had this incredible lost of appetite on the Sunday morning I think.. Didn't managed to eat anything, but just some porridge.. And I slept from like 11am till 5pm? Later at nite.. I thought I got better and was lying on the sofa watching badminton finals.. Which Lee Chong Wei played against Lin Dan. Half way through the first set, Lee Chong Wei was already struggling to keep up with Lin Dan. Just about that time, my mom kinda asked me to drink up my medicine.. Panadol it is! soluble.. I drank about a quater of it.. AND WOOSH! Everything is rushing up my throat!

And then.. The most disgusting part.. I threw out everything in the toilet.. After that.. I felt really tired and exhausted and went straight to bed.. Ignoring the IMBA badminton match.. ( A new word that I learned in Msia.. IMBA = Imbalanced ) the next morning.. I think I got better.. and started eating again.. but of course.. not fully recovered yet.. bla bla bla.. That's about it.. haha.. Owh yah.. we had a karaoke session before I left.. haha..

My stop at Hong Kong was full of excitement! haha.. from taking the MTR to the hotel.. to Shopping and eating non stop.. the only down side of my stop was that I had to carry my back pack and lap top on the first nite.. It was really really heavy.. My shoulders ache for like 3 days after the stop.. man... But well.. Hong Kong is cool.. Loads of exotic stuffs.. hahaha.. And of course.. CHinese CHICS! LENG LUIS! haha.. lalala. too bad I didn't meet Linda Chung! haha.. There are some pictures taken but its all with my sis.. haah.. will try to post some when i get them.. =P

Finally, back to San jose.. I just purchased a set of speakers on Amazon.com! It's Logitech. which costs me about 30 dollars including shipping.. I thought it was a good deal.. =)
Tadaaa! Here's a look at the speakers..
Hmm.. That's it for now I guess.. Classes this semester aren't that hectic as the last one.. I think I have more free time this time around.. Am only taking 15 units.. haha.. But hopefully I can deal with it with ease! =) till then.. I miss Malaysia! haha..

Locating myself

2008-08-14T05:24:00.000-07:00

GOsh.. I'm losing myself! How did this happen? I have no idea.. Will be leaving in errr.. less than a week time.. GG.. back to US.. haha.. haihs.. I haven't enjoyed enough ler.. And I still have politics finals tmr.. How interesting.. =/

Been trying to study since I woke up this morning at around 10 AM! But then.. started watching TV... Olympics and all is just too distracting.. My brain now feels like a wet sponge with zero capacity of absorbing stuffs.. It's full.. Of many many things.. Just like a full Hard disk.. I don't know how I am going to deal with this.. I will probably screw up tmr's finals.. F#*()$()#*)(

Also, I am trying to find someone to talk to about this.. until I tried looking for one.. I found out that I could not find any.. I don't know who to talk to.. Or rather there's no one I can talk to.. Screw all these craps! I HATE THIS!

NO TITLE!

2008-07-23T07:55:00.000-07:00

Yes! no title! ahah.. I still remember when I was taking English class in the US, the lecturer always remind me of putting a title on the essay im writing.. and I will always be in dilemma in deciding what the title should be.. I can spend like 10 minutes thinking bout the title.. haha..It is just so hard.. Well.. Maybe for Ppl with IQ 100 like me, its a really difficult task.. haha

Hmm.. I received comments about my post with all the wonderful colors that we ppl who are not color blind get to differentiate and enjoy them.. but well.. since u guys prefer monotone.. HERE IT IS.. SEE WHAT THE COLOR BLIND PPL SEE! haha.. Sounds like SAW and the JOKER in Batman.. dei.. trying to imitate la.. THe Dark Knight was a really awesome movie! Kinda long.. But if I wasn't rushing to yum char in station 1 with my fellow friends.. I would enjoy the movie even more.. I was like.. C'mon.. It should be ending now.. hahaa. and tick tick tick.. the clock just keep ticking and joker is still around there joking.. =.= Finally it was 11.30 pm and we actually ran to the car.. hahaha..

Hmm.. Sexay is leaving in i forgot how many days.. But really really soon! I really din spend much time with her as promised.. haha.. It's always like that.. Sorry Sorry.. THis summer is really a hectic one.. I have so many things that I wanted to do that I find myself constantly multi tasking at times.. but.. haha.. I accept the challenge.. =) no prob man.. Well.. I guess its not about the length of the time we spent.. but the quality of the time we spent together. =) haha. the yum char session in Station 1 last nite totally exceeded my expectations.. It was full of laughter and comfort! haha.. No pressure at all.. We can basically talk about anything dont we? ahhaa.. cool! I thought we could talk till dawn arrives if we wanted to.. hehe..

Rarh.. everyone is leaving! how how? hahaa.. looks like we are going to be apart yet again.. haha.. but well.. we will each have our own lives in our own destinations.. But i believe we will all come together again.. one day... one fine day.. and talk our hearts out.. haha =) Really looking forward towards that day!

An essay always ends wit a conclusion.. And so.. here it is.. I would like to end this "no title" by saying.. NO CONCLUSION IS NEEDED because this is my, personal BLOG! No need for all these crazy formats!

Give me a break!!

2008-07-10T08:54:00.000-07:00

I know, I know.. We should appreciate life, bla bla bla bla... But yet... I really need a break from what I am doing now.. Working + class ain't cool.. haih..... thats it for now.. see.. i need to go to bed already.. because i have to go to work at 8.30 tmr.. SIENZ!! ciao

Given a second chance! =) Part 2

2008-06-12T02:01:00.000-07:00

After shooting a few pictures at the hill top, we headed to the "Cave of Ears" (Gua Telinga) more like a cave of bat crap to me.. LOL.. The smell was absolutely horrible even from outside! Limpard was in a dilemma whether he should enter the cave since he had a doubtful ankle.. But in the end! He decided to join in the fun.. ( TOUCHING BAT CRAPS! ) The cave exploration was full of excitement with the climax at the end when our Hokkien Clan's president, Elwin Gwee, had a muscle pull (chou jin)!! hahahaha.. It was so funny because everyone else was stucked behind him when he couldn't move forward.. In the end, with his strong determination, he managed to move on.. SEMANGAT GOTBIRD! way to go president! The cave exploration was definitely a must go for everyone! ahha.. Gua Tempurung is better thou.. in my opinion.. haha

Next, we went to the upstream of the river to wash off all the bat craps and soak in the supercooling upstream water.. It was really cool and fun.. haha.. Then, we headed back to our "hotel", took a shower, and went for dinner. Everyone was kinda exhausted and we decided to stay in the room and start playing games and get drunk.. We played a Killer game with cards with so many funny moments which I won't be able to cover in this post.. haha.. I guess the most memorable moment was when YCC was accused as a killer and he explained himself that his dad sells Pork Noodle and his mom sells Noodles.. //That was superlame and totally out of the context of the game... well.. he was named by others as DDLG.. hahahaha =P

On the next morning, we head off to a place where we jungle tracked to a some kind of waterfall thingy and took some pictures there. We also managed to get ourselves wet in one of the shallow pools.. lead by YCC.. The water was rather yellowish, But it didn't matter much as we were all soaked.. After that we checked out from our "hotel" and began our journeyyyyyyy home...... Owh.. Before the journey, we went to a Chinese Air conditioned restaurant for lunch.. THE food there was simply awesome!!

So, we began our long journey home.. Our car was driven by China Apek and Yee kuan drove his car. Everything was going smoothly as me and YCC both fell asleep in the car after the awesome meal. Chairmaine was the only one awake keeping China Apek company.. It was after about half an hour drive.... when I was suddenly awaken by this loud shout of China Apek.

China Apek: Why is the car coming like that!!!?!!! What is he/she doing!!!??? ( in Mandarin )
//It was as loud as a lion's roar..

The next moment, when i was barely awake (eyes half opened), I saw a White Nissan Sunny, which looked rather old..
COMING STRAIGHT AT US!!!!!!
Within a blink of an eye.. I am not really sure what happened, but was praying in my heart that please let me and my friends all be safe and alive.. And I started to feel the swelling of my lips and also saw the deep cut on my knee.. The only taste that I had in my mouth was the iron taste of BLOOD. From that moment, I knew it was a terrible, horrible accident. I looked to my side to check on the driver, china Apek and sighted his head to be bleeding.. But it wasn't a deep cut.. WIthin seconds, YCC and China Apek started arguing and China Apek was apologizing towards what he did over and over again... Moreover, he kept repeating that it was not his fault..
//We all knew it was not his fault... It was no one's fault as no one would like something like this to happen..
The next moment.. I heard ppl from outside shouting to get out of the car and I started trying opening the door.. After like 3 trials.. I thought.. OMGOSH.. we are trapped.. THis is it for me.. Until i realized that the door was locked.. =.= I pulled up the door lock and someone opened the door and got us to a lil pondok at the roadside.. I was still wondering if all these that just happened was a dream until china apek suddenly laid his head on my shoulder saying that he felt really dizzy.. and so I just let him.. After a while.. He went unconscious for a few seconds where he almost fell to the ground.. Someone shouted at me to help him out and I finally woke up and was pretty sure that these are all happening!! OMGosh..

After about 5 minutes of waiting in the pondok, a kind Malay man came to us and offer us a ride to the Clinic which is located in Mendakap.. We hopped into his SLK and he drove as fast as he could to the Clinic! //A thousand thank you to you! =)

Okay.. Im all lazy now.. will continue again soon.. LOL...

To Be Continue...................

Given a second chance! =)

2008-06-10T02:28:00.000-07:00

On the 31st of May, I was back from the US for just about a week and was already heading towards my first trip in Malaysia as planned by our trip organizer, YCC. 8 of us agreed to head to Taman Negara, a national reserved park in Malaysia. Two cars were needed for the trip as we decided to drive up to Jerantut where the jetty to Taman Negara is. So it is, 4 in each car, with me, YCC, cheah hun, and Chairmaine in a Proton Wira drove by YCC. Another 4 in a Hyundai Getz drove by Elwin Gwee ( Yee Kuan) , with 3 other passengers: Alex, Matthew ( Chee How ), and Kwan Lim.

// denotes comments in C programming.
// sorry for the boring introduction, but I promised it will get interesting ... Patience! haha..

We started our journey in the early morning, about 5am. A meeting point at the SS15 Mcdonald's. //wootz.. Mcdonald's are now open 24 hours a day, which means obesity to Malaysians! Instead of healthy (questionable) mamak, now Malaysians are given the choice of Mcdonald's. Here, hungry and sleepy people in the early morning like me, grabbed some breakfast from McDs.. Their BIG BREAKFAST isn't as big as the name suggests. Without wasting any time, we hopped into our cars and started our engine and also journey towards Jerantut. The journey was kinda long and the roads were kinda curvy. Nevertheless, I slept my way throughout the journey until we are about an hour from our destination. //omgosh.. I can't believe I have so much craps to write about.. haha.. Well.. This is the value of a long post after a long period of time.. It shows effort okay? =P

Now, now.. After about 3 hours of driving, we arrived in Jerantut, a small town in Pahang. We had some DIM SUM and Chinese food at a Hawker center and was told by YCC that it will be our LAST CHINESE MEAL!!! //well, guess he was right.. We had Malay and Western food in Taman Negara. Notice the LAST, it might've really been our last chinese meal for the four of us..

After checking in to our "HOSTELS", //was surprising that they had air conditioner! Thumbs up! We went for jungle tracking up the hills which was really tiring.. //pss... hehehe.. Kwan Lim vomited half way up hill.. awwwwww poor thing.. PROBABLY LACK OF EXERCISE!! ahhhh.. the fonts are all screwed up..

TO BE CONTINUE........................

Talking about time flies..

2008-05-18T09:30:00.000-07:00

It's been almost a year since I last went home. By home, I mean my home home.. hahaha.. the place where and grew up and learnt a bunch of stuffs, met a lot of people and had many many memories both good and bad...

It is just about 3 more days or so till I will be home again.. The anticipation kicks in again just as usual. Studying in finals and packing are both a pain in the ass.. hahaha.. But.. everything seems less important now.. I just wanna get my ass home and catch up with what is left in Malaysia..

3 months it seems I will be staying.. having to take 2 classes in Inti college where I am considered an alumni.. and also probably an intern opportunity with my dad's fren in a boiler company..

So, busy summer it seems huh? I guess.. Hope you guys will leave ur weekends empty for me! haha.. as i think my weekdays will be more or less hectic.. I really want to catch up with every single one of you.. hahaha.. listening to your lame jokes.. your downs and ups.. your everything!

For now, I don't really have the mood to get my head down and start studying for 2 more finals that are coming up on tuesday and wednesday.. I should probably be packing up my stuffs now..
hmmm.. alrite then... till FRIDAY! looking forward to see you all! =)

p/s: added the photo coz someone said I did not upload photos.. haha

Best wishes,

Jian Wei

Anxiety Disorder ?

2008-05-04T01:13:00.000-07:00

Hah! Anxiety disorder!! gosh... Finals is coming right at me with such high velocity.. I hope I can catch up with it... still kinda busy finishing off projects and stuffs... Presentations will be next week.. and also the week after.. for 2 classes! DAng it! I have a third fluids midterm on thursday too! and a presentation before the midterm.. OMOGOSH...so much to do! crazy la... if i say im not anxious and stressed... its unbelievable!! Im totally at the climax of the semester now.. If I screw up now, I probably screw up the entire semester.. and that is very greatly undesired! hahaha..

SOrry for posting such a stupid post.. U know.. sometimes I just need to throw out a bit of stress here! damn.. I can't wait to go home.. That is kinda my main motivation to study now.. I just wanna get this done and go home!!

My dad sent me an email the other day and told me about he found me a job with one of his friend. which I think it should be cool. As this will be my first time err.. not really.. but do something related to the field that I'm stuck in.. which is not only studying but hands on experience of the industry.. it might sound lame but I think it is rather interesting... at least for now... hmmm.. This summer will be rather busy as I can predict.. I will be catching up with my 2 classes which I will be missing 3 weeks of classes and also work... I want to spend time with my friends and family at the same time though! it's been quite a while since I last see all of you, you and YOU! hahaa.. So make sure you guys will be free when I am free as I think I will be the busy one around...

Last but not least, Please wish me luck and pray hard for me that I will pass my finals with wonderful, spectacular, phenomenal, fantastic, incredible, superb flying colors... yOUR SUPPORT will be greatly appreciated by me! =) Till then... 18 days and counting down till I touch down in my home ground again! Have fun! Just to remind my self.. not to stress out too much! hahaha.. weeeeee..........

One more thing! the macbook air ad's song is so good that I posted it on my blog! Go and listen to it.. As my autoplay didn't quite work.. just click on the button that looks something like this (>) hahaha.. which is PLAY! C'mon.. You should know that! ;)

Yet.. more midterms!

2008-04-17T21:53:00.000-07:00

owh gosh.. yes... more midterms.. I did not know that fluid mechanics has freaking 3 mid terms.. I thought there are going to be only 2.. haih... hahaha.. but I guess the semester is almost over.. that means Im going home soon! wooo hooo.. hahaha... This is going to be one my worst semesters... projects, midterms all at the same time.. And my project group is kinda slacking.. and we are kinda far behind.. I am kinda pissed but at the same time cant do anything.. rarh! Hope it will be fine la.. I will have my 2nd midterm for mechanical design tmr.. gosh. that class is a nightmare.. Which is one of the project class! rarh.. can kill wei.. didnt do that well on the first mid term.. so have to at least get a better score this time to savage some points...

Ehh.. the problem in wikipedia I also donno how to explain to u ler sexay.. It should make sense with the 2/3 chance rite? haha.. but then.. when i think again.. sometimes u might still win by staying with your choice.. haha why suddenly u interested in that? hmm...

Can't wait to go home! Have been thinking about home so much.. hahaha! weeeeeeeeee.... just one more month or so... Endure, persevere, push on! yes.. another month of all these craps and I will be home.. I miss every one! hehehe.. cant wait till I see you guys! =)

Trip to Seattle, Washington

2008-04-11T19:47:00.000-07:00

Tadaaa.. photos from Seattle, Washington. The trip was errr.. loads of fun? hahahaa..

Posing outside the flight museum! =P

Air force one.. The plane that presidents used to fly on!

Yoga?

Frustrated being unable to fly the plane.

Posing in the library..

Seattle downtown from the space needle!

After Breakfast....

Before breakfast....

Joining the otters for an afternoon nap.

Posing in front of the mirror.

new typing speed!! hahahaha

2008-04-01T13:01:00.001-07:00

100 words

Speedtest

kena tagged for typing speed.. =P

2008-03-30T10:03:00.000-07:00

75 words

Speedtest

HAH! I beat you Sexay! by like 2 words! and I beat sze too! hehehe... ahahahah.. I worked hard for it okay.. hahaha.. practiced till fingers also swollen.. LOL.. kdkd.. a bit too exaggerate.. kekeke.. but I really did practice!

Im back from Seattle! It was a recharging trip! its just full of sightseeing thou.. pictures will be up soon when i get it? hahaha.. yippie.. classes gonna start soon.. I just love to go to class ( gosh.. lying to myself works? ) haha.. kk.. I better start doing my homework.. =)

Leaving on a jetplane!

2008-03-24T06:26:00.000-07:00

It's 6.30 am and I just woke up. In about 3 hours time, I will be leaving on a jetplane to Seattle, Washington for my spring break. Till then! ciao peeps! hehe

Jian Wei

ner.. nervo... nervous!!

2008-03-17T23:37:00.000-07:00

It's freaking Thermodynamics mid term tomorrow. It's my last mid term before my sweet escape to chill in seattle. ( Spring Break!! ) So stress la.. so much work and a mid term which im not entirely confident.. but watever.. im gonna stay positive..! rarh! Isn't doing so well this semester .. but! gonna pick myself up! rarh! no way im giving up! kekekeke.. ciao ppls! wish me luck!! i need it a lot! ahhaha.. bed time now.. nitez!

Losing an hour

2008-03-10T00:35:00.001-07:00

Weee.. The long week is over.. Althou i probably screwed up my test.. im not gonna swell on it!

Rarh.. It's daylightsavings again! this crappy shity stuff.. I dont even know why they even started this.. althou its quite reasonable like for farmers last time or watever.. ITs crappy.. Our body clock doesnt really adjust to this that well.. 7.30am class will be 6.30 now! RARH unfair! i hate this system! hahaha..

kkk enuff of complains.. Owh.. Malaysia seemed to have made a step forward.. with oppositions winning big.. lalala.. Its kinda cool.. finally some change in msia.. hopefully good ones.. =)

Owh.. I was working yesterday until like 1.30am. And we lost an hour yesterday.. so it should be 2.30!!! omg.. isnt that cool? we were working at quite an awesome event with all the errrr elegant aunties and uncles.. hahaha.. It was cool.. there were some hot girls too.. LOL.. Too bad i was just serving them.. hahaha...

ANyway! It was a sucky work day.. As we were running late for the event.. Everything was a mess.. and the host was rushing us like mad... WE were running short of hands.. There just wasnt enuff man power! coz there were some ladies.. LOL kdkd.. hmmm.. but anyway again.. hahaha.. our manager suddenly stopped us from working for a while.. and gave us a talk.. hahahaha.. It was somewhat errr.. motivational? hahaha.. he told us that.. " The moment we panic, we have lost it. Just stay calm, and deal with the problem that u have. Sometimes, we just have to take a step back. The moment u start to panic even for a second or a minute.. U are wasting time. Just stay calm and deal with ur problems.. solve those that u are currently faced with and F*(# those that are already past." That was what he said! cool neh? hahaha..

Anyway... again.. IT's bed time! losing an hour isnt cool at All! I mean it SUCKS!

Nitey nite !

The Longest TO-DO-LIST

2008-03-02T16:11:00.001-08:00

As you can see... ITS a freaking LONG TO DO LIST... It broke the record of JIan wei's todo list.. ALthou i dont usually keep a to do list.. I just started it this semester.. as I don wan the last minute feeling.. OWH i have this and that to do and its due tmr.. hahaha.. hate that wei.. SO i would recommend each and everyone to keep a to do list! download this software called the Rainlendar.. It's kinda cool.. u can add a todo list.. with the due time.. add an alarm.. Put events in dates.. Just google for rainlendar.. =) THat's it for now.. im gonna chop off my todo list tree one by one..! yes! I miss home! lolx..

My imaginative Chinese New Year's Eve

2008-02-25T23:10:00.000-08:00

Chinese New Year’s Eve
I was fully awakened from my afternoon nap by the icy water hitting on my back that gave me a chilly sensation. For my culture, traditional Chinese culture, it is a tradition to rinse ourselves with water that is soaked with pomelo leaves on the day before Chinese New Year. By rinsing ourselves with the water soaked with pomelo leaves, it is believed that we would wash away all “bad things” or bad luck that we had in the previous year and step into the new year with good luck and prosperity. As I was shivering in the freezing shower, the familiar tone of the most important lady in my life, my mother, was heard again through the bathroom door. Once again, I was ordered to rush my shower as we were racing against time. The most important period of time on the day before Chinese New Year was the reunion dinner which is held annually in my father’s eldest brother’s four storey town house. This is an annual event where all of my family’s relatives, from close and far away, meet up and dine together. My uncle’s house is about 30 minutes away by car. The time for the reunion dinner would usually be set at half past six when the sun would look like a reddish mandarin. However, we Malaysians seemed to be living in a time lag of half an hour. Everyone was expected to be late as the time lag lived on for a year after another. This time lag that Malaysians had lived in is not something that we are proud of. Therefore, when the reunion dinner was set to be at half past six, we would be expecting the feast to only begin at seven with the approval of the god of rain.
Years after years, my family had always been the last to arrive in my uncle’s house for the reunion dinner. The member in my family with the highest authority, my father was always be able give the perfect, flawless excuses for being late. A wise man once said “practice makes perfect”. I think my dad would be a good example in depicting that. As we knocked violently at my uncle’s solid wooden door as if we were running out of air, my aunt would always be the one who opens the door and welcomes us with her big wide smile and the most popular greeting during Chinese New Year, “Gong Hei Fatt Choy” which means congratulations and be prosperous in Cantonese. My grandmother is an immigrant from Hong Kong many years ago. She is the reason that we are all Cantonese speakers in the family. However, my grandfather is a lineage of the Hakka clan. Thus, most of our relatives are Hakka speakers too. I do not speak Hakka, but I do understand a tiny bit here and there. Most of the time I would be guessing what those powerful tones of Hakka phrases mean. The tone of the Hakka language is always heavy which sometimes I would even perceive the tone of the language to be rude.
The first thing that caught my sight when we stepped into the house was the big red lantern hung on the ceiling of the living room. It was incredibly beautiful with every single detail of the dragon that was painted on the lantern seemed to be as real as the legendary dragon could be. Two Red, rectangular papers filled with such artistic strokes of Chinese calligraphy were on the wall of the dining area. Chinese calligraphy is an oriental art originated from China. I find Chinese calligraphy is such a wonderful art that I would spend hours admiring one’s piece of Chinese calligraphy. The Chinese calligraphy during Chinese New Year always carries good meaning in it that originated from Chinese literature. The scent of incense was all over the place. It is a tradition for Chinese to burn incense as a mean of worshipping our god. A whole steamed chicken and crispy roast pork were placed on the table as offerings to god. The next and also the most important thing that caught my attention was the dining table. It was the smallest dining table that I have ever seen as it was filled with a record breaking number of dishes that made the table looked tiny. It felt like I was the Emperor of China for a moment, looking at the variety and quantity of food arranged on the dining table. Fish, chicken, pork and shrimp are some of the basic requirement in a reunion dinner. The irresistible scent of the wonderful dishes placed on the dining table made everyone drooling like hungry lions that had starved for weeks. Chatters and laughs was all around the dining table as everyone was dining and as well as catching up with one another. Later in the night, the laughing and chattering became louder and louder as everyone was warmed up by the old aged whisky that had been kept for years just for the night. Indeed, everyone ate like they have not been eating for weeks as the feast ended in about an hour.
After stuffing our stomach full with all the mouth watering dishes, my cousins and I went out to the backyard for some illegal business. By that, I meant lighting up firecrackers that are illegal in the country as they are known to be dangerous and could severely hurt a person. I always admire the ability of my cousins in obtaining these prohibited items in the country as one could be fined or even jailed for this illegal trading. Firecrackers had always been the best part of Chinese New Year’s Eve. A wise man once said “Never judge a book by its cover”. The cheap-looking firecrackers are often the best ones. A good firecracker should be deafening loud and blinding colorful. There is some history behind the tradition of playing with firecrackers during Chinese New Year.

Elephant ankle!

2008-02-18T00:37:00.000-08:00

It feels so weird... right after i post the basketball video, like a few days after.. I went to play basketball.. and guess what!? I sprained my ankle! Its swollen now.. it hurts when i walk.. or should i say.. slide with one leg and walk with another? ahha.. It just so bad.. 10 minutes is usually the time i take to walk to my classes.. but now.. i guess i need at least 10 more minutes.. as i usually walk kinda fast.. haihs!
Gonna see the Doc tmr.. hope that it helps.. =) anyways! I have already said this
++++++++++++++++++++++++++ yes! think positive.. hahah.. lets see sprained ankle.. find out more about how to take care of my ankle? YES definitely.. no more basketball for me for at least a week or so.. haihs.. wont even be able to work for this week.. =P.. Its considered holiday! hahah as i have a midterm this week..=)

DOn't you guys just love mondays? well i do! hahaha.. i know i know.. its the first day of the week.. some says second.. but for me its the first.. its the beginning of an end.. without the beginning there wont be an end.. haha.. isnt that cool? so start loving ur mondays! =)

Flash backs!

2008-02-13T17:19:00.000-08:00

As I was busy doing homework the evening before it was due, I looked through my external HDD to look up for some songs to be played while i deal with all the crappy homeworks. Guess what i found? haha.. A basketball tourney that I took part in years ago.. owh gosh.. how much older have we all grew? hahaha.. I miss the high school days! It was just so much fun. I guess we never did appreciate it enough at that time.. and was always complaining about it. But now.. As time goes by.. I guess we all start to miss it. hahaha.. it is so ironic... Well.. I need to get back to my work now.. It is just a short update... haahha.. actually im thinking of a post everyday.. but it would be so boring .. haha no one would ever visit my blog again.. hahaha.. and it takes time.. ahahha.. so just once in while should do it.. =) Its still chinese new year now but it doesnt feel like it at all.. haha its just like any other weeks or days.. RARH!

p/s: I might be heading back to Malaysia during summer to take some classes back in INTI.. will see how things go.

If I...

2008-01-28T15:09:00.000-08:00

If I could,
If I can,
If I have the capability,
If I have the ability,
If I have the strength,
If I have the believe,
If I have the freedom,
Then everything would be possible!

Hahaha.. yes! all those Ifs.. where am I going with it? Crap.. I totally lost it.. hahaha.. Okay.. I've seen the term of "give and take" like many many times now.. I mean it! haha.. yes! it's all about give and take. When u have the willingness to give, u shouldn't be hoping for getting the same thing back. And that thing, could mean err a favor, treatment or whatever. No expectations! owh gosh.. how many times have I been saying the no expectation thing! haha.. But of course.. there is a bigger chance that u might receive the same amount of favor or treatment when u are willing to give those to others. Although this might not always hold, it is true to some extend.

p/s: This is not a lecture nor words of wisdom. It's my personal opinion.. haha feel
free to criticise. =) your voice is worth a million dollars ( in the value sense!! dont ever ask me to pay u that! hahaha.. owh ya.. maybe in monopoly =P ). We learn from other people's criticism. Thank them for those.

yay! enough of craps.. for those who are thinking negative which is also known as ---------------------------------- thinkers! I am going to multiply all your -------------------------- thinking by ---------------------------- . Common sense will give u the answer of ++++++++++++++++++++++++ yes! + thinker! that is what we want to see.. i think that is high school math.. hahaha.. revise it if u did not get it!

now now.. I just signed up for a new phone contract yesterday.. hehee.. I got a new phone! Sony ericsson W580i.. shake control thing.. but i havent been playing around wit it.. kinda new to sony ericsson la... the light at the side looks really tight! ahah.. i think sexay's phone has that too! hahaha the disco lights if u would like to call it that.. hahaha!

tadaaaaaaaaa..!

owh yah! haha today i saw this incredible, stunning color display right above my desk on the wall. It was so cool! hahaha.. my housemate took a picture of it.. after that i found out it was just the reflection of my cd..LOL =.= but still cool.. now it actually appears on my water cup.. hehe.. some ppl call my cup a vase.. because its huge! haha 750ml! =) haha.. ya.. i think flowers could probably survive for months if it were to be use as a vase.. haha.. and its transparent.. keke..

Looks like my post is full of rubbish.. haha nvm! i dont care! kekeke.. owh.. i learned a new song today... maybe not new for some of u.. LOL i saw that guy from guess guess guess.. and i thought his song is kinda tight and i pick up my guitar and started playing! whooo laaaa .. I got the chorus! hahaha donno if u guys heard of him.. his name is tsai ming yo.. can we actually type in chinese characters in blogspot? hmmm.. not sure. hahaha..

ow yah owh yah! wai kit left san jose and got back to chicago.. remember that pathetic guy that i told u guys about? hehe he's back in Chicago now.. before he left, we had a tiny farewell party for him.. and we kinda got drunk.. hahaha.. here are some footage of the Drinking game that we played! hehe..

WOW.. this thing took quite a while to upload.. 59megs!! ow gosh.. haha.. hmm i doubt you guys can view it like smoothly.. hahaa.. anyway, thats it for now.. take care all! remember.. +++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Wah! U so long only post one..

2008-01-21T10:14:00.000-08:00

Hahahah! yes! i totally agree with u szeee.. kekekeke.. thats what causes higher demand u seee... hahaha =P

hmmm.. lets see.. it's 2008! I know, I know. It's late isn't it? ahhaha.. happy new year everyone.. at least the Chinese one is coming soon... RARH! which means it will be the second one that i missed! missed as in spend it in US.. with no relatives.. but a few, I mean it! a few! friends.. hahaha.. alrite alrite.. New year New style huh? have you guys noticed the two clocks that i added onto my blog! hahaa.. its for the convenience of YOU PPL.. Yes you PPL out there to figure out what is the time difference in between my beloved Malaysia and United States.. West coast at least.. okay! new format! PARAGRAPH!

THis is a new paragraph.

This is another new paragraph.

This is not a new paragraph but a new sentence..

"ehhh.. lame wei!!!" This must be what u ppl are thinking now.. seee.. I anticipated it! hehehe.. cool eh? for all of you who think paragraphing is lame, Think TWICE or MORE if you still dont get it! ahhahaha.. but if u think jian wei is lame.. U are probably on the right track! hehehehe.. coz he is! rarh!

Now now.. back to life.. L.I.F.E huh? so what do u think the L means? I would say Love.. agree? hehehe.. now how bout I? hmmm.. Independent would be the answer for now.. and F.. Failure! yeah man! thats true.. there are always failure in one's life.. and E... Entertainment! weeeeee... yes yes.. It is so important that i doubt someone could live without it.. hahahahah...

So what have my LIFE been doing to me? Work! yes.. i started workin again on thursday and have been working for the past 4 days.. Thank my sweet mama that it is a public holiday today.. weeeeee.. the things on my to do list have not been done yet.. cleaning up my room is one of them.. as u might remember from the previous absolutely amazing images of how NICE my room is.. hehehe...

To Sze, ehhh.. the sony ericsson W580i good ar? hahaha.. im thinking of getting it because my phone contract is ending this month.. hehehe.. its time to get a new phone.. i can get that phone for free.. weeeeeee.. but that comes wit a two years contract though.. hmmmm.. it definately looks nice.. hahaha

To LSZ, errr.. I don't really understand your post lar! whatever it means.. you sounded like a confused, Hurt-ed, Disappointed person.. cheer up man! i mean lady! lolx.. so u do believe in one true love huh? kekeke.. good luck in finding urs! =)

To Sexay, hahaha.. faster graduate so u can make it in time to extract my wisdom tooth.. its killlling meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..

Here are some photographs that i took in my recent ski trip.. hehehe..

Due to high demand..

2007-12-29T09:52:00.000-08:00

HAHAHA.. yeap! due to "high" demand.. Here's an update on www.ji4n.blogspot.com.
yea rite.. high demand.. hahaha.. only one audience actually.. which is our famous or infamous SEXAY dentist! the one which we will one day seek for help.. Not the fairy tooth fairy? BUt a xing gan dentist! who worked so hard for it. =)

ALrite alrite.. enuff of stories bout sexay dentist that i missed so much .. =P back to the real deal!

Once upon a time, there was a boy named wai kit. He was a pathetic guy living in a cold and snowy house.....

oooops.. where were i going with that!!? hahaha.. breakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk~~

ehem ehem, okay.. back to business. It's Winter break!! weeeeeeee.. which means i have one whole long month or rather a short break. Here's how my winter break starts:

1) Arrival of wai kit. My INTI college mate. He's a fine guy as i introduced to u all in my short fairy tale story.. haha.. tadaaa~

2) Reason for wai kit's visit: He has no where to stay in his cold cold Chicago. All his frens were going home. Last but not least, he wanted to visit me in San jose! so he can travel around California. =P

3) Trip to LA
It was the Best trip ever! "best" as you can see in my facebook. I've uploaded some of the photographs there. Why am I saying it was the best trip ever? guess what? it was a tight budget trip. I was cool with that at first because my fren did not want to spend too much on the trip. First and foremost, we stayed in Hollywood Hostel right in the middle where all the Hollywood attractions are. The best thing is, it only cost us 17 dollars a night~! Sounds cool huh? haha.. attached is a photograph that we took in the room. We had so many different roommates. there were 6 ppl in a room.

The hostel was not too bad as it was clean and tidy. There wasn't any SCARY ppl too. luckily. Hahha.. It all went bad when I start to get sick! and then wai kit got sick too. We are still unsure of the cause of these sickness! hmmm.. Probably due to the polluted air in LA or the HOSTEL! haha.. unknown. Anyways. the wind in LA was super strong. I think it goes up to 50 MPH! we find it so cold that i regret not to bring my ski jacket. Its even hard to walk around. This is what made the trip the "best" ever. Sickness, cold, lost, bla bla bla.

4) The Wax museum in Hollywood. The stuffs there was so cool. ALthou they wasn't as real as we saw in the photographs. It was still kinda.. sort of REALISTIC. haha..

hmmm.. That's about it for this time. As im still sick. hahaha.. rarh! I miss all the ppl in Msia! U all must be having so much fun back in Msia. WHere as Im sick here.. In the cold cold US. owh.. there was a thing that cheered me up thou.. hehee.. I PASSED my ENglish! hehehehe.. and my results was better than expected too. =) i got all A's hahaha! 1 A- and 1 A+ .. hehehe..

Owh yah.. lastly, LSZ.. have u been working hard towards the lucky number 47? hahaha.. if not, u better do. owh! It's sze's birthday rite? HAPPY BIRTHDAY SZEEE~
guess u will get another surprise in MSIA! hahaa.. so many sistas! haha.. cool! have a superb birthday! may u be happy always! =) and happy belated birthday to yin too! =)

THats it peep. Take care of yourself and hmmm.. HAVE FUN for the sake of ppl who are stuck in a place where he has no close ones to refer to when he's lost.. hahaha.. lalalal.. rite...

and they live happily ever after.......... (just to finish up the fairy tale intro ;P)

It's my 60th post!!

2007-12-01T10:56:00.000-08:00

hahaha yes yes! it's my 60th post.. so what? LOL nth.. =P errrrrrr... Donno how i end up here writing stuffs. Will be having my first finals this semester in like an hour time! and it would be a credit or no credit class: ENGLISH!! to be more accurate, it is Remedial English.. so People.. please pray hard for me! hahaha.. As i really need to pass the class.. It's really slowing me down on my degree progress.. Which means i will need a longer time before i get back to MSia.. hahaha RARH!

Hmmm.. Been kinda tired these days. I don't know why.. Probably is because of my tiny lil bed.. I'm just to huge to fit in the tiny little bed! when i put my legs straight while lying on the bed.. it only covers up to my knees! hahaha.. haih.. I probably should get a better bed. Besides, i think it might be due to my work! rarh! i started working 2 days ago. The first day was okay.. as it was pretty lay back style work.. hahahaha.. the second day was tough! i dont even get a break which i should.. I worked 5 hours straight! hahah it's been a while since i have to stand for that long! my feet sores like crap!

Sexay wanna come to US? Go and apply for your VISA la! hahaha.. bring ur frens along too.. kekekeke..

TIme to prepare!

" This is where we HOLD'em; THis is where we FIGHT! "
300! LOL Spartans!

owh! if u are wondering where's that messy place is.. MAke a WILD guess.. U should be right! hahaha..

Back from Reno!

2007-11-27T09:25:00.000-08:00

yes! I'm back from Reno! it's a place with casinos! ahhaha just like a mini vegas. They are in the same state thou.. Besides, i also went to Northstar Resort for skiing! ahhaa.. it was fun to watch ppl falling down all the time when i don't fall anymore.. whahahahahaha! A fine weekend like this is what i need to forget about all the problems and stresses.. ahha U all should try it out too! =)

Anyway, I've seen ppl who are getting holidays soon! rarh! so do I! just a little longer time to go for me. That means my finals is coming real soon! the first paper will be on this Saturday. The weird thing is that I still hav classes after my first final paper. WHAT THE HECK!!? hahaha.. let's hope I can survive to the finals with all the colors of the world. I mean all! more than all those on the rainbow. haha and i hereby wish that everyone who is having finals or any exams or watever in life to pass with flying, floating, superb colors! hahaa.. omgosh im late for tutor.. I need help for physics... Till then.. jian signing off! weeee...

My Love Will Get You Home (song)

2007-11-12T00:51:00.000-08:00

Spell?

2007-11-12T00:39:00.000-08:00

Lost...

2007-11-11T23:42:00.000-08:00

How many times have i been lost? losing my identity. not knowing who i am. Who i am to others. I don't know.. probably many times.. Just had a Sam Adams light beer. Been drinking quite frequently now.. mostly at nite. Guess i want to not remember that im lost. but even after a drink. nth changes. its like.. im still having the same feelings.. but a lil bit more numb on the outside thou.. but the inside nvr change..

Why do i have these worries inside me? worry that i might brokedown one day knowing that there's no meaning for my existence. Knowing that i might not be needed in the world. As they all get their own meaningful ones.. i will just be ditched aside..

I don't know what should i do now.. Going back to Malaysia doesn't seem so special now and a part of me wanted to go back but another part of me doesn't. I wanted to experience winter here. but how about the coming summer? should i go back? probably not because i want to take some summer courses so that i can grad in a shorter period of time. Not only that. there's some issues with my apartment rental. As im renting wit two other msian girls. we are sharing the rent of the apartment. So, if i were to go back to msia in summer. the rent goes on because there is no reason for me to not have to pay for my part of the rent when im not around. the only solution is to not go home OR to find someone who wants to stay in my room for summer. That's kinda hard as i have most of my stuffs in my room. How is that person going to live in my room with all my stuffs there.. I would be too lazy to shift out all my stuffs to empty my room for that person. Crap! see.. its not like i dont want to go back.. i just have all these stuffs to worry about. So, please stop asking me to go back as part of me wanted to but i cant for some understandable reasons..

Guess im kinda drunk now.. or maybe i wanted to be drunk and i get drunk easily. Look how many time si used drunk in this paragraph.. probably im drunk. probably im not drunk.. Okay.. i sound like im drunk now..

These days are weird.. I always look in my MSN and scroll down the list to see who's online. There are ppl who i have in mind to talk to. but for some reasons.. i stopped myself. I don't know what to talk to them. I always had this worry that they might be busy or they just dont wanna talk to me. Maybe its not the right time to talk to them.. all these craps! someone please help me.. is this normal? does anyone has the same experience?

Its probably due to past experience when i talk to them. they simply tell me that they are doing something or they have something to do.. that really makes me feel unneeded. unwanted or watever... its just.. disappointing! but i know i cant blame them. i just at least would like them to u know.. say hi to me first when they are free to do so.. haha.. probably i felt lonely now.. yeah.. i think i am.. pitiful me.

I'm going to have my last midterm in this semester on wednesday. What i did was a sheet of notes.. not completed yet.. sometimes i think my weakness is that i oversimplify stuffs.. everything.. i made them look simple to me.. but actually its not.. it's not easy to make things simple thou.. i guess its m weakness to OVERdo it! as my advise! never overdo something..

alrite.. i donno wat else to write.. i should probably just get some sleep and go shopping tmr! gilroy! the factory outlet town! ahahhaa... owh yeah.. i bought my clothing for skiing in thanksgiving.. ehehe... it costs me quite a lot.. i think more than 200 dollars.. but i just have to spend it once.. hopefully.. =)

My Love Will Get You Home

2007-11-04T23:19:00.000-08:00

If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home. Boy, my love will get you home.

If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home. Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever feel ashame, my love will get you home.
If its only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone, get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home. Boy, my love will get you home.

Hah! A song from "Heart of Greed". hmm.. let say its soft.. hahaha yeah! definitely a goodnite song... LOL.. anyone has any idea how to add songs to bloggie? hahaha.. i know i know.. its lame.. but just to add in something so i can share songs here as well.. hahaha..

Anyway, those are the pics of a game of broomball! ahhaa.. it was fun! but i can hardly breathe in the ice center. I don't know why. Probably of the cold air? haha its really cold.. never expect it to be that cold. anyways.. broomball is like ice hockey. Without skates. and brooms instead of the hockey stick.. LOL i donno wat they call it. wweeee! i scored 1 ! =P

This weekend was really a good one. Just had 2 midterms and the following should be so much less stress.. cause there's not as much homework or anything else to worry about. I finished Heart of Greed too! haha 40 episodes.. Basically my weekend is spent on Series, Basketball, Broomball. and other normal stuffs which im lazy to list them.

To those who are stress.. or maybe not doing that well. You should just look ahead! haha get back on your feet and seek jian wei for help. i will give u a push on your back. not too hard yet not too soft. Just enuff to keep you going. =) Guess i will need someone else to do that to me real soon. As i predict that i am going to be stressed up real soon.hahaha it's always like that.. maybe sometimes its good to tell ppl that everything is going to be ok. If that gives them hope to walk on the tough and rough and full of obstacles road! hehe.. but im sure it will be a superb outcome at the end.

Hmmm.. LSZ asked me to consider going back next summer. HAHA.. so i am! considering the pros and cons.. The last time i went back was not that beneficial. hahaha.. as i spent most my time playing dota, basketball? haha but its cool. I'll see how things goes ok? hehehe.. The thing is i've never experience a summer here yet. I've so far experience all other seasons.. at least im going too... haha.. Can't wait for the ski trip during thanksgiving.. Probably the only motivation now.. hahaha ski ski ski ski ski ski ski.. snowboard maybe? hahaha.. maybe maybe not maybe maybe not. LOL. omgosh.. is that what happens when ppl get hyper? hmmm.. probably.. i ate a lot of stuffs this weekend as i stayed in front of the lap top most of the time..

owh yah.. in the "Heart Of Greed" that guy writes a diary! haha.. he started after breaking up with the girl. can't believe he is writing every single day down for like 900 days? hahaha.. omg.. how can he take that? that's nuts.. hahaha.. hmmm any new songs to recommend? anyone? hehe.. thanks!

It's never too late?

2007-10-29T11:42:00.000-07:00

What is meant by it's never too late? when u are late u are late.. of course.. some might say that its never too late to start all over.. but that is so much easier to be said than done.. a million to the power of a million harder!

I have two midterms.. one might be tomorrow which im not even sure.. and one is on thursday.. but it might be both on thursday too which i prefer.. if it is on tuesday it will definitely caught me unprepared.. and i will probably screw it up so badly that i would cry looking at it.. hahaha... dam! have been so stressed up! stress is beneficial huh? Not so.. when u have ulcers.. headache and feel like killing yourself.. There are just so many many things to be worried about.. homeworks.. assignments.. mid terms.. now adding in a malaysian club thing.. and work.. grrrr.. its really driving me nuts... although hamsters like nuts.. i do too.. but i don wanna go nuts! rarh! i dont wanna eat up myself..

i had a weird dream yesterday.. i once heard ppl said that if u remember ur dream.. u must've not slept well.. i guess so.. have been yawning in class non-stop.. and there's even tears in my eyes.. hahaha.. grrrrrr... stress stress and stress.. n e ways.. the dream was.. about a girl.. it's really weird.. she knows that im leaving soon.. to somewhere.. LOL.. and she made me this kinda.. errr album.. full of food and a lot alot of stuffs.. and it's like a really really long story written in a book.. i didnt read it in the dream as it was too long.. and i decided to keep the album till im free to read it.. haha maybe someday i shall read it in my dreams.. if it still exists..

rararara.. gtg class now.. let's see if i can get through this without having to give up anything.. i hate it when i have to choose between stuffs.. grrr.. but life is just full of choices.. this and that this and that this and that.. lalalala.. wateva la..

2007-10-17T23:53:00.000-07:00

A little video i found.. hahaha.. it was taken accidentally when i was back in Malaysia.. a mamak session with LSZ, Yin Yang and Jo.
=)

Enjoy or suffer.. YOUR choice!

2007-10-08T21:29:00.000-07:00

wuu... this has to be one of the best weekend that i spent in San Jose. For the very first time, i played football! as in American football.. not soccer.. hahaha.. It's cool! althou my team lost most of the game... haha.. if u can spot me in the pic.. im at hmmm mid right? wearing green and white strips.. =) the sand there was really cold! and i mean it! so cold!

BTW, it's Santa cruz beach. about an hour drive from san jose downtown. i've heard alot about ppl wasting their weekends.. haha and im always doing it.. but its really up to how u 'waste' your weekend.. if u do something that got u relaxed.. i guess that wasn't a waste afterall.. since u get all the enjoyment from it.. haha.. anyways... those are peeps from my housemate's christian fellowship.. called A2.. hmmm.. they organizes all types of activities.. santa cruz beach bonfire was one of them.. haha.. althou im not (yet) a christian, * thats what they say... * i guess they don't really care... we just hang out and have fun. =) they are all good ppl.. i know.. haha..

I think it's pretty much our choice whether to enjoy something or not.. now.. i actually have a General redo of a physics exam. Because the class did really bad. The lecturer is giving us a chance to improve our score.. by 30 points max for 3 questions.. I don't know how to do them.. and im kinda struggling.. so.. i end up did like 2 of it and got stuck. Planning to see a tutor tmr.. hopefully they can help. See.. if i chose to struggle wit it.. i would be so stressed up.. but instead.. i chose not to.. i mean how much can that affect my life? learn to look further i guess... u might be stressed out.. but why not take a break? haha.. go do whatever u wanted to do for a while.. since u cant accomplish the stuffs that are supposed to be done.. haha.. i don't know.. u might get less things done this way.. but i guess there's less suffering.

bla bla bla.. One tree hill is over! all four seasons.. i finished it in errr... 1 month? hahaha.. am watching the drive of life now.. cool! lala.. since i don't know how to do my work.. im just gonna do things that i enjoy doing! which is watching drama for now.. haha.. till then.. dont stress out with problems that u are having.. look at the good side of things.. dont be negative.. there will be a way if u have the will.. =) go on and see what happens.. sometimes u have to let ur ego down.. but thats ok.. just do it.. i was thought to open up the door to others.. * in the leadership conference * haha.. ermm.. yeah.. you just wont know if u dont try.. just don carry expectations.. and u'll be fine ;)

Every song ends, and so do every life. Enjoy while it still plays.

2007-09-24T00:35:00.000-07:00

Hello ji4n's blog,

It's your owner here. Well, kinda. Sorry that this will be another emo post?

One of my friend's father just left the world. You have my deepest sympathy.

An introduction of a song,
might be interesting,
might be boring,
or maybe simply astonishing.

The pre-chorus of a song,
might be bringing you up,
might be bringing you down,
or maybe neither nor.

The chorus of a song,
might be the best part,
might be the worst,
or maybe just the same.

The bridge of a song,
might be the greatest part,
might be the saddest part,
or maybe a pre-ending.

The outro of a song,
might be the coolest,
might be the loudest,
but it is definitely ending the song.

What if the best of the song is at the end?
miss it if you stopped at any parts of the song.
you just have to play on.
No matter how bad is the intro, or any part of the song.
because you just wouldn't know what will be coming next.

Every song ends,
so do every life.
Enjoy while it still plays.

Is it important?

2007-09-15T22:49:00.000-07:00

As stated in the title, "Is it important?" to be written by Jian Wei Loh, he argues that the most important things in his life are family, friendship and love. The author is going to begin by asking the question of what do people think is the most important stuffs in their lives? is it achievements? Perfect scores? or Money? Jian states that none of those in the list should be. Why is he saying that? He looked in the mirror today and found out that, he didn't know who he is? or who he was? who he intended to be and who he had become. It certainly sounds like one of those lost teenagers who are looking for themselves. I guess the answer lies in place. A place no other than themselves. But he couldn't find it. So he's in some identity crisis?

"Is the person that i am becoming really the person i wanted to be?" Seriously I'm not sure. Who do i wanted to be? A successful guy with loads of money and girls? Thats what they said isn't it? Guys will only be bothered by 2 things. Money and girls.

First up, money. What is up with money? Can money buy me happiness? maybe. Maybe not. It depends on how did one get the money. Through some dirty paths isn't gonna give him/her happiness. No way. Unless he/she is insane. But well, People like that do exist. As in for me, i think money can't buy you all the happiness that you wanted. But without it, you will be suffering. A quick example would be you got some kind of weird sickness. Maybe not you, someone else that you care about. Without money, how are you supposed to help them? with your strength? No. It doesn't work that way in the world today. Money comes first. With money, you can provide them with professional health care, and certainly comfort. What can be worse than seeing the ones you care leaving you and you can't help it?

Aite.. enuff of those crap.. i had enuff.. hahaa.. was just trying to write a proper.. errr opinion piece i supposed.. but ended up.. i got lazy again! hahaha.. me and my random mind.. maybe I'm going crazy.. well.. i can't help myself. so.. psychologists might.. hahaha.. actually i don't really get that stuffs about teenagers having trouble finding themselves? what the hell? We know who we are.. and why are we in wherever we are doing watever we are doing.. but is that really what we wanted to do? To a certain point maybe..

What's the point of studying engineering.. it's tough.. I didn't mean other majors are easy.. but why engineering? Cause it's a professional degree.. Without it, you can't find a job. WIthout a job, u will be BROKE! and live a life like what they said.. WAI LAO.. haha.. yeah.. so that is why we are studying.. it doesn't interest me at all.. maybe sometimes.. but.. i find some of them really irrelevant. it just makes me feel sick.. and questions why am i doing this? can't we just do whatever we want to do?

The answer is... WE can! But at a great price to pay.. You just don't dare to do it! to be rebellious? yeah.. for all these years.. following rules and stuffs.. and what did you get? i guess the result isnt there yet.. it might be a good one.. such as getting a degree and getting a good job.. But that wouldn't even mean a thing if you have no one to share with. ISn't it? who cares? That's the part where your family, friends and love ones comes in.. They are the ones that can share it with you.. they will be happy for you.. and proud of you.

People fall in the long journey. You just can't help it. Stand right back up when you fall. That makes you tougher.. each and every time. although it might be just a little. don't ever be afraid to walk again. Unless you can fly. ahhaha..

Aite.. So.. you guys watched a litre of tears? it's good in a way.. not that its sad.. but it's motivating! disabled being more hardworking than you? owh gosh.. you got to do better than that.. Yes.. the point of this paragraph is that appreciate what you got. and get the best out of your life. Although it might not be as good as others.. Make it better!

Been struggling with assignments and projects and readings? yeah.. it is definitely a pain in the ass. It's the first time this semester that i handed in a incomplete assignment. I did whatever i could. If its not good enough.. let it be.. At least i did the best.. Sometimes we shouldn't expect too much from ourselves.. do our best and hope for the best would be good enough.. there's always a " what if its not enuff? " LET IT BE! you did your best didn't you? If you were to blame.. admit it.. face it.. How hard can it be? * really hard XD *

THats it for now folks. Hope you will join me again with all my craps! =) Jian out!

Once again...

2007-09-08T01:40:00.000-07:00

As you can see from the title, yeah.. once again.. haha this crappy feeling.. not really crappy.. i kinda enjoys it.. feeling of not wanting to do anything that i dislike.. (booo.. such as homeworks, reports and readings.)

aite *it means alrite if you are wondering* so.. how come i always don't know what to write when i blog.. because i have all those words that i wanted to say it here.. but once i get to this new post thing.. everything seems to vanish. but i have the freedom to write whatever i want to.. hehe.. soo.. been in the middle of some ... should i say problem? of two people.. and yea.. its a guy and a girl.. one is my brother.. *not blood related* and his ex gf... hahaha... aite..

It goes like this... they were together before he left to somewhere.. hahaha.. and its really far far away.. but still reachable by some means.. hahaha.. aite watever.. and they broke up after a month or two after he's gone.. the guy asked for it.. he said the feeling is just not the same and its fading.. and the girl.. who was dominated by the guy in their relationship, was kinda sad of it.. not kinda.. i shoulda say very sad.. but there's nth she can do about it. Time passes... The guy went back to Msia.

I was back in Msia at that time too.. and.. that guy, girl and me went out to yum char.. it was okay the first time.. but they didn't talk much though.. but the 2nd time.. which is the day before he is leaving again, both of them... told me that they feel awkward seeing each other and not wanting him to come ( for her ) and the other way round.. haha.. but it i ended up yum charing wit both of them.. hahaha.. im kinda bad ass.. hahaha.. it went okay i guess..

One more thing... okay.. this is kinda weird.. but watever.. i went out with his ex like a few times when i was back in Msia.. hahaha.. and .. i didn't inform him? And just i dont know what brings me to this but.. watever.. i felt like telling him and i did... hahah which is like a month later.. he was kinda pissed.. and i don't think there's anything wrong? since they broke up and he asked for it? and we just went out together.. its not even dating i guess.. aite.. watever.. this is getting boring..

Aite.. since i've said all these craps.. hahaha.. i dont know where did this came up.. but... i have a confession to make.. i don't think many people know about this.. but.. watever.. i had a gf here.. haha.. and please be aware of the 'had' that i used there.. it's kinda screwed up cause i didn't really contacted her while i was back in Msia.. Can't really help it with the time difference and time spent wit frens and family.. and i think didn't really spend much time wit my family.. but that always happens.. and yah.. she asked for a break up rite before i came back to US.. haha.. and i've never hear a word from her anymore.. she dont pick up my call.. her frens are pissed wit me.. but im lucky that my ex-roommate which is also a korean.. is cool wit me.. and we still hang out.. haha.. whatever.. i think its my bad in this but.. i did say sorry in email.. i know it wouldn't mean much.. but.. thats all i can do i guess.. haha...

Owh! i came across this song in the simpson's movie..
The Carpenters - Close to you
Its so nice! haha kinda.. it was actually a song compiled in a CD as gift for me some time ago.. haha.. Get it if u don hav it! haha strongly recommended..
hmmm.. Series that sucked - Prison break.. ( due to its lousy ending.. not even interested in season 2 )
Series that rocked my world for now.. - One Tree Hill.. ( it totally rocks! romance, sports.. its just so cool.. haha.. u might learn something from it.. such as.. how to deal wit relationship problem and stuffs. its really cool! strongly highly recommended! )

aite peeps.. i did took some pictures but im lazy to upload it from my phone.. it's like 2.15 am now.. haha.. i hav like loads of homework and reading to do.. but dont feel like doin it.. procrastinate! weeee... Getting familiar with procrastinating.. even read something bout how to deal wit it.. guess it didn't work.. cant really trust online stuffs.. and guess what? my housemate got a car! weeeee... now she can drive us around to get stuffs and eat! wahhahaha.. taiwanese and chinese food are so reachable now.. weee! so cool! love it! Rarh! im gonna cook some good food for everyone soon.. will take some pics.. hopefully it will look nice.. haha and.. for the mean time.. let's quote some quoting.. by whoever.. isn't that what everyone does? yeah.. im confirming to the group.. hahaha..

There's absolutely nothing you can do about your past,
No matter how tough it was.. how bad you did.. it's over,
You can always start over if you think you can..
What matters most is the future.. the past are just the past..
They give u good or bad memories or even appears in one of your dreams,
So, start getting on track and make a better future.. if u think u deserved one..

Wow.. i think i just broke the record of www.ji4n.blogspot.com of longest blog did i? hahaha .. Don't get tired of my blog.. haha read my mind! =) and.. one more question.. should i let more ppl to know about my blog.. haha ..

New bed!!

2007-08-26T22:50:00.000-07:00

Heheheh.. i went to get a new bed today! hahaha.. it's an air bed.. Its quite comfortable too! hahaa. My housemates are saying i am gonna have a good nite sleep tonite.. since i slept on a considerable small mattress before this.. hahahaa.. Let me show you !

same old SAN JOSE...

2007-08-18T13:45:00.000-07:00

yeap.. back to San Jose, California, United States of America. rarh! Sore throat is giving me such a pain in the throat and pain in the ass.. besides that im spitting yellow phlegm too.. YUCKS! hmm talking about phlegm.. hahaha nth nth.. there is a pain in my upper jaw near my right ear.. I do not know what is causing it, but it is definitely killing me. I've searched the internet for information about sore throat and found out that it is a symptom of TUMOR! omgosh.. my heart dropped when i read that part. i don't know whether the pain at my upper jaw near my right ear is the pain radiating to the ear that they are talking about. Hopefully its not.. haha! rarh! what is this la?

My sleeping time is all weird now too. i woke up at 1 pm today! omgosh.. slept at 2am last nite.. but still.. Thats a hella long sleep man.. haha.. i miss Malaysia.. haihs.. miss my bed.. my house.. haha.. how comfortable it is.. Love it so much.. haha cant wait to get my new mattress.. this mattress is too freaking small.. cant even fit me..

Moved in to this new apartment which is quite near to campus.. hahaa actually just across the street. but there are no furnitures. no desk. no chair. watsoever.. hahaha.. haihs.. charm.. So.. i've been here for about 3 days. Lets see what i've done so far.. haha.. sleep.. eat... unpacking.. watching anime, watching TVB drama, playing the guitar, paying fees, going to the bank, shopping, going to the apartment office.. haha thats about it wei.. most of the time i spent alone in my apartment.. yes yes.. im a loner again.. hahahaha.. kelian.. =( 2 more years here? im not sure if i can make it.. i'll try though.. haha.. unless someone managed to keep her promise.. LOL 47 is the lucky number huh? hahaha..

Alrite.. im lazy to write any further .. the sore throat is really killin me.. im gonna drink loads of water.. alrite.. till then.. laterz peeps! please drop your comments about my disease.. haha suggestions of treatment is greatly appreciated. =)

Back to US?

2007-08-01T10:57:00.000-07:00

yeap.. 12 more days and i'll be off the land of Malaysia and be on my way back to San Jose.. SWT.. So, am i sad? I'm not too sure. I am sad i guess.. This feeling had been around me for some time.. i dont know what is that.. but it doesn't make me feel comfortable. crap.. rubbish.. Feeling lost at times.. What is the purpose of all these? Again.. failing to achieve what's expected.

Give and take.
Come and go.
Is that what's life all about? walao crappy man.. shit... Let's see.. back in US :

1) No Mamak! one of the major upset.. crappy food.. haha.. althou there are some nice ones.. but i still prefer Malaysia's food!
2) No Close Frens! this is the crappiest thing. Its just .. rarh! crappy.. no one to hang out with.. Not to say no one.. but.. its just different. With the different language.. i just dont feel connected at times.. rarh!
3) No Family! no Mommy's cooking.. rarh! all the crappy food.. and so expensive.. rarh! and im lazy to cook.. hav to do everything by myself.. crap! crappy life..
4) No Car! yeap.. it's all bout walking and taking public transport.. but this is acceptable. haha.. driving is stressful at times..

I am so gonna miss everything all over again.. and feeling lost again.. haha.. My Us frens once told me that sometimes when they wake up, they were shocked being in US.. " eh, why am i here? aren't i supposed to be home? " haha.. But guess this 3 years in US would be a different experience for me.. haihs.. i donno what might happen to me.. but watever it is.. i don care.. hahaha.. im just gonna finish what i am expected to do and see whats coming next.. hahaha.. omgosh.. i just don hav the vision that ycc always claims he has.. hahaha.. Maybe i am shortsighted and he has longsight.. akkaka.. watever..

haihs.. till then.. i'll enjoy the last few moments in Malaysia.. RARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
hamsters dont roar! they squeekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk?

Looks like i will be late again..

2007-07-08T18:53:00.000-07:00

Operator: Why are you booking a flight this late? All the flights are full. The only flight available
back to San franc will be on the 19th of August.
Me: Omgosh.. how can this be? and the flight sux.. i will hav to stay in SG for a night... SG airport it
is.. haihs.. >.<

Yeap yeap.. hahaha looks like im always late to US.. will be rushing everything just like the first time.. i hope it would be a little better though.. as least im more used to the places now.. rarh.. and i will have to buy furnitures for my new apartment.. if not i will just be sleeping on the carpet.. T.T

Hmmm.. looks like my frens are getting all busy again as their holidays end.. but there are some whose holidays just started.. but dont think they are free.. haha.. some are leaving soon.. =( keke .. but i wanna thank you for spending time wit me. =) Guess i won't be back till i grad.. hahaha.. its really taking too much time.. would like to try to stay away from friends and family for a longer time.. it will makes me appreciate it more.. im sure.. hahaha.. lets see.. =P

Rarh... Clubbing was fun! hahaha.. seeing frens going wild.. LOLx.. esspecially my college fren.. first timer.. hahaha.. sexay was kinda wild too.. haha but not to guys.. =P and she has this fren who has such huge..XD im not attracted though.. =P because she is not available.. haha her bf was around all the time.. kakaka..

Hey peeps! if u are seeing this.. haha anyone wanna go genting? i have some free room(s) haha.. Lets go to genting before i leave k? haha.. till then.. ciao!
Btw.. here are some pics of my trip to Sydney and Newcastle.. hahaha

Malaysia....

2007-06-06T10:13:00.000-07:00

Malays
Appetite
Ladies
Asians
Yum YUM
Syiok!
Important?
Aiseh!!

LOL... yes yes.. im back peeps! Malaysia! food food and food, fun fun and fun, messed up sleeping time thou.. hahah now im sleeping at neither the time of United States nor the time of Malaysia.. UK time i guess? LOL.. have been coming back home at 4 - 5 am daily.. LOL.. weirdnya... but.. fun! haha playing mahjong is fun, playing dota is fun.. playing basketball is syiok.. meeting frens is cool! hahaha rarh.. but when the thoughts of i have to go back to US soon kinda bothers me.. hahaha that is why people say that when u stay too long in Malaysia.. u wont wanna go back to US anymore.. hmmmm.. hahha thats true for me now i guess.. enjoying malaysia to the max..

so... there should be 3 trips in this holiday.. Australia.. the big one.. haha.. Perhentian.. and Genting.. LOL.. thats it i guess? should be enough trips for 2 months in Msia.. rarh!

I know my blog has been boring lately with no pictures... that is because i did not take any.. hahaha.. or lazy to upload.. =P yeap.. lazy lazy and lazy.. hehehehe.. laziness has no cure.. haihs.. please tell me if anyone could find one.. hahaha.. dy and ju coming back soon? and this saturday will be sze's house warming.. hahaha she said 7 sis will be there? kakakaka.. we shall see how many will show up.. kekeke...

Jian

HK airport

2007-05-29T16:01:00.000-07:00

hahaha im in HK airport now.. PCCW WiFi connection is cool... even called my parents using internet phone.. alallalala~ yea yea im on the way back home now.. the flight will be in 2 hours time.. and takes about 3 and a half hours to reach KL.. hehehe rarh! hmmmmmm
so altogether 5 and a half hours.. hehehe.. not long not long.. lolx...

Jian

lost count

2007-05-22T13:40:00.000-07:00

its less than 10 days now.. haha lost count.. or rather i don't even bother to keep counting.. hahaha.. hmmmmm.. will be having Materials finals in an hour time.. don't know what else to study.. i guess i have studied enough? but yet... the anxiety is still around.. hahaha.. haihs.. in less than 24 hours time, my finals will be over.. hahaha time flies.. as i have said before.. rarh! im glad that i actually have frens back in Malaysia that still remembers me.. hahaha.. and wootz.. even NS people is holding a gathering on the June 1st.. i think i would just be able to make it..

Sometimes i wonder.. Why do people have to lie? Why can't they tell the truth? Maybe they think it is embarrassing? or wat? hahaha i don't know.. but lies are all around.. haha we cant avoid them.. rarh.. why am i saying this? lolx.. omgosh.. totally off topic.. rarh.. maybe that is why i failed my english.. hahaha.. sigh.. =P

Jian

10 days.. and 2 papers..

2007-05-19T12:43:00.001-07:00

10 days left...and 2 more papers to go.. i just got some bad news... i failed my english test.. which means i will have to retake next semester.. i don't think i did that well in the test today too.. circuits.. wasn't that sure.. haihs.. but.. what done is done...

OKOK.. enough of this! hahaha.. watever.. i know im not smart.. haha.. + my laziness = superb! hahaha negative negative= positive! lolx.. i hope that works.. haha..

good news: i will be going to Sydney on the 26th June i guess.. hahaha.. visiting my sister in Australia.. its her 21st birthday on the 29th of June.. will be there for one week i guess.. hehe...

Thats about it for now.. a lil bit sick.. haha.. sore throat.. maybe i didn't get enough sleep.. hahaha..

Jian

woohhoo.. less than 2 weeks..

2007-05-16T19:37:00.000-07:00

hahahaa.. 13 days more to go and im off! come on come on.. I wanna go back home!!! =P 2 finals down.. hmmm.. i think i did not do that well in English.. but i think i got a hundred for my Pro Engineering finals! hahaa =P 1 presentation and 3 more finals to go! hehehe... time flies... and it will be flying every single second.. LOL.. or perhaps every second is the footprint of time.. hehehe...

Jian

Finals on the way!

2007-05-11T11:18:00.000-07:00

18 more days to go... 5 finals... 1 project presentation.. =) AFter that.. everything is sweet.. LOL... life is kinda sour now.. sometimes it is even bitter... but someday.. it will be sweet.. hmmmm.....

To all the people who still cares for me: ( especially yun and sexay ju! =P thanks for your posts! really appreciate it.. =) )

thank you! and i will be back soon... hahahha.. im now thinking wat should i do back in malaysia... hehehe any suggestion? my sister is asking me whether i wanna go to Sydney wit her to celebrate my 3rd sister's 21st birthday.. hahaha.. but i missed Malaysia.. hmmmmm.. so i am still considering.. hehehe.. till then.. to all the people who are worried bout me.. im sorry.. and no worries... im OK =) 100% ok.. maybe.. LOL...

Jian

I'm sorry..

2007-04-23T22:17:00.000-07:00

Sorry! for myself... nothing had changed but worsened. its all bad... all bad!! nth is going right! Stand right back up after u fall is not easy at all.. that makes those ppl successful.. im wondering whether i could be one of them.. i hope i could.. i really did so badly in the test today.. i think it is the worst so far... but there is still hope as there is part 2 of the test... Did i not study enuff? maybe so.. im such a bad person.. bad bad bad.. stupid stupid! aaaaaaaaaaaaa.... i spilled water on my lap top twice for the past 2 weeks............... Maybe i should be thankful that it is still working.. but my mic arent working thou.. i donno y!!!! I donno what to do now.. or perhaps wat i can do... its all bad! I just cant wait till i get home lar... all these stuffs is straining me to the max.. im necking... and breaking soon.. I just wanna finish this bad ass semester and go home! home! but with my bad results... my parents will be so disappointed in me... bad son i am.. haihs................................. scholarship? it's like a star that is sooooooooooooooooooo far away now.. and its just going further and further.. or perhaps im the one who is sinking... hamsters cant swim u know.. so the will just sink.. and there he goes.. i think hamster might go into depression if he continues this.. he is just pathetic.. no one to blame but himself.. such a loser... stand up and fight again... easy to say thats for sure.. ahhhhhhhhhh.... who said the past is not important? aint the past determines the future? Im SORRY Loh Jian Wei...

* slaps himself *

drag through the last 39 days..

2007-04-19T10:06:00.000-07:00

Hamster is being dragged all the way to the 29th May.. hahaha.. thats the only way he could go through this.. without the strength to even walk with his four tiny feet and paws. He is being dragged.. his back is burning in pain but he has no choice but to go with the flow....with lil hope, and with his lil or no determination.. he is trying to stand on his feet again.... as the people said.. people who are successful are those who are able to stand up right after they fall... how about hamsters? hahaha.. are they the same?

Hamster is confused with what he have been doing lately... He is really being very undecisive.. he couldn't help it.. meanwhile, time is not waiting for him and is dragging him along... He is hurt.. Whenever he wants to stand up.. time is just ahead of him and pull him down again.. there is just not enough strength.. and so be it..

enjoying the emoticons?

2007-04-15T22:33:00.000-07:00

so... u peeps seem to be enjoying spamming emoticons huh? hahaha.. i dont even know how to make one in the chatbox... =( haha.. anyways.. i hav a whole report to hand in tmr.. and i've just started it.. its already 10.35PM now.. haaha.. it's due tmr.. haihs.. procrastinating.. lazying... hahaha...

Im really so good in lazying.. hahaha so its that an advantage i have over people.. =P its bad.. but i cant help it.. hahaha.. lazying is just so good.. no worries.. no nth.. i can just sit there.. and do nth.. haha.. or lay on my bed.. cover myself wit my blue comforter.. hahaha.. hmmmm.. and still waiting for the day to go home.. owh.. how i wish tmr its the day for me to go home.. hahaha...

Materials materials materials.. worst subject of all.. althou the test result wasnt as bad as i expected.. but still.. hahaha.. i dont think im doing well in this sub.. probably the worst out of all... hahaha.. i hate the reports.. the introduction hav to be like 2 pages long.. single spacing!! i think thats more than a thousand words? hahaha.. i just hate these reports.. rarh! bite them into pieces! and then throw them in the dustbin.. and then recycle it.. and then write reports on them again.. and it goes on and on.. never ever ending.. ahhaha..

hahaa.. my roommate is asking me questions about Malaysia for his homework.. he wans to know the tradition or culture.. bla bla bla.. hahaha.. so wat should i tell him? yum char? haha CNY? hahaha i told him a bunch of chinese traditions like red color brings luck.. just simply.. hahaha.. i dont think its that important.. its just a homework.. hahaha where testing his language comes first? hahaha.. rarh! yobuseyo.. means hello on the phone.. hahaha.. but yobu alone means wife.. omgosh.. the korean language is just fascinating huh?

alrite.. better continue with my work before my eye lids gets heavier.. haha! fight like a hamster!!!!!!!!!!!!

43 days and counting....

2007-04-14T10:35:00.000-07:00

weeee 43 days to go.. one more mid term to go till finals.. my last finals is on the 22nd MAy.. cant wait for it to be over so i can go back to MALAYSIA!! hahaha... i'm drunk last nite.. i guess.. its been a while since i last drank beer + 2 types of wines.. hahaha.. thanks to my korean frens.. hahaha.. and i went to sleep at 12 am as they continue having fun.. and i woke up at 3am and join them again.. hahaha.. it was my housemate's burfday.. I think it was really a great one for him as the one he likes is there wit him. hahaha thats really cool.. hmmm.. just had my circuits second midterm on wednesday.. i don't think i did that well in it... haihs... there's just not enuff hard work.. i'm so bad at working hard at myself when im not in the mood.. =( hahaha.. hmmm.. thats it for now!

Another Sunday..

2007-04-08T15:08:00.000-07:00

Its Sunday.. haha this happens week after week.. haihs.. which means.. monday is real near.. mid terms coming up! 2 of them in the coming week.. rarh.. circuits is driving me crazy >.< its so hard to understand.. ahhaha.. or maybe cause im stupid. haihs.. =( kakaka.. as another sunday comes.. it means another week has gone by.. which means im a week nearer to go back home! home sweet home.. hahaha.. 29th May is the day.. lets see.. today its the 8th of april.. there are 30 days in April.. that makes.. 22 days left in April.. 28days in May.. so that makes it.. 50 days! wow.. thats more than a month.. rararara.. no worries.. time flies.. hahaha.. wooosh.. and i will be back in malaysia without even knowing.. haha.. kekeke...

50 days and counting!

Hesitate, hesitate, and hesitate.. whats is wrong with me? i just kept hesitating what should i do.. should i do it.. or should i not do it? Sometimes i feel like it.. sometimes i dont feel like it.. hahha.. is this some kind of psychological disorder? Hahaa.. watever it is.. BRING IT ON! i'll fight till my very last breath..

Happy birthday LONG SHI YUN!

2007-04-06T00:00:00.000-07:00

hahaha its our dear fren's Long Shi Yun's burfday! ahhaha.. to be honest, i didn't remember it.. but on april fool day something came across my mind about someone's burfday.. and its Ms.Yun! haha hope she'll enjoy it.. i know she will.. wit all the frens around.. hahaha .. nitez

half way half way

2007-04-03T17:10:00.000-07:00

Im half way through! hahaha the semester of coz.. mid term 2s on the way.. just a week away.. and then the finals.. and woooosh.. back in msia.. hahahah.. cools.. anyways here are some pics from my san franc trip. ahaha.. statics is driving me crazy again.. its so tough.. struggling to even catch up.. haihs.. how!?!? hahaha fight like a spartan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! rarhhhhhhhhhhhh wooops.. just realized there is some positioning prob wit the pics.. haha.. its style ok? hahaha

Motivate me !!

2007-04-01T08:05:00.000-07:00

" When you fight, fight like a lion. If you get hurt, fight like a wounded lion. The only losers in this world are the quitters."
Written in 2007 by Ronaldo A. Gonzales --- Philippines
This my favorite quote and it encourages me to keep standing whenever I end on the ground bleeding.

RARHHHHHHH.. so fight like a lion it is! hahahaha.. ok!

at the time being, while i still have not get started on my work, lets upload some pictures from great america.. hahaha..

Pics of Stanford University day trip

2007-03-31T08:02:00.000-07:00

hahaha.. Stanford was really huge.. all the walking, walking, and walking drive me nuts... but it was alrite.. we had some fun.. haha..

Rarh! there goes my spring break...

2007-03-30T13:02:00.000-07:00

friday, the fifth day of the week, with Monday just right after the weekend, which means classes are back. A week break was never enough. NEVER! i need more holidays! Now now, i know i've got a lot of work to be done. I did a little bit this morning and then watched superman returns. So So, again it is.. not much work done. ehh.. this entry supposed to be formal.. trying to be.. who cares.. hm.. i wanna go to great america this saturday! i dont care.. gonna enjoy every last bit of my spring break althou its coming to an end.. haihs.. time flies.. but to think of it. its just 2 more months till i can go back to my beloved home country, my beloved family, my room, my bed, my frens of coz.. hahaha.. owh.. i need to study 3 chapters of english.. argue bla bla bla.. bored to death.. thats y i wrote something here.. coz its too boring.. so to think of it.. i came to US on the 22nd of January. and i'll be back on the 29th May. So its just like.. hmm.. February, March, April and May? 4 months? so im half way through? hahah its kinda fast.. but still half to go.. half is 1/2. arararar.. wat the ..

hmmm i took some pictures during spring break thou.. quite a lot i guess... but hvt get it from my frens yet.. First, i went to the cinema to watch 300 with some new korean frens. lolx.. and then.. i went to Stanford University with them on Monday. Tuesday and Wednesday was a total waste of time as i just stayed in the apartment and watched bleach. Yesterday, Thursday i went to San Francisco with my Malaysian frens. Ahahah. its kinda fun.. but tiring thou.. not as tiring as Stanford trip thou... its just full of walking, walking and walking. In addition, there was some running going on to due to the tears of the sky. Or maybe the sweat of the skies. So if im going to the great america this saturday it will be a quite fruitful spring break? or not? hahaha i dont know.. not too bad i guess.. i enjoyed most part of it.. but when its coming to an end. it feels like im back to reality again. but this is what im here for? haha.. owh.. got some scholarships information.. 3.75 gpa? thats crazy.. don even think i can reach 3.5.. ahhahaha. haihs.. alrite alrite.. i need to study!! not for the test thou.. its just readings.. ishh.. rarh! peace out!

SPRING BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-03-23T12:55:00.000-07:00

yo peeps! its spring break!! hahahaha the long awaited spring break... thou its just a week break. Its good enuff.. for me to rest.. hav been so stressed up by all the mid terms and homeworks.. haihs.. hahaha yeahhhhh spring break.. so far.. no trips organized yet.. the only one was to san franc on tuesday wit two other msians.. hehehe hope it will be fun.. anyways cash running low.. so dont think can go to anymore trips.. money is on the way.. but not here yet.. lolx.. >.< haihs.. owh yah! i actually went to ski a week before spring break.. oni took a few pics as all of them are oni bz skiing themselves.. haihs.. hahaha.. coz ppl expert ad.. can go to all the hard tracks.. where as i myself practiced at the lower part.. haihs.. hahaha.. but somehow i managed to ski and went down the easiet track twice. it was fun.. althou i fell down like 10 times or more? hahaha.. i hurt my rib a lil thou.. they actually asked me to ski again during spring break.. but its not confirm yet.. wahhahaa feel like going again.. but my rib still kinda hurt..

pics of my ski trip..

here it comes again!!!

2007-03-11T21:31:00.000-07:00

SUNDAY NIGHT!! omgosh.. here comes another sunday night.. meaning the suffering for another week is gonna start... ahhahaa.. Monday.. 3 lectures and 1 labs... 1st lecture 50 minutes.. 2nd lecture 1 hour and 15 minutes.. 3rd lecture 50 minutes.. LAB!! 2hours and 50 minutes!!!!!!! that means.. ALMOST 8 hours of classes!!!! holy crap... ahha but thanks to this.. i got fridays off.. and thursday only a class.. BTW.... MY roommate is here! finally.. the long awaited roommate.. hahaha.. sooo sooo.. interested in knowing him?? hahaha kakakakaka not gonna give details here.. till i hav any complains to make.. hmmm.. i hope everything will go well thou... currently.. i hate this on and off feeling.. haihs.. its like.. i miss her.. but.. sometimes.. i also dont know.. what should i do? hmmm.. guess thats the way it is for the moment..

Ulcers are killing me! and i mean killing!! rarh! haihs... it hurts! but i guess it cant compare to... hahaha.. wateva... hmmm.. since its sunday nite.. and im trying to study statics.. hahaa.. lets post some pictures.. just randomly.. ahhaha =P that's my housemate.. american.. those r the 2nd trial of chicken wings! hahah it tasted much better than the first that i actually enjoyed it.. hehehe

lalalala.. random post

2007-03-09T09:37:00.000-08:00

hey you! haha wassup? are u guys going next or wat? haha.. yup.. i played bball for the second time yesterday... weee.. Lost again thou.. ahhaa but at least i scored more this time.. haha.. mmmm.. i got back my circuits paper!! hahaha.. it was previously lost.. hmmm.. the results are not bad at all.. hahaha a 100 since donno when.. ahhahaa.. =P got lucky. hehee.. but there's 2 ppl i guess.. in the class who got 105.. zzzz.. hahaha.. alrite alrite.. someone complaining that im not uploading pics.. here u go... wit pictures of food, food n more food!! hahaha.. owh.. there r some pics of my first light rail trip too.. haha.. if u r wondering who r those in the pic.. they r my korean frens... hahaha... and the bah kut teh is cooked by me.. the 3 dishes.. hmmm the chicken wings are cooked by me.. althou it didnt taste that well.. ahahhaa.. peace out!

Mid term part 2

2007-03-06T23:25:00.000-08:00

hahaha.. it's statics mid term part 2 tmr.. stats shows that quite a number of ppl did badly in part 1.. haihs.. i hope i did well in part 1.. but anyways.. part 2 is needed too! ahhaa.. rarh.. din really study much as i hav already did the exercises on sunday. hmmm.. Am i worrying bout something..? i dont know.. i guess so.. things isn't going so well thou.. haihs.. but well.. thats life.. crawl on hamster!

Roommate?

2007-03-02T23:34:00.000-08:00

roommate? no roommate? hahaha.. where is my roommate? still not ere yet.. its friday already.. maybe saturday on sunday.. haha.. the anxiety of mine are fading already.. hahaa in fact.. getting sien.. i dont mind if he's not coming.. hahaha.. so so.. 1 mid term down.. 4 more to go? hahaha.. having two mid terms next week.. =/ alrite.. who cares? hahaa.. hmmm.. had the hardest english class yesterday. owh man.. it was really tough.. hahaha.. 2 peer mentors came.. and was supposed to talk to everyone of us.. the same shits.. why are u coming to college? why did u come to San Jose state? holy crap.. when it came to my turn.. haha i just said to get a degree.. and they asked hell lot s of questions.. and its tough.. coz i dono the answer.. or perhaps wat to answer.. ahahah. crappy.. so what am i here for? i hav really no idea.. suffer? hahaha nawww... to get a god damm paper called the Certificate.. hahaah of a bachelor in Mechanical Engineering? hell yeah.. but why San Jose? haha.. coz i tot it was a nice place.. it turns out okay.. i mean just okay.. and they asked bout wats next after college? haha i dont know.. i seriously dont know.. work? yea i guess so.. thats the way of life? haha i would rather not hav to work.. but cash is what we need huh? haha althou its just a bunch of papers and stones.. people are dying for it.. haha not all thou.. hmmm... but most.. hahaha.. dont tell me u would resist money.. hahaa.. So.. what do u expect from your life? whats ur goal? after college.. go to work.. then get married.. then wat else? get kids.. kids grow up. and we'll be gone.. hahaha.. thats it? is that what life is? hmmm maybe so for most people.. haha althou they hav goals like. i hav to be successful.. define ur successful man.. getting rich? invent some shits? haha or wat? getting thousands of wifes? hey.. thats not a bad idea.. hahaha.. no idea no idea.. live to live.. yah.. weird! What if im not here.. hmm will it make any difference? nawww... we just like one of the pico nano meter of dust in the world.. hahaha.. live a normal life.. thats all... yup.. this world is just too troublesome.. problems everywhere.. cant ppl just look at stuffs differently? all looking for benefits and shits.. i hav no doubt to say that all ppl are selfish.. i might be mean but thats the truth ain't it? think bout it.. time will make things right.. i hope.. hahaa.. watever... wat if i fail college? wat if i dont get a good job after i graduate? so wat? hahaa.. i still live on.. maybe not as comfortable.. hahaha.. hell yeah.. screw this shits... what am i writing.. hahaha no idea.. Planet Earth... THE SELFISH PLANET.. hahaha!

yo!

2007-02-28T08:37:00.000-08:00

omgosh.. mid terms are here! haihs... but spring break is coming soon too.. hahaha.. weee.. hmmm.. biggest news of the week or so.. im getting a roommate! supposed to be coming yesterday nite. but he din show up.. he might be coming today or tonite.. aaaaaaaa.. still worrying who it will be.. haihs.. scary... time for class now.. peace out.

Whats going on?

2007-02-24T00:30:00.000-08:00

Hmm... wazzup? haha.. been watching naruto alot.. hahaha charm.. there's like 7 items in my to-do list and i hav done a lil of some.. LOL.. GG.. haihs... not in the mood.. =/ thanks to a line from my apartment mate.. hahaha it's friday nite dude.. relax.. hahaha.. and so i watched NBA on tv and then 101 sexiest celebrities. Sadly, it consists of guys.. hahaha.. all looked perfect thou.. either with their charming smile.. built up body.. bla bla bla.. haha.. So, I have not made many frens yet.. haha.. maybe it's a bad decision to come to this place all alone.. but still okay.. lets see.. i know about 5 msians here.. a few koreans through my korean apartment mate.. 3 american housemates.. and er.. sort of know a few from the floor.. ( apartment 13th floor ) and err.. a few in the classes.. not too bad huh? i've been here for a month now... but then didn't really find any click frens.. haha just cant find them.. apartment mates and msians are the closest to me now.. but im still grateful to find some frens thou.. although not many.. is there a say bout quality is better than quantity? does that goes wit frens too? hahaha.. rarh who cares.. i miss my frens! rarh.. but i missed out joining those fraternity clubs. haha where they party loads.. haihs.. LOL.. * if i knew this earlier * it might have been different.. but the results might be both ways.. good or bad.. Party to much end up screwing up my studies? haha.. wuuu.. im looking forward for the ski trip next week thou.. hahaha i hope it's going to be fun.. hehehe.. owh yah.. i actually booked my air ticket today.. im going back to Malaysia on the 29th May 2007. Hehe fast yah? =P Cant help it mar.. homesick.. haha.. ok.. time to shut up.. haha woops :X

and again..

2007-02-18T21:04:00.000-08:00

owh.. and again.. it's sunday nite already.. rarh.. classes will be going on tmr again.. sigh.. hahaha.. omg.. so unmotivated now.. =( was looking for someone to talk to but everyone seems bz.. haha.. cant blame them.. it's chinese new year.. it's like Christmas to Americans. ishh ish.. just as usual.. my homeworks arent done yet.. they seem to be coming continuously.. non stop.. haih.. sometimes just really beh tahan.. hmm.. and know wat? my vision is a bit blurr now.. i dont know why.. haha charm.. sigh.. maybe tired.. but yet.. still hav to get my work done.. due tmr.. sunday nite how i hate u.. ishhh..

Sunday nite.. sunday nite..
Classes on monday monday...
I still hav work to be done..
and it's due tmr.. eewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

anyways.. haha my new shoe! =P

owh yah.. and my first cooked bihun.. =)

Happie chinese NEW year!!

2007-02-18T00:06:00.000-08:00

hahahah it's errr chinese new year! just past 12 am.. hehehe.. hmmm.. at least i wasn't alone during chinese new year.. was out to the great mall. it's kinda far away. me and my american apartment mate went on a light rail to the great mall. it took us like half an hour? haha.. mmmmm.. the mall is quite big.. but single storey. hmmm.. it's just like shopping malls in Malaysia.. hahaha loads of clothing shops, shoes, sportswear, kitchen wear and many more.. food too! hahah i bought a new pair of shoes! weee .. happie.. hahaha.. and bought a knife bla bla bla.. owh yah.. then we went for dinner... at a restaurant named eat fresh.. omgosh.. it's the healthiest meal of my life.. i guess.. all vegetables! buffet style.. coz my apartment mate is a nutrition major.. omgosh.. it's like.. haha but it's good for me.. ate loads of vege.. i mean loads of.. it's like vegetables i eat for a week.. hahaha.. hmmm.. at least i enjoyed my cny eve.. hahaha.. not too bad.. =P bout the pictures of my shoe requested.. i hvt uploaded it yet.. haha lazy.. wanna go to bed already.. happy chinese new year!! rarh! sham xiong shi sheng.. althou it's piggie year.. don be soh chu arr.. LOL.. alrite.. gong hei fat choi!

Super duper F***ing stress!!!!

2007-02-13T22:20:00.000-08:00

Holy crap!! statics is driving me crazy.. i hav 3 homeworks due tmr. but then statics is the earliest.. stucked in 3 questions! hate it! i sucked... donno how lar.. been doing for like 2 hours ad.. at this rate.. sigh.. gone lar.. sometime i tot of just giving up studies.. it's really tough now.. rarh! i wana bite ppl arrr ... stressssssssssssssssss till full bar... ~!@!!#!@$E!#!@!@$!@!@!@WR#$$!##!@#!@#

Homeworks... >.<

2007-02-11T20:12:00.001-08:00

grrrrrrrr... homeworks.. hate it! no mood to do it at all.. although its due on wednesday.. but then.. better do it earlier.. haih.. let me list down my homeworks.. statics, circuits, ME 20 bug list, Materials, materials project, english journal.... rarh! someone please help me!! take me out of this burden.. maybe i should go take a break.. hahaha but i have been taking a long break.. was supposed to start work like.. sooo much earlier.. but then.. haih.. sien lar.. whole apartment also empty.. lonelynya.. i miss home.. =(

Got my guitar! RARH!

2007-02-09T23:52:00.001-08:00

hehehe.. owh this morning got my guitar at the retail store " guitar center ". They have all sorts of guitars.. including the 12 strings.. haha and some mini guitars too.. as to my budget.. there's only a limited choices.. haha between epiphone les paul special II and squier strat. I chose squier.. hahaha as the fretboard is white! weee hahaha i love white fret board.. but reviews shows that epiphone is better.. who cares.. i already bought it.. hahaha.. hmmm i actually got a picture of it but no so clear i guess.. hahaha.. owh yah.. i also got a marshall amp.. a small one.. 10 Watts. sounds kinda nice thou.. =) played guitar like 3 hours today.. fingers hurts! and skin peeling off.. ahahaha rarh! hmmm.. this weekend is gonna be a bz one.. as i have loads of homeworks! and 1 project.. rarh! charm liao.. hahaha still din get to explore san jose more.. =/ there's a fren of mine persuading me to transfer to his uni in lousiana hahaha.. coz it's cheaper there if i can get a scholarship there.. and can hang out wit him.. actually the idea is not bad.. i'm considering.. i might .. hahaha but it will be like super mafan.. ishh.. but then save some money lor.. hahaha.. donno la will see how things goes.. mmmmmmm.. besides that.. i miss my frens! grrrrrr... hahaha charm liao.. i miss my girl too.. sigh.. kekeke.. rarh!

Lepaking.. hahaha..

2007-02-07T21:57:00.000-08:00

my breakfast two days ago? hahaa.. i prepared it myself!!
After a long nite yesterday wit my beloved homeworks.. hahaha.. tonite is totally lepaking.. as there is only one class tmr.. wahahahhaa... and no class on friday! getting a guitar on friday! rarh! cant wait.. haha anyways due to lepaking i took some pics of my apartment..

Night view from my apartment window.. cool huh?

This is where i dream every nite.. hehehe.. ( except the first nite.. i slept on the sofa of someone's else apartment )

view from my door? i know.. it's messy.. hahaha

My working desk! where i do all my homeworks, chatting, bla bla bla...

Obviously, my apartment's kitchen.. where i cook my food! from maggi to maggi, and sausages to eggs.. hahahahaa..

okay... im tired of uploading now.. rarh!